Before you get there, confirm your stance more rationally. 👇
my.bible.com/reading-plans/…
But actually look up everything you don't understand or have a problem with.
Maybe you've done this already, but I doubt it.
larrysanger.org/2020/01/readin…
I suspect, though, that your perspective on many things will change. Actually reading the scriptures systematically for understanding...changes people.