What if most of us actually grew up not hating being AsAm.

What if that’s not actually a central unifying tenet of the AsAm experience.

What if the “self-hating AsAm” narrative is just what sits most comfortably for the non-AsAm mainstream editor and media consumer.
Because, I’m gonna be really honest here, I never grew up hating being Asian. I didn’t despise my looks, my skin, my lunches, or my language. I didn’t pine away for blonde locks or blonde boyfriends.

I was - and still am - comfortably Asian.
And while I get that others may have had some sort of experience of deep racial insecurity growing up, I am so totally bored that this is the only narrative that is elevated about us - that somehow we need pop culture assimilation to learn to love ourselves. Fuck no, I don’t.
How about mainstream platforms elevate the essays by Asian Americans who don’t feel the need to apologize for being Asian American, like it’s some sort of stain to scrub out before finally resigning to living with.

Because those essays are tired and complicit in white supremacy.
This thread isn’t intended to invalidate others’ experiences. There are absolutely AsAms who grew up in like all-white suburban neighborhoods who felt a deep sense of self-loathing.

But why do their lived experiences dominate what gets published in mainstream outlets abt AsAms?
Yes. My point in this thread is that there are many ways that people grapple with Asian American identity, which is messy and complicated; yet the “racial self-hate” narrative is selectively universalized in mainstream media by editors who decide what is and isn’t worthy of print
The editorial choices to cut the Asian American as the tragically not-white serves to flatten the Asian American identity and recast it as solely relational to whiteness.

Yet as @TazzyStar there are many ways to be un/comfortable in Asian skin that remain basically unexplored.
*— as @TazzyStar said
We don’t have to construct and dissect Asian American identity solely in ways that flatter whiteness.

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10 Oct
Ok, so I want to weigh in here bc sadly this attitude is more common than we’d care to admit in science, and factors into larger forms@of intolerance Asian/Asian American scientists face.
Western scientific tradition presumes English as a common language (its own issue, btw), which means that most non-English-as-a-first-language scientists must learn at least some English proficiency. The assumption that international scientists don’t try to learn English is wrong
Learning another language is hard. Trying to conduct a specialized study like science in another language is REALLY hard. My hats off to all the English-language-limited (ELL) scientists out there, bc that shit is not easy.
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Thinking a lot this week about what it’s like to navigate being an Asian American woman who is passionate and outspoken about racism and sexism, and how racialized and gendered stereotypes mean that this is so often misread as just mean or nasty.
It’s like as Asian American women (and other non-men), we are especially pigeon-holed by expectation that we always be nice and kind — even when this is a cartoon, even when it is to our own detriment.
This past week in the class I’m teaching, we talked a bit about ways women in STEM navigate stereotype, which is really a conversation about survival.
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6 Oct
So, I read the kidney thing. I have lots of “everybody sucks here” vibes, but one big concern is how in writing this piece the Times may be elevating and legitimizing what sounds like a stalking / harassment situation of an AsAm woman and writer, for the clicks.
It’s complicated. I think Sonya drawing so immediately and identifiably from an acquaintance’s personal experiences is absolutely not great. But I also think Dawn’s response is far disproportionate, shows signs of stalking, and to me crosses the line into vindictive harassment.
Especially as we learn that Dawn pitched this story to several major outlets, which - when considered alongside her other actions - feels like an attempt to weaponize a big media story to further hurt and harass Sonya.
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3 Oct
Really disappointed in this reporting, which offers zero context that a frontline healthcare worker who refuses the vaccine is endangering their patients, who are more likely to suffer serious COVID by virtue of already being sick. reuters.com/world/us/few-s…
This isn’t about the “risk” (hint: basically none) a medical worker is assuming for themselves by getting vaccinated, as this article frames the story. This is about the fact that frontline medical workers interface with patients who can be more at risk for severe covid.
The choice for a medical worker to not comply with a vaccine mandate can lead to transmission of covid and the death of a patient. Those are the stakes.
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27 Sep
Met with my teaching co-instructor this morning. I haven’t co-coordinated and co-taught a full course in awhile and had been feeling nervous. But my co-instructor spent a few minutes praising me for my natural energy in the class, and how it draws from my activism experience.
It felt so great to be recognized for how my years working with young activists has helped me cultivate an interest in listening to students, and encouraging them to share themselves in this discussion space we’re building together.
Sufficed to say, I’m looking forward to this teaching adventure this quarter, especially bc I’m super excited about this curriculum my co-instructor and I have developed together.
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16 Sep
A lot of talk about MRAsians on Twitter today, and one thing that is regaining attention is how a lot of the harassment AsAm women/non-binary folks receive centers on the accusation that they “only date white men”.
In addition to reading @aarontmak’s @Slate piece, you can also get a primer on this from @pronounced_ing’s essay for @TheCut:

thecut.com/2018/10/when-a…
Long story short, this is the frequently visited well for MRAsian harassment. For these harassers, it often begins and ends with trying to shame an AsAm woman for a real (or perceived) white partner.
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