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"You're really doing this right now? Here?"
"I don't really know why it's even so surprising at this point"
"You're seriously breaking up with me? Us?"
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"You're really doing this right now? Here?"
"I don't really know why it's even so surprising at this point"
"You're seriously breaking up with me? Us?"
Izuku nodded twice and stared back at the two-person in front of him who were both looking at him in disbelief. With all that's happened, Izuku doesn't really know why they're acting like it's such big news.
And just looking at their faces is enough to make Izuku remember all the lies that they fed him all this time. But what shook his hard-earned resolve were those huge puppy eyes that were innocently looking up to him.
๐๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฅ๐ฐ ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ, ๐ช๐ต'๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ง๐ข๐ถ๐ญ๐ต. ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ซ๐ถ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ช๐ณ ๐ญ๐ช๐ฆ๐ด.
No, he should not think too much about it anymore, he should be done and over it by now after mulling
No, he should not think too much about it anymore, he should be done and over it by now after mulling
over whether to do it or not for a long time. He walked away moving away from all the balloons on his way and moving carefully to not walk on any carefully laid down candles to celebrate 'their' first anniversary.
Can't ruin all those decorations, of course, he was the one who meticulously planned this event anyway. The one who took time and effort to make it perfect for 'them'.
Izuku walked away, hair fluttering wildly with the wind, well at least there's the summer breeze and the salty
Izuku walked away, hair fluttering wildly with the wind, well at least there's the summer breeze and the salty
scent of the sea with a beautiful sun setting on the horizon to compensate for his broken and exhausted heart. Wow, it's actually over now. It's sad but liberating at least he won't have to bottle up his emotions anymore and at least he'll be able to start a new life again.
A new life out of this miserable relationship that only bred more and more lies and secrets that ruined him.
He was already quite far from all the noise and bright lights when he heard someone call his name, Izuku didn't want to stop and look back but the voice just
He was already quite far from all the noise and bright lights when he heard someone call his name, Izuku didn't want to stop and look back but the voice just
kept getting closer and closer until Izuku felt warmth wrapped around his wrist.
"Deku please don't do this. You know how important this is for all of us", Katsuki begged as he's wrapping his hands around Izuku's gently squeezing it.
"Deku please don't do this. You know how important this is for all of us", Katsuki begged as he's wrapping his hands around Izuku's gently squeezing it.
Izuku's eyes traveled from his hands up to those crimson eyes that were begging for him to stay.
The greenette took a deep breath before gently peeling the blonde's hands off him, which made him notice something he completely forgot about.
The greenette took a deep breath before gently peeling the blonde's hands off him, which made him notice something he completely forgot about.
It is the ring he's still wearing, the ring Katsuki gave him on their third-year celebration as a couple, the one the blonde gave him as a promise of eternal love, laughable. Izuku quickly removed it from his finger and shoved it in the blonde's palm all the while the blonde
was staring at him in complete shock.
"In case you wanted it back, Kacchan. Because I don't need it anymore"
"I sincerely gave it to you along with my heart, Izuku", the blonde said clutching the ring tightly in his palm and his eye burning with unshed angry tears while
"In case you wanted it back, Kacchan. Because I don't need it anymore"
"I sincerely gave it to you along with my heart, Izuku", the blonde said clutching the ring tightly in his palm and his eye burning with unshed angry tears while
looking on the ground unable to look at the greenette out of his emotions bubbling up.
"And I'm also sincerely giving it back" Izuku did not bother to meet his eyes again as he turn his back to walk away. //Don't let him lead you on anymore// is what he keeps telling himself
"And I'm also sincerely giving it back" Izuku did not bother to meet his eyes again as he turn his back to walk away. //Don't let him lead you on anymore// is what he keeps telling himself
while also fighting the urge not to cry
"If you walk even a single more step away from me, that's it. I'm not going to ask you again." the blonde said after Izuku was already a few feet away and it made the greenette stop for a second
"If you walk even a single more step away from me, that's it. I'm not going to ask you again." the blonde said after Izuku was already a few feet away and it made the greenette stop for a second
only for him to walk away again while tightly clenching the hem of his shirt.
But even as the other continues to call his name, Izuku did not look back and he did not stop walking away. It's time to choose himself.
***
But even as the other continues to call his name, Izuku did not look back and he did not stop walking away. It's time to choose himself.
***
The festering hole in his heart almost never left Izuku's mind ever since Katsuki asked him to consider taking in an omega in their relationship. Izuku knew that it took Katsuki a lot of courage to ask him that. Because the blonde has always been so careful with him,
always considering his feelings and opinions whenever and wherever. And Izuku was grateful for that because it was not a treatment he never had the luxury to receive growing up as a beta.
