Apollo Moon AKA Forest Harader thread 🧵
Trans identifying female porn star dead at 26
Trans masculine porn star Apollo Moon aka Forest Harader has died. These were her last tweets, posted to her porn account. In them, she seems to express resentment and judgment of people who don't check on their friends, but also offers some absolution and condolence that perhaps nothing could have saved them from their mental illness and suffering.
It's framed as her feelings about friends' suicide, but perhaps she knew what was coming in the next few days, and wanted her loved ones and fans to not blame themselves for what her family has so far euphemized as an "injury."
Some are saying the family said she died in an accident, but every source that refers to mechanism, that I've seen, does so obliquely using the term "injury," not "accident." True accidental deaths are typically reported as such immediately as accidents to avoid this kind of speculation. I suspect they're waiting for either a tox screen result or the injuries were known to be self inflicted or otherwise embarrassing for the family.
Forest's way of making a living - BDSM porn - must have disgusted her, if sex itself repulsed her.
She had been trying to get out of the sex industry, and had even announced her departure 5 weeks ago. Forest had only been making porn since the pandemic. She mentioned her decline in mental health.
Did it start to sink in that she could leave the industry but what she'd done and seen would continue to haunt her and limit her opportunities in life? Did she reflect on the debts she wouldn't be able to pay if she did not keep participating in an activity she found disgusting?
The irony is only bitter now.
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Near the end of her life, she was also experiencing significant sexual dysfunction, which can be a symptom of a mental health emergency. It also could be the logical end result of 4 years of working in pornography and becoming wealthy and famous for an act which disgusts you.
In her last Tiktok, she stated her trans masculine gender was a performance based on what she thought others would accept and who she wanted to be. It was not always authentic or truthful. Did backlash from the trans community over this video contribute to her "injury?"
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