I think this is sometimes described as fear of the other, but it's really the same bigoted fantasies of killing minorities. Guns, huge trucks, doomsday bunkers. It's not fear of a dystopian world more than the possibility of acting out the hate without judgement.
It's the same fantasies that play out when minorities protest and the police are thrilled at the chance of abusing people. The thrill that's behind the border conversations. And that's clear in white supremacists talking about a new civil war.
I always feel that it's weird that people like this are open about their fantasies of killing minorities, and yet that pleasure aspect is hardly ever pointed out.
There was an essay that mentioned that in all the writing about people going to war, few ever mention that a lot of soldiers find it exciting. But that's one of the only spaces you can kill without "judgement". There's a thrill to power and domination and these murder fantasies.
Anyway, that Rittenhouse kid went to a protest, killed two people, and was celebrated and called courageous after. And I think that's a clearer image of why those guns and fantasies exist than some abstract fear.
• • •
Missing some Tweet in this thread? You can try to
force a refresh
"Eric Lott argued that...blackface minstrelsy gave white working-class performers a way to tap into the insurrectionary potential hiding within their fantasies of blackness while simultaneously reasserting their supremacy over the Black people..."
You know, what I loved so much about Mesut Ozil at his best was the sense of possibility that existed whenever he played. Something that you notice more when he's absent than when he's on the field and his flaws are easy to latch onto.
Even when things went well without him, it seemed so standard and systematic. There was a plan and the players executed it well. The journey to goal is straightforward. The practiced patterns are brought to life in the match. It's great, but you can almost predict everything.
But for example, Ozil used to dummy the ball a lot. He's receiving the ball from underneath, and he runs past it so the pass goes to a teammate above him. Or he fakes to the pass and then curls around the defender, and then suddenly a set of non-trained combinations open up.
"Any discipline can help your writing: logic, mathematics, theology, and of course and particularly drawing. Anything that helps you to see, anything that makes you look."
Susan Sontag:
"The greatest effort is to be really where you are, contemporary with yourself, in your life, giving full attention to the world. That’s what a writer does. I’m against the solipsistic idea that you find it all in your head. You don’t."
It's interesting to me how the conversations around certain things never seem to change? This was the same argument about femininity and athleticism that was being had about Simone Biles, which was of course made worse by her being a Black woman.
I didn't know that a big part of the conflict between the two was that one was seen as the perfect woman, and the other was portrayed as white trash
But you can transport that to the cases of Serena and Sharapova, and how Sharapova was described against Serena's "agrression" and "masculine" frame, and which saw Sharapova making more than Serena at one point without having nearly the same success.
You know, one of the things I've been thinking about during this time of unimaginable grief has been bereavement leave, and how the little time given for grief points to the marginal space human life is given in the world we live in.
I've commented before that so much of the positive thinking or mindfulness seems to be part of a culture that not only personalizes so much struggle but creates this absurd place where your world could be falling apart yet you're encouraged to continuing performing as if it's not
So you have this really absurd existence where it's seen as embarrassing to speak or openly experience the natural and conditioned tragedies of the world, big and small. You lose somebody and after a while, people see it as a drag that you're still sad or not working again.