We never got a February with Francesca, I think part of it is why it hit me so hard on Valentine's Day. Buying a little balloon for her tree, I just wish we were all here together w/her and Talia. With each new memory with Talia, each new photo – I take so many! - I know that...
we get farther from Beans' life. I kept so few photos of 2021 so I could scroll back to my Beans easier. I'm still adjusting to this new life we have. Having a new baby doesn't erase the pain. But I feel such love for Talia. It's such effortless love.
I honestly don't know how I survived. But we just do after Beans died and we didn't have Talia. I cry for Beans, but Talia has gifted me something I thought I lost. We read Beans' such sweet books and sang such sweet songs. I thought for a long time that stuff died w/Beans. But..
it didn't. I'm so grateful for this love I have now. Beans will always be my forever baby. Even when I'm old. I know Beans will be the last thing I think about. All those years without her. The hole will never be filled. Nothing's quite like child loss, it's like a part of your..
soul has been ripped out and can't go back. But with Talia, I feel so infinitely blessed. We had the worst thing happen to us w/Beans' death but I still feel blessed. Blessed to have know Beans and blessed to have Talia.
Francesca was the most dramatic girl in her entrance and exit. She was born March 11th, the first official day of the pandemic and she died on Christmas Eve. Her story isn't done yet.
• • •
Missing some Tweet in this thread? You can try to
force a refresh
