“Please, approach like a normal person next time…” Lisa scoffs, feigning offense. “I am a normal person!” Jisoo scrunched her nose.
“You’re really quick with that. It’s amusing.” Jisoo looked down on her hands, smiling, “I guess it’s the thing I love doing most.”
"You said something about rehearsals? What do you do?"
"That's awesome. I didn't know you're the active type. You must be popular around here."
"Well, you don't know me.. so not popular enough."
"I'm flattered. I think there's a tear escaping my eye..." She teased, making the other girl giggle. "I can even dance for you right now." Jisoo blushed.
"Yes. I always have moves in me, you know." Lisa was about to stand up but Jisoo grabbed her arm. "It doesn't have to be now. Next time!" Lisa laughed.
"Alright. I'll inform you when so you can watch us live and see me nail it." Lisa winked.
"Wow, it just got windy around here." Jisoo smirked but faded when Lisa squinted at her. "Are you blown away?"
Jisoo tried to stifle her laugh but failed, making Lisa join her.
She's the only thing she sees and everything about Jisoo is shining bright like the sun.
NOTICE: i won't be able to update tomorrow night so I'll make it up by posting a double update on thursday. thanks guys ❤️
“Urban Dance Camp is coming soon. Are you ready?” Jennie asked the two, who just shrugged. She turned to Lisa, “Kyle said you’ll present a solo choreography. Have you started it?”
“What’s it about?” Chaeyoung asked.
“Oh, it’s a surprise.”
“Oh god. That girl was crazy.” Jennie shook her head at the thought.
“You gotta admit that choreo got us talked about for two months or more.”
Her girlfriend is kissing someone else. She stormed to them without thinking.
“What the fuck, Joy?” Lisa was fuming, looking at her and the guy she’s with.
“L-Lisa. Hi. Why are you here?” Joy plastered a fake smile and pulled her hand from the guy’s hold.
“What are you talking about? I’m Joy’s girlfriend.” She inched closer, slapping the extended hand away.
“Oh, I know.” he laughed.
“What the hell is he saying? Answer me!” Lisa was shaking in anger.
“She only got with you so she could get in to Square 3 Crew easily. You were pretty easy to fool.”
"Burn in hell." Lisa left.
*end of flashback*
“Trash. Joy isn’t fit to be in the crew anyway. She tried.” Jennie laughed.
“Kyle wouldn’t allow it either. Having relationships with co-members is a big no.” They nodded and Jennie stayed silent.
"Ugh stop it you dumbass." Lisa groaned. "What? It was a great choreo."
"Yeah, I'd like to see it again too." Jennie grinned.
"Damn, Lisa. You were really mad that time."
"She needed me." Lisa only laughed at the memory.
Lisa - center; Rosé & Jennie - 2 girls behind; Ten & Kyle - 2 guys at the sides
double update as promised ☺️
"Hi Lisa." She shyly waved at her when she noticed that Lisa wasn't alone.
"Oh, these are my friends by the way. Chaeyoung and Jennie." They smiled.
"Wow. You're even prettier in person..." She muttered dumbfounded, staring at Jisoo's face.
"You've seen me before?" She asked.
"No! I mean Lisa mentioned you were pretty. I didn't expect you to be SUPER PRETTY." she felt a jab on her side, wincing at the pain.
It was hilarious that she can't even help laughing at them. The three turned to look at her with curious expressions.
"I don't know, actually." She shrugged. Chaeyoung suddenly got an idea. "You should come with us, Jisoo!"
Lisa whipped around and mouthed words to her.
"What? I wanna know Jisoo more." She whispered back. "So, do you wanna come? You can watch our rehearsals."
"I guess, I could." Jisoo smiled softly.
"Y-yes, of course. Definitely."
"Great!" Chaeyoung clapped and locked arms with Jisoo, which took her by surprise.
"What?" Lisa asked. Jennie only pointed at Chaeyoung, who was engaging Jisoo in an animated conversation. Jennie smiled, but her eyes didn't.
"Chaeyoung's just really friendly." Jennie only hummed. "Come on, Nini. We have to catch up. We still have rehearsals." She started walking and Jennie followed.
"Hey guys! Wait up!" She grabbed Jennie's arm and jogged to them.
She let go of Jennie's arm and looked back and forth at her best friend and Jisoo, happily talking to each other.
