Thread by @anamariayesdesn

It's excruciating to take in

It's embarrassing though it shouldn't be because it's not happening due to anything that I have control over

It's dehumanizing because asking for help from most organizations means I have to give copious evidence of how much I'm struggling (1/5)

and in what ways

Every time I'm trying to ease my anxiety by looking at the bright side or trying to put my best foot forward to raise money for my literal survival, I'm reminded that I appear too competent to be taken seriously.

All the while, the ableist comments of (2/5)

past employers, colleagues, and even some college professors echo in my head....

You're so smart, you're just not living up to your potential

You just have to set your mind to it

You just have to make the decision to try harder

You just have to hide yourself at every (3/5)

moment so that you can get a job and be able to survive

You just have to suck it up because the world isn't fair

I miss my parents

I wish I lived in a state where I could be treated like a full person, disabilities and all

I just feel so heavy and everything is pushing (4/5)