some slightly cryptic thoughts about time travel i'm not gonna elaborate on for now:
time travel to the past is about memory and time travel to the future is about imagination. they're parallel because memory and imagination are the same process
time traveling to the past to change it is about memory reconsolidation
fixed-timeline time travel where you can't change the past is about acceptance, determinism, free will
time traveling to the future is about whether your plans are good. do you marry well, are your descendants well provided for, etc.
from @captain_mrs: time loops where you go back repeatedly to try to change the outcome is about the stuckness of emotional memories
from @captain_mrs: time loops where the past and present are entangled (c.f. Holes) are about memory reconsolidation using metaphor (healing either individual or generational trauma)
(i have to admit i don't grok this one yet)
from @meditationstuff: "Many people, deep, deep down (or at multiple "levels") are seeking an elsewhere, an elsewhen. They’re trying to step outside the universe, break the universe, step through a portal, step to another side, into books, movies..."
if you wanna know what "memory reconsolidation" means in excruciating and also fascinating detail this is the book for you. unlocking the emotional brain. probably the single most nerdsniping therapy book
my brain: okay fine what if he took ayahuasca instead
me: hmm alright i'm letting you off this time
tbc 1) i actually kinda like this idea and 2) obviously it doesn't work if you ask for "good story ideas," you just ask for and get story ideas and some of them are just going to be cringe or insane, blah blah etc etc read impro
here's another video of a bunch of birds i saw today. my high school gf and i broke up in this park and i never saw her again
oh shit there's a chance she still lives around here
yeah you could say i'm a birdwatcher. i make little watches for birds and i try to put them on the birds i find. it's really hard i don't know how anyone else does it. i've only done it once so far and the bird was injured. like really injured. i think it was dead
one of my longstanding interests i don't really talk about because it's very rude is "nerd theory," in the sense of having a theory of nerds: why do nerds have that voice? why don't nerds like sports? why do nerds have bad posture? why do nerds *look younger*?
anyway i have a rough draft of a theory now, the one-sentence summary is not that complicated it turns out:
a nerd is a person who is tense all the time
holding chronic tension in the body produces nerd voice, nerd face, makes posture bad, and makes physical activity subtly painful and unpleasant, hence avoiding sports
guys can we talk about this completely insane thread where oxytocin nasal spray apparently makes an autistic guy not autistic temporarily? i'm gonna be fucked up about this for days
"I noticed my son's aspergers bigly today. I keep looking at him when I talk to him and he's like "what" and I'm like "what what" and it's really awkward. I can see what NTs see when they talk to us."
when i’m in a good mood i find extremely dumb things funny, like just repeating the word “bnuuy” to myself (it’s still funny i just checked). also recently i’ve found myself doing silly voices or straight up quoting lines from old cartoons. yesterday it was “return the slab”
i would like to get really good at impressions i think. i probably won’t put in the time but it would be nice to have
this shit is just permanently seared into my mind might as well use it i guess