Thread by @SonjaConscious

My 1906 Steinway Model O - this was my Great Aunts/ (fairy) God Mothers - somehow gratefully came into my world circa 2015 - its arrival actually contributed to the major BP1 High I had that year (pictured) which got me diagnosed -3 decades of intense suffering too late but hey🥰

Attempting to arrange its arrival single handedly was an unmitigated tragi/comedy disaster, which is kind of the norm I've come to expect as someone with brain damage to the frontal cortex executive organising part of the brain.

You don't want the gory details of the wake of destruction & demolition that resulted in this 6'6 grand piano entering my living roof. Suffice to say I needed a jobbing builder, in all 3 times.......

not 6'6 just shy of 6 foot - it does sounds incredibly dreamy tho - I was absent from piano from ages 16 til 46

30 yrs missed due to ill health & otherwise engaged instrument wise.

This was me - back in the day - my lovely friend Simon recorded me to iPhone & I made a little show reel to get work in Care homes, which I did.
Live Acoustic Harp at Littlehempston Church, 18th April 2013 via @YouTube

I wasn't so well. I had permanent anxiety, stress induced hallucinations, intense paranoia & what I know now to be disassociation caused by my then undiagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder. (Only Diagnosed 2019!)

I had a guitar covers channel on YouTube but its gone.

I might try & find the old videos - I was ok, I sing in tune. But really I must record the piano as this is my main thing this last 8 years now - I'm not in a rush tho, I hate recording. I love playing but hate recording. 🎼🎹🎶🎶🎶

I’m an unusual never medicated, never hospitalised Bipolar 1
I’m a huge student of natural medicine, across the board, I’ve studied most everything. The stuff I found that helps me the most I still use daily.
#bipolardisorder #BPD #GAD #panicdisorder #CPTSD

One of my favourites is N-Acetyl Cysteine (NAC)
Here’s a brilliant article about it from Psychology Today

psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/heal-y…

Here’s a peer reviewed study

ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/P…

I don’t think I’m building this thread right but anyways
Taurine is a brilliant anti anxiety amino acid.

I love this website

nootropicsexpert.com/taurine

Here’s an extract from the page

DLPA - essentially saved my brain - I think it rebuilt significantly brain damage by providing the precursors for the neurotransmitters my illnesses tend to deprive me of.

nootropicsexpert.com/phenylalanine/

optimallivingdynamics.com/blog/the-best-…

That’s 2 links there

Compared to the problems people can have with anti psychotics & anti depressants, using specific amino acids is a doddle, tho over use can cause loose bowels.
The best thing is that they are no problems with withdrawal at all, so you can stop if you don’t like or feel benefit.

It’s crucial that people with #bipolardisorder understand their sensitivity to light, both too much & not enough.
I was working in a confined space with a light box when I started to get high in 2015.

I had been wrongly told I was not bipolar by psych is 2007 - I was always fending off depression not avoiding a high, which I am now I have correct diagnoses.
Having a correct diagnosis is like have a map 🗺 it’s been incredibly helpful.

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