But it didn't spare him from feeling small and useless because he knew that Katsuki asking means, he was no longer enough to make him happy. Izuku knew exactly why. Katsuki has always wanted to have a child ever since all their friends started to get settled and have all those
cute pups crawling around. It's really a pleasant sight and even though no one expected it, Katsuki is a really reliable uncle. Izuku saw how much he cared for them, how gentle and how loving his gaze was, how he would silently watch over the pups making sure none of them would
be hurt while playing around, how he would gently sing them to sleep, and how he would concentrate so hard while thinking of what gifts to give them when they'll come to visit. He's really someone fit to become a father but Izuku is someone not capable of making him one.
And so he agreed. If it will make Katsuki happy, he's all for it. Katsuki has always considered his happiness ever since so it's about time he does something that would also make him happy. And it's not so rare now to find alphas with more than one mate even though
he's not really sure whether anyone aside from Katsuki even considered him as the alpha's mate.
Their friends were all kind people, maybe all too kind that sometimes Izuku would catch them looking at him and Katsuki with pity while they playing with their children.
Their friends were all kind people, maybe all too kind that sometimes Izuku would catch them looking at him and Katsuki with pity while they playing with their children.
They never said anything but Izuku knew those looks, it was the same one that his mother would always give him while growing up all the while blaming herself that he was born as a beta despite having an alpha and omega parents.
He's bever saw himself as someone pitiful just because he's beta, just because he can't smell and release pheromones but people would always make him out to be someone pitiful like someone born with a disability.
All of them were the same except for Katsuki who take him for who he was. Despite being an alpha of a high-status Katsuki never looked down on him. He treated him as an equal, he treated him with so much love and he treated him like he was the only person of his wants and desires
That's why Izuku was prepared to also give him everything that he has. His heart, his body, and his soul.
So when the blonde asked for his hand in marriage, Izuku didn't think twice to say yes. It was on their third year anniversary,
So when the blonde asked for his hand in marriage, Izuku didn't think twice to say yes. It was on their third year anniversary,
the last anniversary they celebrated together with just the two of them before they welcome a new part of the family into their life.
Izuku prepared hard to welcome the omega into their house. He decorated their guest room, prepared all the necessary nesting materials an omega
Izuku prepared hard to welcome the omega into their house. He decorated their guest room, prepared all the necessary nesting materials an omega
would ever need and prepared scented candles of all kinds and the softest materials he can get his hand on after thorough research. He even prepared the food and cooked all sorts of dish from fish, pork, chicken, and beef just to make sure he wouldn't miss anything.
So when he heard the sound of the door opening, his palm started to sweat uncontrollably. What if he missed something?What if he didn't prepare enough?What if the omega didn't like it?His thoughts were running wild until he saw a familiar little pup running towards him for a hug.
"Zuzu" was the first word of the pup who tackled him into a tight hug. Izuku gently stroked the pup's hair as he looked up to see her omega staring at him with an awkward and slightly shy smile.
It was not who Izuku ever expected.
It was not who Izuku ever expected.
He thought Katsuki would meet some omega from somewhere far away, someone they didn't know, and definitely not someone that is their friend. It was Denki and his pup, Kaori. Despite the uncomfortable feeling and surprise, Izuku gave the omega and his pup a warm welcome,
leading them to their dining area. Izuku briefly made eye contact with his alpha who gave him a curt apologetic smile that somewhat said, //I'll talk to you later//
While having their first dinner Izuku watched their house with so much love and appreciation,
While having their first dinner Izuku watched their house with so much love and appreciation,
it looks so much more alive now that they have a pup that is adorably eating her meal with the help of Katsuki. Izuku has always known that Kaori is Katsuki's favorite pup out of all the pups in their circle of friends, perhaps because he has been with her since she was born.
Izuku heard that Denki got into a bad accident when he was pregnant with Kaori and it was also the same accident that killed Kaori's father. It has been a really tough phase for Denki that he got through thanks to all his friends.
Everyone took care of him while he was recovering and maybe that was also why Kaori has a special place in Katsuki's heart. It might have been weird because they had a tradition to watch over their friends giving birth and when Kaori was born, the first-ever person who held her
was Katsuki. Who looked at her then with so much pride for enduring everything. Kaori really held on tight to his mother, despite of that accident she's still a healthy baby, and look at her now 2 years later, gobbling all the food that Izuku prepared.
Izuku did not even notice that he was smiling so fondly at the puppy not until his eyes met Katsuki who was also smiling at him with so much love. Under the table, the blonde traced his way into the greenette's hand,
interlacing their fingers and giving it a tight squeeze in which the greenette returned.
He still remembers how he thought that it wasn't really so bad to welcome them into their family. Denki needed someone who will help him raise Kaori,
He still remembers how he thought that it wasn't really so bad to welcome them into their family. Denki needed someone who will help him raise Kaori,
Katsuki wanted a pup and Kaori deserves to get all the love that she can get while growing up. It's perfect and it didn't took Izuku long to learn how to love Kaori with all his heart. They can indeed be a happy family is what he thought.
