Thread by @EmotionsDoctor

I can’t take it anymore...

When I heard myself utter those words twenty four hours ago, I knew that something has deeply gone wrong within me.

I have what my friends call, an impressive threshold for pain. My usual default mode is to rent a space in the head of anyone who has the capacity to hurt me, excuse regular and irregular bullshit, create excuses for trespassers and also extend a consistent hand of forgiveness.

But when I get to my limit. I am done. Really done and I will be ready to serve an assertive buffet.

So when I got to my breaking point yesterday, I knew I had had enough of the five year pain. A pain I had assumed I wasn’t affected by.

A pain I had become familiar with and I was already creating a strategy to accommodate.

The more I however tried to numb it, the more it pierced me. The more it reminded me of it’s existence. The more it nurtured itself by my silence.

When I decided to deal with the pain twenty fours hours ago. I was angry, I was fuming, I was at my breaking point. But then I had a challenge, a challenge to practice what my brand represents.

A challenge to stay assertive when my soul desired some flavour of aggression, a choice to remain stable in the face of provocation. A decision to communicate my message &not my pain.

It was a tough scenario to encounter especially when nothing within me hungered for civility.

I faced my pain and I faced it headlong.

My question to you today is, have you faced your pain? what emotion are you trying to suppress? What pain are you trying to ignore?

Are you aware that about 80% of DIS- EASES are caused by suppressed emotions? If you can, please get a copy of Deadly Emotions by Dr Don Colbert. It’s one of the best books I have read.

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