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Visakan Veerasamy Profile picture
@visakanv
Sep 22, 2020 • 6 tweets • 2 min read • Read on X
experiencing a sort of come-to-jesus moment where I realize that I subject myself to the pain that I thought the world was subjecting me to. this sounds vaguely profound in the abstract but it's actually about deadlines and a sense of dread re: obligations
I could probably find some sort of way to blame capitalism for this, but if I extrapolate from what I've learned about myself from experience, the truth is that I would find a way to torture myself in this arena even if I were 100% financially independent
I have multiple overdue deadlines that I entirely set for myself, and all I want to do is to go off on random tangents exploring random fun things. I don't even have a boss to get mad at. and my wife is supportive of my nonsense. so truly it boils down to a game of me vs me
thinking about a scene from Outer Worlds - Vicar Max's vision quest

"I'm who you think you are. [...] I don't exist, yet you have judged yourself against me your whole life. Why do you berate yourself for not being me?"
the hail mary move of doing work that's about how you're not doing work

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Apr 19
I’ve gotten thousands of DMs over the years from people telling me about their problems. Here’s one interesting pattern/cluster I’ve noticed, which I’d loosely describe as

“anxious self-flagellating ambitious guy who desires greatness but refuses to learn from his mistakes”
they tend to say something like, “I know perfect is the enemy of the good but I can’t bear to do merely good so I keep trying to do perfect and keep failing. how do you deal with not being perfect?” and- I’ll prob have to explain this but the vibe is very similar to-
the question I ask in return is something like, “how do you deal with accomplishing nothing over something? that seems like it would be harder to deal with than failing to be perfect, which is the default condition of all human beings from day 1”
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Apr 7
i used to agonize about this for years. i came to see that the agonizing is itself unproductive, lol. like an athlete who refuses to rest because he's not performing at 100%, when rest is required to perform. the ideal end-state is to transcend simplistic notions of productivity,
but ime that's much easier to do from a place of strength rather than weakness, so for a lot of people i actually do recommend getting productive before transcending productivity grindset.

i do believe it's possible to skip the middle, but the people who do don't ask for advice
so like if you're gonna embark on this, buncha basic sanity check things u gotta do. define what productivity means to you. what outcomes you're trying to achieve. do an inventory of how you actually spend your time/energy. a lot of people who struggle, horribly misrepresent this
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Mar 28
might change my mind on this later but rn in this moment i feel like the biggest lie i've been told in my life has been abt the nature of distraction. or u could say the nature of attention. it seems to me that the misunderstanding of it is woven into the fabric of civilization
i wont claim to have a perfect or even "very good" understanding of it, but I have a growing sense of the misunderstanding of it. a lot of it is downstream of exertion and control

i've circled around and alluded to this a lot over the years, eg:
👆🏾 that's the FAN frame

👇🏾 Introspect is actually about the same thing

my bio, "focus your time and energy on what you want to see more of" is the "core ingredient" in both frames

it's sovereignty and playfulness over bullying and coercion

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Mar 27
off the top of my head, a list of things i find myself always a little surprised to have to point out to people:
you seldom have to care about "most people" if you're looking to connect with an exceptional person. this is true whether we're talking about dating, friendships, hiring, audience building, etc

visakanv.com/blog/most-peop…
greatness is deviance (from the norm). steve jobs used to use the phrase "insanely great"– which is actually a tautology. people keep tripping up over euphemisms around this. achieving deviant outcomes requires doing deviant shit.

visakanv.com/blog/greatness…
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Mar 20
and IME some are so hard to change that it can sometimes be better to work around them even if you additionally believe that the OG belief is wrong or bad or unhelpful
eg in my case I know I have some less-than-ideal beliefs about productivity and rest, yet for the most part it has been easier for me to just work and “earn my rest”, bad as that belief might be, than to dismantle that belief (been trying for like 20 years with minimal progress)
always open to the possibility of some special move or phrasing dismantling that belief, but not counting on it

can easily see a parallel life path where I devoted all my effort to trying harder to dismantle that belief, failing, and having nothing to show for it
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Mar 16
since i was a kid i kept seeing variations of this idea being expressed. the president is an idiot. the boss is a fool. the mogul is a clown. and people would be arguing about whether that assessment was correct or wrong. and that in turn struck me as the wrong frame entirely
to me, the correct frame, or the lesson to learn, is that you only need to get some things right. then you can be wrong about everything else and still be a rich/powerful bitch talking shit while the people who get everything else right stay broke and mad
more on this
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