Thread by @GeePawHill

I have been mulling, stalling, hedging, thinking, strategizing, so on and so forth, on a new project I've had in mind, for at least six months.

I think I'm about to pull the trigger on it.

And I'm not even gonna tell you what it is.

Because all the mulling, stalling, hedging, etc etc et fucking cetera had almost nothing to do with the geekery.

I make content for a living, or, more correctly, I make content for a non-living. I have project after project, three of them alive currently, to serve as the base and motive for my content.

But this project is gonna be a joy project. I need something to play with when I'm *not* making videos, *not* recounting stories, *not* explaining the stupid shit I do.

I need to do some geekery that is just for the sheer joy of doing geekery.

Not saying I won't speak of it, or write of it. I'm doing that right now.

Rather, I will only speak of it when I feel like it. I won't measure my steps, shoot my videos, make slides, leave nothing out.

No schedule, either.

I just wanna geek out sometimes, w/o thinking about teaching, or coaching, or turning my output into income.

This project, were it completed, would be useful to me. Further, it would showcase some really important ideas in geekery.

The part that's taken me months and months to work through: I DON'T CARE.

When one is self-employed, one works. One either works or feels bad because they're not working. And one force-multiplies, one is doing one thing and hoping to make bank on it three ways.

And do you know what that drive does?

It keeps you from doing things that have some conceivable relationship to work for no other reason than because they make you feel better.

I'm gonna do this project because I think doing it will make me feel good. Not because I can use it, directly for its purpose, or indirectly for pedagogy.

Because it will make me feel good.