I've been thinking (as I do sometimes) and it has occurred to me that I do not know any actual neurotypical people. I know people who aren't diagnosed, sure, but they're definitely not neurotypical. So if all of us are suffering from depression, anxiety, ADHD, PTSD..etc then wtf?
The answer is the world is fucked and our neuro-divergencies are far more the result of our brains responding to the constant influx of poverty, debt, wars, massacres, political, economic, & social instability than they are just broken on their own.
I'm medicated & it helps. I've decided to be open about my diagnosis and I am a very high functioning neuro-divergent person but I also wholeheartedly believe that neither I nor the vast majority of us would be neuro-divergent if we lived in even a little bit of a good world.
Obviously my PTSD is the result of war and genocide which in a better world would have never happened. My anxiety is rooted in needing to be perfect all the time and overwhelming myself with work b/c I know in this world how much labour I produce is how much I am valued.
There's others stuff there too. My brain is different than some other peoples brains. But my brain is different because it's chosen to respond in certain ways to the crumbling socio-economic hellfire that we live under.
& I think honestly the mental health crisis is going to only get worse because we were never meant to live like this. Under constant threat and with no real stability. With our basic human rights not being met and actively trampled on by governments who are bought by corps.
& I cannot go to therapy because I know that any tools given to me to deal with my neuro-divergency will ultimately fail because they're individual changes and not systemic ones and therefore do not have a tangible impact on the world that surrounds me.
So, it's hard to deal with and as someone who was diagnosed when she was 16...it's taken me a long time to accept the fact that this doesn't really get better until the world gets better. Now, I don't expect a revolution any time soon but dear god if we don't get one.....
If there are no changes, real systemic changes that will directly benefit all the people...I shudder to think about how much worse our neurological response will get to the world. Kids as young as 7 and 8 are experiencing it too. We are in a deep hole and nobody's doing anything.
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I really and genuinely need Western leftists to undermine that the vast majority of the Third World countries are entirely dependent on the good will of the Western world. You cannot dictate a country reliant on Intl. goodwill to stick it to the West. You just can't.
"Oh god, they're calling on the US/UK to help them" is easy to say when you have no other allies and are entirely under the pressure and influence of Western governments. "I'd never do that" is b/c you live in the West...you're not under constant threat.
Small countries like Bosnia do not have the choices that Western developed countries do. They have to call on their allies, they have to often actually beg them to intervene on their behalf because they have no power, they have no influence, they have no way to defend themselves.
It's really not one or the other. Plenty of people I see/know/speak to are frustrated with both, worried about war and angry about the heat. I just returned from Sarajevo and a great deal of people I spoke to are definitely worried. & tbh, that's been the case since 1995.
I really hate these simplifications by people who don't live in BiH esp. He's based in HK for example. & even if lots of my Sarajevo family & friends aren't posting about it publicly, the private conversations we are having are definitely focused on the war and Dodik's threats.
Additionally, what's standard in Sarajevo is not going to be standard for Visegrad or Srebrenica for example, both of whom are under the rule of the Republika Srpska entity. People there are particularly worried.
I like my job and I enjoy my career. I get to be super creative every day. I get to make tough decisions and manage crises. I do cool stuff sometimes and meet cool people. But my life-long career dream is not to have to work ever and to just exist...preferably in a library.
I love working. Like genuinely love working. It's great. It keeps me stimulated. But I would risk it all to just exist, wander the streets with a baguette and listen to music all day and do nothing else. That's my dream job.
I don't even aspire to be rich. I don't really care to have fancy stuff or a big huge house full of fancy stuff. I just want to exist and like visit parks and tend to plants and dance in my underwear in the middle of the day and have endless cups of coffee with cigarettes.
In 1992, 63.4% of the country turned out to vote of which 99% voted for independence according to Yugoslav constitution. Bosnia wasn't an entity at a time like RS is but a Republic and did it lawfully. The only reason they did it was b/c Serb leaders were arming people already.
If Serb leaderships in the 1980's and 1990's did not ramp up their ethno-nationalism, did not threaten a Greater Serbia, did not completely shit on Tito's legacy...the likelihood is that there wouldn't have even been a referendum. But there was b/c they were preparing for war.
The RAM plan wasn't some hidden thing, it was an open agenda to arm Serbs in order to gain control over the territories & ensure a Greater Serbia. People voted for a multi-ethnic, sovereign, united, and equal Bosnia. That's different than once again Dodik wanting a Greater Serbia
Not to make this all about me (but I will because I can) but I've been literally right about the US, EU, and Turkey supposed "commitments" to Bosnia for years. There are none. It's empty words and promises, pls stop begging and take some actual action for a change.
Honestly, the fact that Bosnians of influence & their far more powerful Western allies in positions of power aren't making noise regarding the current crisis is just absurd. Words and promises last time ended with 600+ mass graves of our loved ones.
I'm not saying I have all the answers but why aren't people being urged to protest? Why aren't our powerful allies stepping in? There's only so much open letters, Twitter threads, and articles will do.
Let's talk about what is currently happening in Bosnia and why there's suddenly more fear than usual about another war breaking out.
If you've been following me for a long time, you know that due to the Dayton Agreement which ended the war, Bosnia was split by ethnic lines.
After the Serbs committed genocide and all sorts of human rights abuses in the 1990s, they were rewarded with their own entity- courtesy of the International Community. Milorad Dodik is currently the Serb leader of that entity as well as a member of the Bosnian presidency.
Milorad Dodik was once called a "breath of fresh air" by Madeline Albright. Initially, he was an "anti-nationalist", admitted genocide happened and that Serbs perpetrated it. But that changed quickly as he gained more power.