He wasn't wrong at first. Their house was livelier than ever. Kaori would be running around while Izuku chases after her, all the while Denki is laughing unable to keep up with his daughter's energy.
Kaori would be giggling happily after she gets caught and smothered with kisses by the greenette. And after the little one's asleep, Izuku and Denki would also rest on the couch while watching Denki's favorite show.
At night when Katsuki's home the first one he would be looking for is Kaori who would mischievously hide behind the door to surprise him. It has been the loudest time it has been in their house. With just a pup's presence, everything felt more lively and happy.
It was also the happiest time for Izuku. He didn't expect to love the pup so much, every time after work he would find himself in Kaori's favorite pastry shop to buy her favorite, and whenever he sees a cute little dress he can't stop himself from buying it for her.
Kaori really made him feel like a parent he thought he'd never become.
But Kaori became way too attached to Izuku. At night she'd sneak out of her and Denki's room to sleep between Izuku and Katsuki. She'd hug Izuku to sleep and it all made the omega lonely and jealous,
But Kaori became way too attached to Izuku. At night she'd sneak out of her and Denki's room to sleep between Izuku and Katsuki. She'd hug Izuku to sleep and it all made the omega lonely and jealous,
whenever she woke up to find his pup not sleeping by his side. And when he looks for her she'd be soundly sleeping beside Izuku.
Kaori's behavior put them all on the edge. Izuku felt so guilty for taking all the pup's attention and for leaving the omega in distress.
Kaori's behavior put them all on the edge. Izuku felt so guilty for taking all the pup's attention and for leaving the omega in distress.
And Katsuki was worried that Denki was not getting the right amount of rest. For an omega to suddenly be away from his very young child would be a traumatic experience for anyone. Both Katsuki and Izuku felt bad for making Denki feel that way.
So they tried to find a way to fix Kaori's sleeping habits. They tried locking their door at night so that she can't sneak in but that only made her cry all night calling out for them, it only made Denki more miserable thinking that his child no longer loves him.
They tried dressing Kaori's toy in both Izuku and Katsuki's clothes and it worked to make her sleep all night but it also made Denki sensitive. It repulsed him to welcome all those smells in his nest. It feels like they'r invading his space and such a rude thing to do to an omega
Something Izuku was not very familiar with, which only made him feel more guilty for even suggesting it.
They ran out of options and it leave them with no choice but to approach a specialist. Turns out that the solution was quite simple. Simple for outsiders.
They ran out of options and it leave them with no choice but to approach a specialist. Turns out that the solution was quite simple. Simple for outsiders.
Simple for anyone else's. A solution Izuku wasn't really sure what to feel. The pup actually wanted the presence of an alpha, it made her feel safe and it made her feel comfortable. Katsuki just had to share a room with Denki and Kaori. Simple as that.
Katsuki immediately assured him.
"I won't do it if you don't want me to", is what he said. Which only made it hard for Izuku. The greenette knew that he said it in good faith but it felt wrong how he pushed a hard decision-making on him.
"I won't do it if you don't want me to", is what he said. Which only made it hard for Izuku. The greenette knew that he said it in good faith but it felt wrong how he pushed a hard decision-making on him.
That if he refused to do it, it would make him a bad parent but if he said yes, it would also mean that he's giving him permission to spend nights on someone else's bed.
So when the omega spoke about it, "But I thought we're family, so what's wrong about it?"
So when the omega spoke about it, "But I thought we're family, so what's wrong about it?"
no one had an answer to his question.
Izuku still remembers the first night that he spent the night alone in their big bedroom, thinking about Katsuki and the pup that is probably sleeping soundly between her omega and the alpha she has always thought of as her father.
Izuku still remembers the first night that he spent the night alone in their big bedroom, thinking about Katsuki and the pup that is probably sleeping soundly between her omega and the alpha she has always thought of as her father.
Maybe Denki also felt this way when he was sleeping alone, maybe it's only fair he felt that way so that he can understand the omega's feelings.
Izuku woke up the next day with a forehead kiss from Katsuki. So he tried to ignore the loneliness he felt that night.
Izuku woke up the next day with a forehead kiss from Katsuki. So he tried to ignore the loneliness he felt that night.
Denki also approached him that day, apologizing for the circumstances they had to go through because of Kaori, which Izuku immediately dismissed saying it's no one's fault and that it's their obligation as Kaori's parents to make her feel safe.
Denki then gave Izuku a tight hug, the first time ever that the omega initiated contact. It almost made Izuku cry because it was also the day that the omega opened up to him, about how hard it was to raise Kaori alone, how thankful he was that they took them in,
and how lonely he was when he felt like Kaori is starting to distance herself from him, how he felt like a burden most of the time because he was not as mobile as he used to after the accident.
He was carrying so many burdens all alone and he didn't have anyone who he can share those burdens with. It made Izuku more guilty and selfish for thinking too much about Katsuki staying in the omega's room for just one night.
