kicking off the #ADHDInvasion with a comic about CONSEQUENCES, and how my lifelong failure to react to them has been a huge source of frustration for me and the people who rely on me. (1/2) #ADHDawarenessmonth
even worse, it makes me appear apathetic or careless to others, when in reality it weighs on me super heavily - i just struggle to show it. (2/2)
normally my comics have SOME semblance of advice on how to cope in them and i didn't get to that this time around lol; what i'll say is that it can be really hard to get past the idea of shame-based motivation when that's what's been modeled 2 u by parents/educators/bosses
for me, it actually just doesn't work. i try to turn fear/shame into something positive, i.e.:
❌"they're going to be so disappointed in me if i don't do this"
✅"if i do this on time, i'll feel so relieved, and they'll be happy that i pulled through"
HAHA ok im already overwhelmed by notifs so my apologies if i don't get a chance to react to all replies/quotes!
if this is ur introduction to my work, hi there! i draw for a living and there are a lot of ways to support me
ok this is still muted but one more thing:
Q. "this is an ADHD thing?????"
A. i dont think it necessarily HAS to be. i think a lot of ppl struggle w this for various reasons. but for me it's def a nasty collaboration btwn executive dysfunction, time blindness, difficulty with -
object permanence/object constancy, and a brain that will do ANYTHING, to the point of self-destruction, to avoid stress, tedium, and discomfort. i think if all those things weren't in play this wouldn't be as debilitating for me as it is.
Q. "i relate to this!!! do i have ADHD?????"
A. i don't know! i can't answer that for you. but if something is constantly fucking up your day and causing you pain, you deserve to search for answers and resources. even if u don't end up having it, the resources and tools aimed at-
assisting neurodivergence can be helpful for everyone, and there is no harm in trying to find new ways to think abt your experiences and fine-tune how you cope with your struggles in ways that are more effective w how your brain works, and more importantly more compassionate
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lrt when i switched to full time, i thought after a lifetime of working under capitalism that 8 hours of art a day was mandatory + anything less was slacking off. in reality, on a perfect day, where the planets align + i feel really good, i am capable of like 6 hrs of focus total
and that entire 6 hours is not 6 continuous hours where a drawing implement is in my hand and moving. some of that is inevitably eaten up by stuff like emails, organizing invoices, looking up references, boring administrative stuff -- but it still takes my focus as a professional
now that my current situation means i haven't been able to work since my move, i guarantee u i have not been achieving 6 hours a day for MONTHS. (none of us are. the world is a disaster). but my art has improved a lot anyway! bc it's not ABOUT grinding yourself down to a nub
CROCKPOT IS SUCH A HARD WORKER look at how much of the diatoms/brown algae in the back he’s chewed through!!!! (featuring martini photobomb)
i wish i had a before pic but in all my recent pics of the aquarium i kind of avoided showing the back glass bc i didn’t like how it looked lol. admittedly part of it is i was letting it get covered on purpose for crockpots debut but even when i scrape its hard to get everything
i love bouncing oc ideas off marina bc this morning i very firmly informed her i’m going to make a jester oc and 1. take the character completely seriously and 2. make them sexually appealing (but still absolutely a jester) and she is nothing but supportive of me
me: [pacing] also like it’s just a fascinating space to occupy day in and day out. like “i have to be edgy enough that he [the king] doesn’t get bored of me, but if i am too cheeky i will be executed.” i want to think abt who would go for this job
my beautiful wife: [nodding
does my little jesters hat piss you off. does it make you want to hurt me
rating bat emojis bc i feel like it, starting w apple
this is the one i’m used to so i’ve gotten fond of it. shape is interesting. i like his ugly lil nose but i wish it was pointier. most of the things i have a problem w (like his drumstick legs) cant be seen at emoji size. 7/10
google. EXTREMELY cute. thank you for the prominent fangs and big ears and little thumbs. why do the legs just end in line with the overall silhouette, though? 9/10
microsoft. i actually love this one, artistically, but it does not look like a bat. the bizarre little head is the best part. 9/10 as an image in the purest sense of critique, 5/10 as an image that’s supposed to be a bat emoji
had a dream i worked at a restaurant and found a dollar on the floor while sweeping but my boss wouldn’t let me keep it, saying it belonged to the restaurant and therefore to him, and in response there was an escalating montage of me throwing his belongings into a nearby river
this culminated in me throwing his car into the river + then there was like, him talking to a reporter about it, informing them i had weighed it down with a roll of quarters and his “how to learn to drive” manifesto, a document of 100s of pgs that he “still referred to regularly”