The Drama of the Gifted Child - Adaptation to what's missing.
My values, behavior & character have like a feedback loop or spiritual resonance molded to want I feel is missing in the world.
Filling in a void on a meta-level.
We all have a role to play. Free-will is fuzzy.
I have molded to what I believe the world needs:
1. We need more leaders. 2. We need to be more in-service of each other. 3. We need to remember that we are a part of nature. 4. We need to think of our actions beyond stage one. (Second-order effects)
5. We need to see how things are interconnected. (Systems-thinking) 6. We need to develop ourselves so that we can bear the burden of suffering. 7. We need to combine multiple skills unique to our physiology & psychology.
8. We need to share our truth. 9. We need to be better listeners & observers of the world, ourselves & each other. 10. We need to be present.
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At the same time, I see my parents experiencing ageism & trouble getting back into the work force. So I've become a dependency & primary source of their income.
I can only take so much risk, because I am their last line of defense.
They are still at least 5-10 yrs away from being eligible for social security.
Even then, early on the job injuries forced them to dip into 401k and borrow from a future that was already thin.
The power dynamics in the family due to this dependency have completely shifted, I'm no longer the just a son, I am THE SON who is a provider like a Husband, the Father to my brother as we didn't have a father to guide us.
Had to wise up quickly from a young age, was lonely.