Izuku wanted to be kinder to him, to be more considerate to him and Kaori, to be more understanding of Katsuki, and to be more like someone they can all rely on.
He wanted nothing more than to make this family to work as he's not just starting to love Kaori but also to accept Denki.
It was an unsaid rule but Katsuki alternates on where he will be sleeping every night and it was all going well not until Denki's heats.
It was an unsaid rule but Katsuki alternates on where he will be sleeping every night and it was all going well not until Denki's heats.
Izuku had no idea of how it all works and it completely slipped off his mind not until he saw Denki lying on the floor one day while playing with Kaori. Izuku panicked because it was the first time he saw an omega on heat and he immediately called
Katsuki who instantly came home that moment. Izuku took care of Kaori while Katsuki was tending to the omega. After Denki was completely settled in his room and after drinking his medicine and pills, Izuku thought that's all there is to it but oh how wrong was he.
That night while they were all sleeping, with Kaori sleeping between him and Katsuki, there was a sudden loud banging on their door. It immediately woke them up, it was Denki looking for both Katsuki and Kaori, he wanted his pup and the alpha, he was screaming and begging and
Izuku didn't have to be a genius to know what Denki wanted. Izuku reluctantly reached out for Katsuki as he was getting up from their bed. No, he didn't want it to happen,he knew he agreed to take in an omega but it was only because Katsuki wanted a pup but they already have one,
they have Kaori so he didn't have to do anything, right? It might be selfish knowing that there's an omega in pain on the other side of the door but he can't take it. He can't bear to even think of Katsuki with someone else.
But the alpha stood up from the bed after gently peeling off Izuku's grip and walked over to Izuku's side to give him a warm hug. The alpha hugged the greenette and gently stroked his back while gently planting kisses on top of his head. "It's okay, don't worry... don't worry",
but those words only made it more painful for Izuku, because the sound of his voice said otherwise. Deep inside, he's still just an alpha, dictated by his nature, by his innate beast. And it just so happens that there's an omega out there screaming for an alpha.
And so Izuku stayed there frozen, unable to move to stop Katsuki from walking out that door to follow his instinct. And as frustrated tears fall down his face also came the noise, the sounds Izuku didn't want to hear at all.
And he spent that night, covering his ears with pillows all the while the tears continuously fall down as he's hugging Kaori who was peacefully sleeping through it all.
TBC
TBC
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Izuku woke up early the next day, or rather he didn't really get any proper sleep at all. As soon as he saw a little sunlight peeking out of the window,
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Izuku woke up early the next day, or rather he didn't really get any proper sleep at all. As soon as he saw a little sunlight peeking out of the window,
he picked up the still groggy pup and carried her out for a walk, he did not once look back in the direction of Denki's room and he did not bother to change his or Kaori's clothes. All he just wanted was to get out of that house and get some fresh air.
It was a little cold so probably it was not the best idea to take out a little pup so early in the morning, so even when he's cold himself he wrapped Kaori up with his night robe and pulled her as close as possible to his body to share with her the little to nothing body warmth
that he has. Without meaning it, he has already reached the small artificial lake of their town. He sat at the old metal bench and immediately regretted doing so because it immediately seeped all the heat from his body but he really needed to sit after an hour
of walking while carrying a whole toddler. Damn, he should have at least made her wear some shoes so that maybe they could both walk together.
He didn't know he was zoning out while staring at the frogs trying to catch mosquitos for breakfast not until
He didn't know he was zoning out while staring at the frogs trying to catch mosquitos for breakfast not until
Kaori started pinching his cheeks while looking up at him.
"Zuzu, hungry," said the adorable pup with her best. It's one of the few words she learned how to say and Izuku's heart somehow swelled with pride because he was the one who taught her that.
"Zuzu, hungry," said the adorable pup with her best. It's one of the few words she learned how to say and Izuku's heart somehow swelled with pride because he was the one who taught her that.
And whenever he looks at her it is as if she draws all the joy from the world and gave it all to Izuku. The world may not be kind to him right now but at least he has this adorable ball of sunshine who he loves so much to make him happy.
She looks so much like Denki with that slightly light golden hair that is almost a faded blonde and those golden eyes that looks just as mischievous as his mother's, Izuku wonders what her father may have looked like because it was as if she got everything from Denki.
Despite of his legs complaining of exhaustion from walking so far, he still stood up from the bench and carried the pup into his arms again who immediately cling to his neck as she rests her head on his shoulder.
He doesn't really want to go home yet but he can't ever say no to his hungry pup. He'll endure whatever sight he'll have to see when he gets back so long as he gets to feed his hungry Kaori.
As they get close to their house, Izuku immediately knew that something was wrong, the gates were left wide open and the car that was perfectly fine before he left is now left in a very ugly position, as if a drunk person parked it.
Izuku carefully entered their property trying to gauge the situation from a safe distance only for their old and clunky gate to creak so loud it felt like the whole neighborhood hear it.
