Thread by @amiranafqh

lemme tell you a story of someone I met last year during my psychiatric appointment.

i was waiting with my mom then ada sorang patient yang berpurdah duduk sebelah i. dia bawak anak sekali, kecik lagi maybe around 7-8months kot

https://twitter.com/_farhanahj/status/1323892846470914050

masa dia duduk tu i just smiled at her, i takda nak sembang ke apa bcs i was not that stable at the time.

to avoid conversation, i baring on my mom's lap and buat buat tidur. pastu dia sembang dgn mak cs mak tanya anak dia umur berapa etc etc

lepas sembang pasal anak dia tu, dia tanya datang untuk checkup apa so mak cakaplah that i'm suicidal and i overdosed myself earlier that week.

and she started telling mak about her experience. she said dari sekolah lagi dia memang diajar solat, mengaji, puasa semua

dia tak pernah tinggal solat fardhu, mengaji everyday, puasa sunat isnin khamis and solat tahajjud semua memang tak pernah tinggal.

but she's schizophrenic and delusional. apparently the voices are telling her that she's the next Maryam (Jesus's mother).

Of course lah dia tak percaya what the voices are saying bcs even without religious knowledge, you'd know it's impossible for another Maryam to exist apatah lagi to her yang memang ada ilmu.

the voices keep trying to convince her that she's Maryam and she will never die

how she fought the voices? she slit her wrists while shouting "kau tipu, aku berdarah ni aku boleh mati. aku bukan Maryam"

she ended up being admitted and had to undergo psychiatric treatment. her faith and deen? she kept practicing as before

it doesn't stop there. bear in mind that she's still a practicing muslim with vast knowledge.

she got married and had to stop taking her meds after she got pregnant. during pregnancy, the voices keep telling her that she'll give birth to Jesus (or Isa as)

she tried to terminate the pregnancy countless times but thankfully her husband was always there to stop her.

after giving birth, she still can't continue with her meds bcs the baby is breastfeeding and it came to a point that she took a knife to slit her baby's throat

bcs the voices are telling her that the baby is Jesus as and the baby won't die bcs Allah jaga Nabi Isa.

she wanted to prove to the voices that her baby is not Jesus hence why she did that. again, thank God her husband caught her just in time. itupun dia taknak lepas--

-- baby tu and last last dia campak je anak dia. nasib baik campak atas tilam jugak.

she had to get back on meds and stop breastfeeding the baby bcs if she stop her meds, she's a danger to the baby and herself.

all these happened to a practicing muslim, to a woman who has never missed a prayer and always mengaji, a woman who has the knowledge of the deen.

if this is not enough evidence that mental illness has nothing to do with your faith, then idk how else to convince you.

to treat mental illnesses, you can't just focus on religious treatment. it should go hand in hand with science. it's called an illness for a reason. you don't ask people to pray and mengaji if they had cancer would you?

my parents who used to believe mental illness exists due to lack of faith pun finally opened their eyes when they heard this story. no one, i repeat NO ONE in their right mind would want to hurt or kill themselves. if they do then something is wrong with their minds

i've been receiving DMs on how to seek help. here's a flowchart from @owhmybae on the process including fees. hope this helps❤️

https://twitter.com/owhmybae/status/1286627054553690113

penat i buat thread panjang lebar pasal mental illness takda kaitan dgn iman, dia nak jugak samakan dgn syaitan😌

https://twitter.com/azifnazmi_/status/1324176963125211136

member delete tweet

another experience that proves faith has nothing to do with mental illness

https://twitter.com/ffthyzn/status/1324318700254584833