Thread by @mostlymartha

I was very brave today! Now I will tell you about it!

As you may have noticed, I currently have, to paraphrase "O Brother Where Art Thou" that DE-pression on.

For the last six (eight?) weeks, I have been in a miserable shame cycle with my dirty bathrooms. Every time I take a bath or wash my face or brush my teeth, I'm overwhelmed by how gross everything is.

And think I MUST CLEAN THIS BATHROOM.
1. Clean the tubs
2. Scrub the shower doors
3. Dehunk the sinks
4. Shine up the mirrors
5. Clean cat hair from the floors

Okay, so that means I have to put on cleaning clothes. Gotta find the rubber gloves. Oh lordt, it's chilly. I am definitely going to get wet. Shit the only way to rinse the shower doors is to stand in their naked and splash water from a cup.

Gotta put a towel down in there so I don't slip and fall. Do I have enough paper towels? Where is the fucking windex? 3...2...1... NOW I AM ONE THOUSAND AND ONE MILLIWHELMS AND I CANNOT CLEAN THE BATHROOM

I AM TRASH MY DIRTY BATHROOM IS TRASH I GUESS I WILL GET BACK INTO BED AND TRY TO READ SOME NICE SMUT ONLY TO DISCOVER THAT I'M TOO UNFOCUSED TO READ AT ALL

But the sinks in particular kept bothering me more and more. I dropped a face cleaning cloth into it, and then I didn't want to put it near my face.

Yesterday it occurred to me that perfect had become the enemy of the good in giant, be-shamed way. I couldn't clean the sink because I didn't have it in me to scrub everything.

Today I put an apron on over my house dress (rather than change). I pinned my bangs back. I put on Stephen's gloves because I didn't want to look for mine.

Then I VERY BRAVELY used Scrubbing Bubbles and Windex and paper towels, and I cleaned the sinks, counters, and mirrors! Trying a little actually helped!

A little actually was better than nothing!

I still absolutely do not have the juice to get the cat hair off the floors or sandblast the soap scum off the shower doors (ha! haha!), but the tubs seems at least 1/3 less mythically impossible.

I still have that DE-pression on. Clean sinks do not fix that. But maybe I am only partially trash as opposed to entirely, hopelessly trash.

As my grandfather-in-law the pastor used to say, "To quote the Good Book, he who tooteth not his own horn, so shall his horn go untooted." and that is why I told you about my braveness today. #toottoot