At the sound of the gate, Katsuki came running out like a mad man to meet Izuku and Kaori. In a flash, he was all over the both of them hugging them both so tightly not wanting to let go at all despite how Izuku and Kaori struggled to not get crushed by his big body
"๐'๐ฎ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ... ๐'๐ฎ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ. ๐ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฅ๐ฐ ๐ช๐ต ๐ข๐จ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ, ๐๐ป๐ถ๐ฌ๐ถ. ๐'๐ฎ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ, ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ฆ. ๐๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ, ๐'๐ฎ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ ๐'๐ฎ ๐ข ๐ฃ๐ข๐ฅ ๐ข๐ญ๐ฑ๐ฉ๐ข"
the alpha apologized nonstop his breathing was heavy and he was sweating cold sweats.
And Izuku's tears threatened to fall down again because even though he's muttering all kinds of apologies right now,
And Izuku's tears threatened to fall down again because even though he's muttering all kinds of apologies right now,
he still can't get himself to not remember how Katsuki peeled his hands off him and the sight of his back going out their door, //๐๐ง ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ๐ด๐ฆ, ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ// was what he thought while he reluctantly reached out to pat the blonde's hair with one hand.
Katsuki's a mess. He's only in his pajama, not wearing any shirt and his hair looked even wilder than ever. How can Izuku even forgive the alpha that time when everything about him only reminds him of last night.
The alpha did not let go and did not have any intention to let go, not even until Kaori wiggled her way out. Izuku remembered that day all too well how he stood there resignedly while the alpha was trying to force forgiveness out of him with his stubbornness.
It's one of his bad habits, always wanted forgiveness right away whenever he did something wrong. Heard it's a prime alpha thing where they can always just command any omega and alphas alike with his persistence and dominance but it's not something he should use on Izuku.
He can't dominate him and he should have known better to not use it on Izuku.
When he finally noticed that the beta finally stopped struggling to get out of his grip, it was as if Katsuki was finally out of a trance. He has been way too overwhelmed with fear and anxiety of not
When he finally noticed that the beta finally stopped struggling to get out of his grip, it was as if Katsuki was finally out of a trance. He has been way too overwhelmed with fear and anxiety of not
seeing his beta and his pup after he knew that he did something wrong and it made him panic but Izuku's way too tired to try and understand him that morning, and he did not get any sleep the night before and he just came from a long walk.
Katsuki gave him one apologetic look before stepping back reluctantly to give him room. Izuku walked past the blonde and straight into the kitchen, quickly whipping something up for the pup. All Izuku wanted at that moment was to feed the pup.
He doesn't want to care as to what happened between his alpha and omega and he just wants them both out of his sight even if just at that moment.
But the alpha was all over him again while he was trying to feed the pup. It was very uncomfortable, very suffocating.
But the alpha was all over him again while he was trying to feed the pup. It was very uncomfortable, very suffocating.
But when Izuku saw how Kaori winced when he tried to push Katsuki off him, it was like someone punched him in the gut. It's not healthy for a child to see his parents fighting.
She did nothing wrong to get such parents and it was only their own selfish desire to have a pup that brought them to where they are so why do they have to act like this in front of her?
Even though Izuku was not ready at all to forgive and accept what happened, he made a show of hugging Katsuki like he always used to, to show Kaori that he was getting along just fine with Katsuki.And it was like Katsuki got wind of what was happening and immediately acted on it.
Took advantage of it to get his forgiveness.
"๐๐ข๐ค๐ค๐ฉ๐ข๐ฏ, ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ข๐ต ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ต ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ค๐ญ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ด?" Izuku remembered him asking the alpha who was still a mess at that time, as much as possible he wanted Kaori to always
"๐๐ข๐ค๐ค๐ฉ๐ข๐ฏ, ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ข๐ต ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ต ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ค๐ญ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ด?" Izuku remembered him asking the alpha who was still a mess at that time, as much as possible he wanted Kaori to always
see them at their best.
"๐๐ฐ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ซ๐ฐ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ฎ๐ฆ?" the alpha whispered in his ear, slyly pulling the greenette's waist gently towards him behind the counter. It was an invitation Izuku would have accepted with flustered giggles before,
"๐๐ฐ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ซ๐ฐ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ฎ๐ฆ?" the alpha whispered in his ear, slyly pulling the greenette's waist gently towards him behind the counter. It was an invitation Izuku would have accepted with flustered giggles before,
but it was so much different this time, he was filled with so many conflicting feelings and his head was filled with both Denki and Katsuki all under the influence of their inner beasts.
So he made an excuse that he has to take care of Kaori which is essentially true because Denki is still nowhere in sight. Katsuki accepted his refusal like a kicked puppy as he made his way out of their kitchen.
Almost a week passed after that day and unconsciously,
Almost a week passed after that day and unconsciously,
Izuku spent more time with Kaori, teaching her some more vocabulary, taking her out to the playground, and watching kid shows with her. Partly because Denki is still not okay and hasn't stepped out of his room ever since then and partly because of Katsuki.