She felt a pain in her chest.
*dun dun dunnnn* 😉
[cover art by hiraethcamila ]
*credits to the owners of the photos used*
what's the deal?
It's been another day of tiresome rehearsals and add to that the growing annoyance to her best friend who keeps talking and asking about Jisoo.
She pushed herself out of bed and went to the bathroom.
"I need a shower." She sighed.
The thought of her smile made her smile too. But when she thinks of Jisoo smiling because of another person, she shuts her eyes tightly.
"I shouldn't be this affected. What is happening to me?"
She misses Jisoo, but it looks like she's not the only one.
Lisa is too serious than usual. Chaeyoung tried talking to her about the dance camp and the choreography but she'd just shrug or nod at everything she says.
Jennie studied them from afar with a frown.
"This is not good." She mumbled.
"Can you tone it down for a bit? This is clearly not good for my heart."
"Your smile. Too bright and beautiful. I'm having a heart attack." Lisa's voice faded and Jisoo only blushed.
"Oh yeah I only wear contacts in class. Do i look good?" Lisa acted cool in front of the camera and wiggled her brows at Jisoo.
"So full of yourself, as always. But yes, you do look good." Now it was her turn to blush
"Quit changing the topic, Jisoo-ah. You haven't answered me."
"What was the question?" She tilted her head. Lisa moved closer to the camera, smiling softly.
"Did you miss me?"
"Yes. I miss you...appearing out of nowhere. The only person who talks to me is busy..." she pouted.
"Oh god you're so cute..." Lisa whispered to herself, admiring the other girl in her screen. "I miss you too."
"What are you doing?"
"Showing you my killer smile. Duh!"
"Why are you so weird..."
"You're tired. You should rest now."
"Me? No. I'm so awake."
"Yes you are. It's almost 12 too. We should rest."
"Aww.. but i still wanna talk."
"We'll talk again soon, don't worry."
"Good night Jichuuu."
"Jichu?" Jisoo only shook her head at her antics and laughed.
"Good night, Lisa. I'll see you soon."
[ hope you enjoyed the long and fluffy update tonight. have a happy weekend! ]
It was hard. Other nights, she would just fall asleep right as her back touches the bed out of fatigue.
She would check on her from time to time, and the girl wouldn't let the chance pass to tease her every time.
"Is that porn? What are you so busy looking at?" Lisa quickly put down her phone and glared at her best friend.
"What is it to you?"
Lisa sighed. "Chat messages. I'm not a perv, Chaeyoung."
"Who's the mystery person doing that to you?" She pointed at her mouth, drawing a smile to emphasize her point.
"Why do you wanna know?"
"I'm your best friend. Duh?"
That took her off guard, giving Lisa the chance to stand up and leave her shocked at the statement.
Kyle called them back to practice to continue the day's routine. She slowly got up and drank her water.
"What was that about..." she mumbled to herself.
Lisa's face lit up when Jisoo walked in.
"Jisoo!" She immediately jogged towards her.
"Hi. Sorry to interrupt you." She shyly smiled and waved to them.
"I brought snacks for everyone. I figured you're all tired and hungry."
Everyone cheered, thanking Jisoo for the food.
Chaeyoung hugged Jisoo, surprising the girl.
Lisa immediately mirrored the act, forgetting the stunt that her best friend did.
"You go to this extent now? You must've missed me terribly." She teased.
Jisoo blushed and hit her arm.
"See? You're not even denying. Wow, Kim Jisoo, wonderful character development."
Both of them laughed.
"Sorry, I'm stinky and sweaty. Thank you for coming to see me."
"It's no big deal." She said softly.
She let Jisoo pull her arm and take her to where everyone was eating.
Nothing can wipe the smile off of her face now for the rest of the day.
A voice caught her attention. She turned to see Jisoo standing there, effortlessly making her weak inside.
"No," she walked closer to her, greeting her with a smile, "I told you I'll wait for you."
She held her hand, which Jisoo accepted
"Is that your camera?"
"Yeah, this is what I was talking about. My passion aside from dancing."
"Can I see your shots?" They halted. Lisa opened her camera and showed Jisoo some photos.
"Wow" Jisoo exclaimed, making Lisa lean closer to see what she's looking at.
"You really got an eye for photography. These are great, Lisa."
