I've been getting WAY too absorbed in streaming lately, to the point it's all I really have been talking about.
I want to apologize.
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I know how this must look to people, and, I PROMISE you that I didn't mean to use anyone, nor have I reached out to anyone or become friends with anyone purely for my own growth. I care deeply about all of my friends. (2/7)
I just, I think, have been focusing on streaming far too much for my own good, to the exclusion of...the rest of my life?
Going forward, I'm going to make a conscious effort to not talk about my streams in casual discussion. (3/7)
I'm also, both in an attempt to address this as well as to make time for my coming classes this quarter, going to be cutting back to two scheduled streams a week. I need to give myself room to breathe. (4/7)
Depending on how it goes, it may go down to one a week some weeks. I don't know. I just know I need to make time for class, and I need to make personal time so I have hobbies and projects to talk about that aren't just me going off about Twitch for the umpteenth time today. (5/7)
Dark Souls will still start tomorrow. SMTV and Dot Hack WILL be finished. But, stream schedule will be TBD for a while while I figure things out. (6/7)
I'm sorry to anyone I've hurt with my behavior. In particular, I want to apologize to @OnyanCronch and to @ickacangmachine's and @rassicas's communities. I'll try to do better going forward. Thank you for understanding, and for still being my friends despite it all. <3 (7/7)
It is currently 12:06 AM, January 1st, 2022. We made it. A whole 'nother year.
I'm sitting here, full up on green grapes, herring, black-eyed peas, and champagne, and I'm thinking about how strange things are and have been.
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I make no secret of how my mother wasn't a good person. But something that stuck with me was her New Years traditions. Champagne, black eyed peas, herring, and green grapes. I never questioned it.
It's only now, just after my 29th birthday, that I decided to Google it.
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It turns out, it's an amalgamation of traditions. The American South eat black eyed peas and collard greens on New Years, to symbolize luck and money in the new year. Poland and parts of Scandinavia eat herring on New Years to bring bounty and prosperity.
I think there's some merit to what Ralsei is saying, about what happens if Dark Fountains engulf the entire world. The crux of my thinking lies specifically with what happens when you use the Shadow Crystals (see screenshots, credit u/Liny_An on Reddit). (1/
We know Jevil was driven mad by being shown the 'reality' of his world. If we combine that with the fact that Dark Fountains are the process of making fiction real, and the Shadow Crystals let you see 'through' the Dark Fountain, we start to get some concerning implications. (2/
I saw a REALLY GOOD video analyzing Determination now that it's known to be part of Deltarune, but function differently from in Undertale.
But its conclusion made me realize some stuff the video leaves unsaid.
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Its core argument is, while in Undertale, Determination was a ludonarrative device in which saving/loading is analogized as rewinding time, in Deltarune, Determination is a ludonarrative device in which creators writing stories is analogized as the creation of Dark Fountains. (1/
This is an incredibly sound theory, but I feel like the video leaves some bits of evidence with interesting implications on the table. Specifically, with the way Darkners and the Castle Town function. (2/