The blonde insisted to take the week off to help him take care of the pup and Denki so he's been in the house the whole time.
And Izuku appreciated the blonde's efforts to make it up to him, the alpha has been really hands-on taking care of Kaori,
And Izuku appreciated the blonde's efforts to make it up to him, the alpha has been really hands-on taking care of Kaori,
he did all the cooking and cleaning up after her mess and he unfailingly tell the greenette every chance he gets how much he loves him.
He's also more cautious unlike before. He asked their family doctor to prescribe Denki a higher dose of suppressant.
He's also more cautious unlike before. He asked their family doctor to prescribe Denki a higher dose of suppressant.
And Katsuki also followed his advice to also take his inhibitors while the omega is in heat. It wasn't an easy week but they all worked hard to get through it.
If he's gonna be honest, Izuku never really doubted Katsuki's love for him, sure he can be quite a handful sometimes,
If he's gonna be honest, Izuku never really doubted Katsuki's love for him, sure he can be quite a handful sometimes,
often impatient and gruff but he's someone understanding, hardworking, and kind deep inside, and he's also someone who never commits the same mistake twice.
Izuku knew that the alpha cares for him a lot and it was something he has proven through the years.
Izuku knew that the alpha cares for him a lot and it was something he has proven through the years.
He's the kind of lover who loves his food with LOTS of chilies but takes it down by a notch for his boyfriend who can't eat something spicy, the lover who endured withdrawal symptoms of quitting smoking because he wants to live long enough to live a lifetime with his boyfriend.
The lover who gained a beta's mother's trust to take care of his one beloved son and a lover who never left him through the ups and downs.
Katsuki was there for him even at his lowest when he and his mom had to go through a messed up separation with his father,
Katsuki was there for him even at his lowest when he and his mom had to go through a messed up separation with his father,
Hisashi who left them for a younger omega he knocked up. He can still remember how Katsuki held his hand through those times with his head held up high urging Izuku to do the same,
amidst the stares and gossip of people scorn his mother for being a pathetic omega and Izuku for being a beta.
It was the first time Izuku learned the sad truth, that no one ever really blames an alpha. It will always be not their fault, it will always be weak omegas and useless
It was the first time Izuku learned the sad truth, that no one ever really blames an alpha. It will always be not their fault, it will always be weak omegas and useless
betas. But time and time, Katsuki proved to him that he won't ever be an alpha like Hisashi. What's so wrong with forgiving him for something he didn't mean to do?
So one evening while Katsuki's dancing Kaori to sleep, both looking like angels in each other's arms, Izuku hugged them both with all the sincerity he can muster. He wanted them to feel his love, to feel his warmth and sincerity.
He wanted them to feel and he wanted them to know that they're his whole world. Katsuki was surprised by the simple gesture, it was the first time Izuku initiated contact after that night and it sure was clear on his face
how much relief and happiness he felt when Izuku tenderly held his face in his slender hands.
"๐'๐ฎ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ" the alpha whispered once again when he leaned down and their forehead touched. His eyes were wet, filled with so much sincerity and regrets.
"๐'๐ฎ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ" the alpha whispered once again when he leaned down and their forehead touched. His eyes were wet, filled with so much sincerity and regrets.
Izuku replied with a kiss on his lips and a slight shake of his head. ๐๐ต'๐ด ๐ฐ๐ฌ๐ข๐บ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ. Events of that night might be a memory that won't leave Izuku's mind forever but it should not negate all the happy and lovely memories he made with Katsuki through the years.
Izuku loved to imagine how they probably looked like a very lovely family as they hug each other that evening with their little one in between. They all had a good sleep that night, the first one they all finally got after nights of silence and awkwardness.
Izuku woke up the day after, with no one by his side, no Katsuki, no Kaori, and when he got out of their room, he was met with a very clean living room and the smell of his favorite ground coffee.
And before he can even enter the kitchen he was met with Denki who was holding a pan looking quite panicked.
"๐ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ด๐ถ๐ณ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ช๐ด๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ", said the omega with disappointment written on his face.
"๐ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ด๐ถ๐ณ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ช๐ด๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ", said the omega with disappointment written on his face.
He can't stop fidgeting on the hem of his shirt and he can't meet Izuku's gaze. When the greenette looked at their dining table it was already full of dishes that the omega may have prepared.
Denki didn't have to say anything for Izuku to understand that it was his way
Denki didn't have to say anything for Izuku to understand that it was his way
of making it up to him, he looked as lost as Izuku was the day after that night. Maybe he was just as conflicted as Izuku was and the greenette knew how difficult it was all to process.
So the greenette reached for the pan the omega was holding and reached for his other hand to lead him to their dining table.
"๐ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฆ๐ข๐ต ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ด๐ฆ, ๐๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ช. ๐ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ข๐ณ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ", were the words he muttered to
"๐ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฆ๐ข๐ต ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ด๐ฆ, ๐๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ช. ๐ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ข๐ณ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ", were the words he muttered to
the omega with a smile. Denki reluctantly followed him wiping little tears that escaped his eyes.