She smiled at the kind words
"I would like to take photos of you too, if you don't mind?"
"I don't know how to act in front of cameras..."
"You don't have to. You're a natural, Jisoo."
"I could even show you now." Jisoo got confused when Lisa released her hand and jogged in front of her, positioning herself. Jisoo just stood still, watching her.
"Smile for me, sunshine." Lisa sighed as the sun shone on her, "...perfect."
"Where is it? Let me see?"
"Later. Let's go eat. I'm starving" she held her hand again.
She saw the growing smile on Jisoo's face when they sat at a table beside a shelf.
She got the same drink and a cake, making Jisoo's order upsized so they can share the food.
"I got food, surrounded by books and you, here with me. I'm all good."
Lisa had to sip from her glass of water to hide her face-eating grin. Jisoo knows how to get the butterflies go wild.
[ im feeling generous and bored so here's a double update ]
"You never talk much about yourself."
"You never really ask either."
"Fair enough. Let's make it personal then." Jisoo just shrugged.
"How many relationships have you been in?"
"How could that be possible?"
"Simple. I told you, no one was interested in me to befriend me or make moves on me."
"You didn't like anyone? Crush? One-sided love?"
"I didn't. Only books interested me." Lisa looked at her incredulously
"Wow, you're even weirder than I am" and terribly oblivious, she thought.
"Well, sorry for having my own world." She laughed.
She opened her camera again and took photos of her in her most natural state.
"If no one sees you like I do, then I'm one lucky girl to witness it."
"You're doing great, actually. I told you, you don't even have to try."
"You're just saying that." Jisoo hid her face behind the book, but Lisa still took a picture.
Jisoo took the camera from Lisa, "Enough with me. Let me take a photo of you. I want to remember this day."
"I had a great time. Thanks for today." Jisoo smiled softly at her, which Lisa mirrored. She just looked at her for a little while.
"Anything for you."
Jisoo looked at her, watching her every move and not saying a thing. When they were too close, Lisa felt her heart thump so loud in her chest and hugged the girl.
Lisa stayed up all night trying to get her mind off of tonight's confession and the possible consequences it could bring the next day. She spent the night expressing herself through the only way she knows best.
Watch at 0:51
"5, 6, 7, 8" Kyle counted, watching the rest of them do the dance routine closely.
"Wait, stop stop" he clapped twice.
"Yeah, sorry, I was just confused for a sec." She felt everyone's eyes on her but she dismissed the unsettling feeling. Kyle nodded.
"Let's start from the top then do another round before we have a quick water break."
"Hey, Lis. You alright? You seem out of it today." Lisa drank from her bottle "I'm alright. Just a bit tired, I think."
"I need you to focus. Dance camp is two days away."
"But whatever it is that's bothering you, you can talk to us after. Alright?" He gave her a comforting smile.
She immediately checked her phone to see if there are any messages or missed calls from Jisoo.
Jennie put down Kuma on the floor while the two of them checked for Lisa.
"Hey, loser." Jennie greeted
"I think I fucked up, guys..." She breathed in deep, letting out a shaky breath. She looked up, tears running down.
"I fucked up this time for sure."
"You just confessed, Lisa. You didn't do anything wrong."
"Then why hasn't she talked to me? She's avoiding me." Lisa grew frustrated.
"It hurts so much..." She sobbed, hitting her chest with her balled fist.
[ it's gets worse oops here's a double update. pls bear with me ]
"Thanks Kuku... Where's your mom?" as if on cue, Jennie and Chaeyoung entered the room with food in hand and comforting smiles
She continued checking her phone for any signs of Jisoo, but failing to see anything. Her heart only dropped at the sight of her unseen messages.
"What am I supposed to do, Nini? I can't just sit back and wait without doing anything?"
Lisa's shoulder's slumped, the pain in her chest growing. "But I need her too.." Chaeyoung hugged her, "I know this sucks but you'll get through this. Be strong." They hugged for a long while.
"I will be. I don't think I'll go to class. I'll just stay here at the quad." Chaeyoung nodded. "I'll stay with her. Go" Jennie quickly hugged her and let her leave.
"You don't have to. I'm not a baby, Jen."
"Keep yourself together" Jennie whispered to her, squeezing her wrist.
