Yall keep asking ME why I'm NOT spending #xmas with my father, I WASN'T INVITED.
I don't believe in going places where I'm NOT invited, celebrated, embraced, empowered,or appreciated.
So,yeah. there ya go. Yall could practice NOT being in spaces that dont want yall there too.
Stop FORCING yallself in folks life then being MAD cause they not responding or reacting positively. #ThinkAboutIt:
The more time you spend with people who don't fuck with you, the more time you miss out on spending time with people who DO fuck with you.
Oh and for the folks who said "spend the holiday with your mother (and "reconcile"🙄)", bro we AIN'T spoke since my Grandmother's Funeral in 2016.
Shordy NOT tryna fa-la-la-la-la with ME.🎅🏿
And I'm NOT knowingly expecting for her to be someone she has NEVER been, TF. 🤷🏿♀️
Let's NORMALIZE allowing people to be themselves and operating accordingly.
Let's DECIDE to have a level #SelfLOVE that doesn't allow self-betrayal, violation of healthy boundaries, or self deception.
Let's DISCONNECT and DISENGAGE from everything/one that harms / hurts you.😈
I been back home, like in #GaryIndiana, for like 8 calendars and people STILL think I'm gone.
I guess I stay out the way too good.
I mind my business too well.
I stay in my lane too good.
I focus on my focus too well.
I only prioritize my priorities.
All that other SHIT is beyond me.
It's MY energy + I aint wasting on shit that AINT productive, inspiring, or meaningful.
I need a good CRY but sis, these tears not coming out.😭
I need to write, maybe some poetry, quotes, or short free form, etc..📖
I just wanna be loved on-- mentally, emotionally, spiritually, financially, intellectually, and physically.👽
These last 6-12 months have been a whole fucking lot BUT I BEEN SHOWING UP, DOING THE WORK, AND REMAINING OPEN.
But I'M TIRED, BOSS.🥴
I just don't feel the need to pretend that real life shit aint happening; that I'm not really out here having a complex human experience; or that I'm not responsible for me + my life. it's heavy tho. 🤷🏿♀️