"๐'๐ฎ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ, ๐๐ป๐ถ๐ฌ๐ถ. ๐'๐ฎ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ", the omega sobbed hard as he held tight to the greenette's hands.
"๐'๐ฎ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ, ๐๐ป๐ถ๐ฌ๐ถ. ๐'๐ฎ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ", the omega sobbed hard as he held tight to the greenette's hands.
His emotions were all too raw that it felt like he did much more grave of a sin and it also broke Izuku a little inside.
He told himself he needed to be kinder to be more considerate because they were all bound by their inner alphas and omegas and it is something he can
He told himself he needed to be kinder to be more considerate because they were all bound by their inner alphas and omegas and it is something he can
never understand. He can never understand how it feels like to get out of control once a month, to be feral, to be pregnant despite having a male body, to smell fear, distress, love, and happiness, and to be endlessly bound to someone by some unseeable force.
So all he can do is to be as kind and considerate because it is never right to just hate something just because you don't understand.
Izuku wanted to stay optimistic about their situation by all means, probably because he wanted to get that taste of the little dose of happiness
Izuku wanted to stay optimistic about their situation by all means, probably because he wanted to get that taste of the little dose of happiness
they all had at the beginning of this all or probably also because he was desperate to have a perfect family that he wasn't able to have when he was younger.
Right, mistakes and accidents happen all the time. They both apologized way too many times than he can even count. They were both sorry and regretful and that's what's important. They can all just learn from it so it can never happen again. Right?
Izuku can't even describe the relief and pure joy on Katsuki's face when he got home that day to see them all having fun playing princess with Kaori. The pup run to meet the alpha as soon as she saw him standing by their door.
It was a beautiful picture Katsuki lifted her off her feet and then kiss her chubby cheeks which made her giggle in delight. They really look like a real father and daughter, as they look very much alike.
Maybe it's true when they say that adopted kids begin to look like their adopted parents over time.
It was like a brand new beginning for all of them again. They were all adjusting better than before. No more awkward silence and interactions, it felt more natural to have meals
It was like a brand new beginning for all of them again. They were all adjusting better than before. No more awkward silence and interactions, it felt more natural to have meals
together and Kaori was starting to adjust better to the environment no more crying fits whenever she can't sleep at night so Katsuki didn't have to change rooms every night. Denki's heats were all predicted right according to the calendar that they made so they were able to
manage it well. Katsuki and Izuku were able to get back to their normal working schedule after Denki adjusted well and Kaori is a very kind pup that his dam didn't have any problem taking care of her alone. It was all perfect for a while. They were all happy and contented.
That is until Izuku and Katsuki had to rush to the hospital one day when their neighbor called them because they heard Kaori wailing nonstop and that they had to check on her and they found the reason why soon after, it was Denki.
The omega passed out while playing with his pup, and no one knows how long before someone found him.
While waiting for the doctors to be done doing all the necessary tests on him, Izuku did his best to calm the shaken pup.
While waiting for the doctors to be done doing all the necessary tests on him, Izuku did his best to calm the shaken pup.
She must have been really scared to find her omega lying motionless on the ground. Izuku and Katsuki took turns carrying her until she fall asleep in Izuku's arms.
It was still vivid how Katsuki was rubbing his arm while it was wrapped around his shoulder.
It was still vivid how Katsuki was rubbing his arm while it was wrapped around his shoulder.
It was such a sweet gesture to keep him from worrying too much. Until comes the doctor in charge who looked at them in confusion but he mostly stared at Katsuki who immediately stood up from the chair he was sitting in the waiting room.
The doctor cleared his throat before asking for confirmation that he is indeed Denki's alpha.
The question took the alpha off guard and it was one of the few moments that Izuku saw him turn that pale. Katsuki reluctantly nodded at the doctor.
The question took the alpha off guard and it was one of the few moments that Izuku saw him turn that pale. Katsuki reluctantly nodded at the doctor.
But the news he dropped was something that really drained all the blood from Katsuki's face.
Denki's pregnant. And without a doubt, Katsuki is the father. It felt like time stopped for all of them, followed by the eerie silence that wrapped the room despite the busy buzzing of
Denki's pregnant. And without a doubt, Katsuki is the father. It felt like time stopped for all of them, followed by the eerie silence that wrapped the room despite the busy buzzing of
people working and coming in and out of the hospital.
Izuku's gaze dropped from the doctor down to his feet, it was unexplainable how in a flash he felt cold and tired almost empty.
Izuku's gaze dropped from the doctor down to his feet, it was unexplainable how in a flash he felt cold and tired almost empty.
But Katsuki was not much better,he froze and for a minute one would think that he stopped breathing.Even the doctor felt the uncanny tension that built up after his news because that's not what he's used to. Pregnancy is usually a happy news to his patients, a thing to celebrate.