"Jisoo..." Lisa mumbled softly. Jisoo looked at her but quickly avoided her gaze.
"I'm sorry, I'll just go to another bench. You can have this spot."
Lisa only ran faster to catch up to her, grabbing her hand.
"Jisoo please, let's talk. I beg you."
"We don't have anything to talk about. Please let me go..."
"I-I'm not avoiding you." She stuttered.
"That's bull, and you know that." She walked in front of her, "you don't even read my messages anymore..."
"Why not? You can't tell me what to feel, Jisoo. That's not how it works!" Jisoo winced at the loudness of her voice, which Lisa instantly regretted.
"It's not that easy, Lisa. Please, just let it go. Just forget it."
"That's just unfair..." Lisa's voice faded.
"But Jisoo, I love y-"
"Don't. Lisa please..." Jisoo shut her eyes, tears trailing down her cheeks.
"Please, don't say you love me. I might not say it back..."
I'm leaving you this song to listen to. Please anticipate for tomorrow's chapter. ❤️
let's go deeper into the angst. listen to the playlist ❤️
[ note: there will be a video linked in one of the tweets. it is important to watch it and take note of the song and the dancer's emotions all throughout, as they will portray lisa in this chapter. ]
Chaeyoung coaxed her best friend, in hopes that she will give in.
Lisa only stared blankly at the ceiling, eyes puffy from crying all night and lack of sleep.
A tear rolled down her face, "I don't remember how I got home. I just remembered it hurt. Seeing her hurt, Chaeng..."
She broke into sobs, crying out the tears left in her.
"Please, don't say you love me. I might not say it back..."
Everything fell silent. Jennie, who was watching in a distance, witnessed and heard it all. Jisoo looked straight at her with tear-stained face, while Lisa just stood there.
"Lisa, fucking breathe. Come on, breathe with me. Follow Nini." Lisa's eyes looked lost and broken.
"You're okay. You're gonna be okay. Let's go home and rest."
"I know..." Jennie doesn't even have the words to comfort her.
The sky started getting dark. She had to take her home.
It took everything in her to finally get out and join the crew to dance camp. She stayed silent throughout the ride, while Jennie and Chaeyoung tried to distract themselves with small talks and music.
The two knew best to let her be for awhile.
Everyone seems excited and happy, aside from her. When they entered the big dance hall, she was approached by a familiar person.
"Joy" She answered, but was instantly interrupted by Chaeyoung, eyeing the other girl cautiously "Lisa, is she bothering you?"
"No, no. It's fine, Chaeng. Go ahead, I'll follow you." She nodded.
"Can we talk?"
"I'm sorry for what happened before. I never got to apologize properly..." Joy continued,
"Dohwan..he's really controlling and abusive. It was all his idea and I'm sorry for taking part in it. I never wanted to hurt you."
"I- didn't know. Sorry you had to endure that kind of guy." Joy smiled softly, "it's okay. I'm just glad I got away from him now."
Joy's lips turned to a grin, gladly accepting the embrace.
"You look like you're the one who needed it most, Lisa. Release what's in your heart in this camp. This is safe space."
"Did Joy do anything?" Her best friend ask, "Yeah, she apologized. We're okay now." Lisa smiled a little. It did make her feel a bit lighter, but still had that sinking feeling in her stomach.
"Kyle, I wanna do a solo."
"You sure you can do it?"
"Yeah I need to... I have to express myself." Kyle hugged her tight.
"You sure about this? People are gonna see this online." Lisa nodded. "We got you, bub."
Everyone clapped as Lisa walked towards the center, conditioning herself. Once the music started, her emotions started to show along her movements.
*take note of the song and emotions of the dancer. enjoy ❤️*
It might not be visible to everyone, but her friends can see the tears streaming down her cheeks, as she catches her breath.
Jennie and Chaeyoung followed in suit, to keep her company, not knowing that another person silently trailed behind them as they left the building.
[ a gift for the weekend 🌚]
Chaeyoung held her wrist to stop her from getting more. Lisa turned to her with tired eyes,
"Please, Chaeng... just this time. I won't run away from you guys. Just let me do this."
"Okay, but you can drink at your dorm."
"No... i want to drink outside. I want to drink and be under the night sky. You know how the stars comfort me." She smiled bitterly.
"What are you doing here?" Jennie said.
