Thread by @democratie_kate

1/Hey Tweeps

I have ideas and I can make speeches but I can't organise an uprising. I can barely organise myself. I just got over a ten-year opioid addiction, I have MS, and I'm so tired. I'm working a demanding job that pays fuck-all at present because I'm still in training.

2/I translate Chinese for an e-publishing house. I taught myself to read & write it but I've only been learning for 2 years. Translation is not an easy job but I can do it from home, an important consideration b/c of my MS and being in the at-risk 10% for COVID-19 complications.

3/I could've got an easier job in academic editing, maybe, but after 8 years I'm fucking over it.

Seriously, I'm exhausted. I'm still trying to finish my report on #ClivePalmer. With no legal qualifications & a lengthy act of legislation I acquainted myself with a week ago.

4/I'm starting to see the warning signs. I've had depression since I was 15. I know when I'm nearing my limit.

I despise and fear this Government. I want to help get rid of them and I want to be part of making a better one. As I said the other night, I can't bear to sit idle.

5/But someone else is going to have to sort out the itinerary, because I can't. I'm sorry.

Even after 3 years I still estimate how long it'll take to do something based on how long it used to take me before MS. And then it takes 4 times as long and I'm just devastated.

6/I just burst into tears in front of my mum when she dropped my son off at home, then had a massive fight with my partner, who hates my involvement in politics and activism. He's not speaking to me now. I need a B12 injection and my MS symptoms have flared up again from stress.

7/Haha, I thought I was doing so well too. This shit always takes me by surprise.

I still firmly believe that this Government needs to go and that it needs to be done before this summer & bushfire season. I still think the key to this lies w/the Opposition & Senate crossbench.

8/I can still be of use - and I want to badly. I'd rather be dead than sit idle while the world burns. My ideas & my words are at your disposal when & if you want them. I mean it.

But I can't save the world, & trying to is doing my head in. I need to take care of myself first.

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