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we moved out to the suburbs this week. still tidying up the old apartment, but we're sleeping at the new place.

im a bit surprised to find that i actually like a suburban home an awful lot
some time ago i took a medium dose of a tryptamine and among other things considered my relationship with work. one thing that I realized was that in fact I was holding myself back from some of the drudgery of the job for reasons of identity
i actually monologued about it to @selentelechia. something like:

"the thing is i think ive been approaching work and meetings and schedules and corporate life like im too cool for it. (pause) which. I am"
and nevertheless here i am living in a boring suburban house with a yard and owning a car and having a wife and a baby and actually paying attention to work and busting my ass every day

and it feels good actually
I spent some time turning this over as i drove to the store to get dinner for my wife and it was productive.

two points
1. there are several major periods in a person's life. some of them are biologically linked, others not. they are not of fixed duration. most are common but some are not.

examples from my life include infancy, adolescence, young adulthood, whatever im in now
the demands of life and desires of the heart are very different across these phases. a schoolboy wants very different things, and needs to be a different sort of person, than a breadwinner
2. letting ones desires and identity transition to accommodate the demands of a new phase is disorienting and possibly the most challenging part of a person's life, and stumbling may be the source of many hard lives.

I am imagining two main classes of failure modes here
the first failure mode is the obvious one of not letting oneself change. i had been stumbling about with this one without knowing it for a while by keeping work (which does actually matter) at arms length from what I imagined my life to be about
the second failure mode is swerving so hard into the new phase that one fails to integrate it with their past lives

this is subtler and I don't have any clean examples from fiction but I suspect its nevertheless a real problem

im imagining the damage from such a failure as the debris of broken relationships and a loss of personal meaning, of waking up at 45 and getting a divorce and a sports car and getting hair plugs and wondering what has happened with your life
I hate a lot of things about _American Beauty_ but maybe it does get this right
I dont know that I have any good advice about how to manage this apart from "this happens, and remember that scylla and charybdis bound these channels"

let your identity be flexible as your needs change I guess, while tending to things you care about to keep them continuous
good luck pals 💪💪
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the women all want to kill her

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i think maybe the term of art for this is "pickme"? idk

shes minmaxxing and shamelessly trading off homosocial status for heterosexual appeal

my theory is that women who are mad about this arent wrong to be but the specific reason for their anger is that shes a gender traitor
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this is just our life now
supreme court rulings arent gonna change anything, no one gives a shit about the law on principle and its easy to obfuscate discrimination to taste

any direct government enforcement will i expect inevitably be straightforwardly politically motivated
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as long as we're sending insane ideas to @JDVance

does the federal government have to enforce laws everywhere or can it announce it won't?

because one funny thing the administration could do would be to deprioritize the enforcement of most federal laws in sanctuary states
>“congrats, california, you're now libertarian af. no OSHA, no IRS audits, no EPA. enjoy.”

it’d be legally coherent and politically thermonuclear. which means someone will definitely try it. Image
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alternatively trump could target blue states by actually enforcing marijuana law which would be very funny too
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hmmm sure ok i'll bite

the rheinweisenlager don't seem that bad tbh

i havent looked at the wikipedia page and wont, just going to attach some commentary and notes on context
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the camps were run by the US, apparently, and that's important
during the closing months of the war absolutely insane numbers of encircled and overwhelmed german soldiers surrendered . . . in the west

less so in the east, where they were more inclined to fight to the death against the red army
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it's a small thing but it was a welcome kindness for us, bare acquaintances
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@selentelechia anyway these hit jobs are incredibly tiresome
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no one except lord myles has "adventures" when they travel

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