"I don't know either. I just followed Lisa after her performance." Lisa shrugged and continued walking, "Join me for a drink, Joy."
Lisa was giggling, reaching out her arm to the sky, as if she could touch the stars.
"Pretty. Too pretty..."
When it was all empty, she stared at it. "Empty already? Huh, it's like me." She pointed at it, showing it to Joy while laughing. The girl only frowned at her.
"Already? But the sun isn't up yet. I wanna see my sunshine!" she slurred, letting herself fall down on the ground with arms wide open.
"I know where my sunshine is... I'll go there. Yes..." she mumbled to herself.
Her best friends grabbed their stuff and followed.
Lisa just ignored her as she walked down the street, humming the tune to You Are My Sunshine repeatedly.
"Lisa, get in the car, you dumbass." Chaeyoung whined.
"Jisoo-ah! Hey sunshine, I'm here!" She started shouting and shaking the gate.
"Holy shit" Chaeyoung and Joy pulled her from the gate, but Lisa had a strong grip to it.
She stopped shaking the gate so her friends let her stand there, seeing she wouldn't be letting go soon.
"I think I can't do that... i know I said I'll do anything for you..." she started sobbing.
"But i don't think I can forget you that easy. I-I'm sorry."
"See? They agree!" Lisa started whimpering.
"I just fucking love you. Damn it!"
"I don't know what you want or what you're thinking. I'm still hoping you'll tell me."
"Let me love you, even if loving you hurts" she hit her chest with her fist, "this" again, "much" and again. She slowly slid down, kneeling on the ground. Joy pulled her in for a hug.
"You're still my sun... Please don't take my sunshine away."
Once the car started moving, Jisoo went out and watched them leave, with tears in her eyes.
let me leave you this song that Lisa was humming to 🤧🌚❤️
i might not update on monday night bc i have finals on tuesday. please anticipate the next chapter. thank you guys ❤️️
a sneak peak of the after hours
Jennie sipped on her drink, raising her brows at the girl. "Yeah you did. We couldn't even pull you away from the gate."
"I must've looked pathetic."
"It's okay. Nobody else saw you. It's just us and Joy."
Lisa was ashamed. There were moments where she didn't know what she was doing or she couldn't remember, but her friends made sure she knew some of it. They excluded the fact about Jisoo listening to her that night.
"I'll be. It will take time but I'll be."
"I know. You're strong."
"This is weird. You're being too nice." Both of them laughed.
She put a pillow on her face and groaned, "Look what you did to me, Jisoo." She shook her head, smiling sadly. "How cruel of you."
She stared at Jisoo's icon on her phone
"I miss your face, sunshine. I miss your bright smile..the smile you always gave me. It's been gloomy lately."
tonight's update is inspired by this song
[ double update since i missed writing. also, i'm writing them on the spot again so please be patient with me 😅❤️]
And today was one of those days when Lisa's broken expression and lost eyes are haunting her to no end.
"It wasn't easy for me, Lisa. I'm sorry." She let a tear escape. Her head starts throbbing, adding to the pain that she's currently feeling in her chest.
"I don't deserve you."
you're not like a thing, are you??
"I was only late for 5 minutes. Don't make that face." Joy rolled her eyes. "You were late for 15 minutes. What are you talking about?" Lisa just chuckled, which made Joy smile but she didn't let it show.
"I ordered your favorite"
"What's wrong with that? You love eating."
"True but Kyle's gonna kill me for eating too much and not working out."
"Then work your butt off."
"Sounds good as long as you pay for my ticket." Joy smirked. "Why do I even hang out with you.."
"You're not turning me down either so you like hanging out with me."
She was the first one out of the room as soon as the class was dismissed.
Another girl was trailing behind her, pulling her hand to keep her from walking ahead of her.
The wind suddenly blew, as the clouds get darker.
Jisoo felt a pang in her chest, quickly turning back around at the corner.
Raindrops started hitting the ground, making her start walking again and taking another route to go home.
She bit her lip when she realized that it's not the rain that's making her cheeks wet.
isn't it fun to see jisoo's perspective now? 🌚 2 chapters left. how will it end? hmm... 🤭
She grabbed her warmest coat and went on her way to the nearest convenience store.
"You look like shit" She mused, stepping back as Jisoo grabbed bottles and putting them in her basket. "Wait, I mean are you okay? You look sick."
"I feel like shit and I'm sick." She shrugged. "Let me help you with that."
"Your fever's high. I'll help you get home."
"Why? Aren't you mad at me?"
"You hurt Lisa, so I should be mad" Jisoo looked ahead, feeling worse to hear it from her best friend. "But I know you're hurting too"
"You were there. You listened to her that night, even though you didn't show up. I know. I didn't expect you to do anything."
Jisoo frowned as her headache grew worse.
"Thanks for the help" She coughed again "and for understanding me." Chaeyoung only smiled sadly.
"She's doing a bit better now.."
Jisoo knew what she meant. She saw it herself. She couldn't help the tears slowly form in her eyes.
"Will you be okay by yourself?" Jisoo nodded. She took a deep breath before looking at Chaeyoung.
"I will be. I'm used to it."
As soon as the girl was gone, she took the medicine and dragged herself to bed. The exhaustion quickly washed over her, making her instantly fall asleep.
"Are you sure?"
"I'm sure and you can't stop me either. See you later." She was gone.
Gasping for air, she didn't even try knocking anymore before entering the dark and quiet apartment. Her eyes looked for the girl.
Lisa only looked at her as the girl kissed her lips.
"Lisa!" She gasped. She opened her eyes and realized that she was in her room, with a pair of worried eyes studying her
"You're okay. It was just a dream." She heard a soft voice. She looked on to the girl who was wiping a cold towel against her arm.
"Am I still dreaming?" Her hoarse voice bothered her.
Both of them stayed silent; Lisa ignoring the intense stares Jisoo was giving her as she touched her face "You're here"
"Chaeng told me you were sick. I had to make sure you were fine." She looked again at Jisoo, "Don't worry, I'll go as soon as your fever goes down."
"You were saying?" Lisa kept her feelings at bay. Being alone with Jisoo is hard for her. Jisoo slowly locked eyes with her, anxiety drawn all over her face.
"Please, don't go."
"I'm staying" She tucked the loose hair on Jisoo's face behind her ear, smiling softly at her
"Let me take care of you tonight."
"I'll go get the food outside from Nini. I can't cook so I asked her."
"Don't move. It's my turn to feed you."
"Thank you, Lisa." She said, and the girl nodded.
"Get some rest. I'll be here to watch over you." Jisoo sat up on her bed, just watching the girl try busying her self with her phone as if it was the most interesting thing she saw. Jisoo laid in bed.
"We don't have to talk. Just rest and get better. I'll stay right here like this with you until you feel better."
Jisoo closed her eyes.
"I love you"
Please, stay longer, Jisoo thought, hugging her tighter
one chapter left. idk if i'll be able to update tomorrow, but in case that i couldn't, I'll update on saturday 🤭thanks guys ❤️
may jisoos bless me bc im writing on the spot again. let's hope i dont fck this up lol please bear with me
"Jisoo? Hey, you okay?" Lisa asked worriedly.
"I feel better now. I think I can manage on my own for the day. You can go whenever you need to." Lisa nodded and started gathering her stuff.
"I'll go now. If you need me, you can contact me or Chaeng. Whatever you need, tell me." Jisoo just nodded.
"Lisa, thank you. Really." She sincerely smiled at her, in which Lisa just shrugged bashfully.
"Anything for you."
"Found anything worth the shot?" She watched the girl busying herself with the camera, slowly taking her eyes off of it.
Their eyes met and she smiled at her.
Jisoo felt her lips tug into a wider grin and Lisa felt that it was a good chance to snap a photo. Jisoo tilted her head.
"I haven't seen that smile for a while. I had to take a picture so it would last longer."
"Practicing?" She asked, "Yeah. I wanted to enjoy the sunshine. It's been a while so I took it as a sign then, here you are."
"I missed it too, so much." Jisoo felt Lisa's gaze. If she turned around, she knew her eyes would lock with hers, and it will be hard for her heart to calm down.
"Lisa! Yah butthead! I just left you for a sec and now you're with another gi- Hi Jisoo! oh my..."
Jisoo was laughing at the flustered girl while Lisa was shooting daggers to her by her eyes.
"Yeah I'm gonna go look for someone to ride my bike with me. I should go pick up Jennie, yeah." She pedaled away from the couple, chuckling.
Lisa agreed and they stopped at a bench under a tree, away from everyone else. They were silent for a moment, collecting their thoughts before speaking.
"I guess I got scared too..."
Jisoo took one of her hands and held it close to her.
"I gotta admit, I was so scared and surprised." Her voice was soft, "You're the only person who took interest in me and actually made a move. It was all new to me. I didn't know how to handle it."
She looked at Lisa, "You made me feel that I wasn't invisible- that I mattered." Jisoo put her other hand over their joined hands.
"You made me feel, Lisa. It overwhelmed me."
She let a sad laugh out, "I thought, why would anyone think they like me? I was alone for too long, so the insecurities seeped in."
"What if I gave myself to you and you're never really there to catch me?" Jisoo's eyes were full of worries.
"The days that we're apart and the time I found you with another girl- god that shattered me. You don't even know."
"I had the time to think things through and I understand them all now. I slowly understood myself during the process." She paused.
"I know you love me, Lisa. But I'm afraid I still can't say it back."
"I can't say it back without making sure of my own feelings. I need time. I want to be able to say it back without being scared."
"I'll give you the time you need. Anything for you, I'd do it. You know that, sunshine." Tears brimming her eyes.
"Look at me, Lisa." The girl complied. Seeing eye to eye, Jisoo smiled.
"I like you, more than anything else."
"I'm willing to take the risk. I want to make it with you."
Lisa burst into tears, with Jisoo pulling her in for a hug.
"We'll make it together."
epilogue will be posted to wrap the whole story up. thanks for patiently waiting for this chapter's continuation. ❤️ tell me your thoughts thru my cc~ open.spotify.com/track/7wWw7hBm…
we're finally here. let's do this 💨
"Hi friends!" She greeted. "Why are you so chirpy?" Jennie cocked a brow at her, seeing the big grin on Lisa's face.
She opened her phone and checked her notifications, also to see if her favorite person messaged her.
"Jisoo-ah! Why are you running?! Come back!" She looked back and saw Lisa was right behind her. She stopped and frowned "You were running to me!"
"You said you'd ditch. Too bad I got you now."
"Why are you smiling so much? If this is some prank you prepared, I swear I'm gonna hit you"
"What? Can't I be happy that you're here?" She held her hand, "And besides, I'm excited to spend time with you."
Jisoo didn't argue anymore and smiled back at her. She held Lisa's hand properly and squeezed it gently.
"I'm excited too."
"Wow, this is amazing."
"I sure hoped you would, because I brought your favorites." Lisa grabbed her hand and let her sit at the blanket. Jisoo studied the other details and her heart swelled at the effort poured into them.
"I'm swooning. Such a romantic star." Lisa giggled, placing the plates in front of them. "Let's eat. We have the night to ourselves."
"I had to ask; what's so special about tonight that you prepared all these?" Lisa played with Jisoo's hand, "I just felt doing it. I wanted to do it for you. I didn't really think of it."
Lisa was blushing but it didn't show. Jisoo pinched her cheeks, "You're too sweet and cute."
"I wanted to see the stars with you even before. I'm happy to be here with you tonight." Jisoo said softly, with Lisa glancing her way. "Thank you for this"
"You were so patient with me. It wasn't all happy and easy, but we made it. I'm glad I made that decision." Jisoo snuggled closer.
"Why are you looking at me like that? Stop acting cool, it's funny." Jisoo laughed, which made Lisa break her act and started laughing too.
"I'm the lucky one"
"I didn't know you can be this possessive." Lisa mused.
Both of them fell silent again and spent the time watching the stars, with Lisa humming soft tunes to Jisoo.
Soon enough, her voice found it's way out of her lips.
It made Lisa retract her arm and pause for awhile. She always imagined how it would feel or how she'd react once she heard it from her. Hearing Jisoo say it for the first time made her heart thump louder.
"I know. I knew all along" Jisoo didn't expect that answer.
"I knew you loved me even before you realized it and finally said it." She caressed her face and studied her soft features.
"I love you too, sunshine. I still do."
Jisoo didn't know she was smiling back. All she felt was warmth and the crazy beating of her heart in her chest, while watching the glow on Lisa's face through the moonlight.
"I knew you're my star."
"You're everything I wanted and more."
They stayed in each other's arms, with the sky as their witness.