So why? Why is that no one is smiling and no one's shedding tears of joy?
When Izuku lift up his gaze he caught the blonde staring at him and the way those eyes burrows into his green ones was enough for Izuku to understand. It's enough to make Izuku's heart sink,
When Izuku lift up his gaze he caught the blonde staring at him and the way those eyes burrows into his green ones was enough for Izuku to understand. It's enough to make Izuku's heart sink,
๐ฉ๐ฆ'๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฅ๐ฐ ๐ช๐ต ๐ข๐จ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ. ๐๐ข๐บ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ ๐ข๐ง๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ. ๐๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ฉ๐ถ๐ณ๐ต ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฎ ๐ข๐จ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ. The doctor gave them the information about Denki's pregnancy but it went like a blur, Izuku only heard the loud throbbing in his ear.
Right after the doctor left, Katsuki broke down kneeling beside Izuku who was tightly embracing Kaori, not wanting to disturb her sleep despite the turbulence in his own mind and emotion. Katsuki grasped Izuku's hand that was holding Kaori's back.
He brought it close to his lips and gave it multiple guilty kisses.
"๐๐ป๐ถ๐ฌ๐ถ", his voice was begging, begging Izuku to look at him, to hear him out. But one thought only ran into Izuku's mind.
"๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ถ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฆ๐ค๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฏ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต"
"๐๐ป๐ถ๐ฌ๐ถ", his voice was begging, begging Izuku to look at him, to hear him out. But one thought only ran into Izuku's mind.
"๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ถ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฆ๐ค๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฏ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต"
"๐ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ", is what he said while still trying to keep Izuku's hand from slipping away from his, is what he always says when he knows there's no way out of his mess. ๐๐ญ๐ข๐ด๐ด๐ช๐ค.
"๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ข ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ฑ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐บ. ๐๐ฐ ๐ ๐ด๐ข๐ช๐ฅ ๐บ๐ฆ๐ด, ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ ๐ด๐ข๐ธ ๐๐ข๐ฐ๐ณ๐ช ๐ณ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฅ๐ข๐บ, ๐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฎ๐ข๐บ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ช๐ฏ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ธ๐ฆ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต
๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ข๐ญ๐ธ๐ข๐บ๐ด ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ. ๐๐ฆ ๐ง๐ช๐ฏ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ข ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ฑ, ๐ธ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ช๐ฏ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐๐ข๐ฐ๐ณ๐ช. ๐๐ฐ... ๐ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ ๐ณ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ, ๐๐ข๐ค๐ค๐ฉ๐ข๐ฏ"
Izuku did not cry, Izuku did not break down, but despite the lovely little pup sleeping in his arms and the love of his life, desperately hanging on his side, he felt empty. Was it because of shock?
Or was it because when he imagined Denki pregnant, he also imagined them as one big happy family? A family without him, because he can't ever give Katsuki all the things that Denki could ever give him. He could never give him a child, and he could never make him feel complete.
Maybe the reason he didn't cry that day was because it was too painful that it made him numb.
It was also probably when he started to feel like he doesn't belong in the place he once called home.
It was also probably when he started to feel like he doesn't belong in the place he once called home.
When Denki got discharged none of them was able to look each other in the eye. The omega's every movement and words were full of tact and calculations like walking on ground full of broken glass. Katsuki had to take a day off to support and help him move around and Izuku...
Izuku didn't know what to do. It's like they're back to square one again, back to gauging each other's actions, back to formulating how to cohabitate in that house.
How is he supposed to act? Where should he place himself? And what is his role now in that house?
How is he supposed to act? Where should he place himself? And what is his role now in that house?
Izuku was lost as he watched everything transition.
He has to endure everything, ignore the screams of his heart, to stay as rational as he can. He had to be the better person because there were lives at stake.
He has to endure everything, ignore the screams of his heart, to stay as rational as he can. He had to be the better person because there were lives at stake.
The accident left Denki with not just scars but also unseeable deformities. His pregnancy is extremely delicate, he has to watch over his every move, be mindful of the food he eats, and keep his stress minimal.
It was already a challenge for a male omega to be pregnant but this is a whole level of danger, a mistake in this crucial stage of their lives might cause them not just the baby's but also Denki's life.
So Izuku just... watched.
So Izuku just... watched.
Silently lurking in the house like he doesn't exist at all, silently watching over Denki and Kaori. He knew his presence only puts Denki on the edge, it only makes the omega anxious so he stayed in the distance. For a house so big it sure was suffocating.
He and Katsuki never had a chance to talk properly again after everything became so hectic. The alpha is always way too tired every day from the work that piled up due to his absences and from assisting Denki with his check-ups.
Katsuki had to always accompany the omega to his therapy sessions. And in the evening he still insists to cook dinner because of the omega's cravings
They barely see each other anymore, barely able to interact with each other and at night
They barely see each other anymore, barely able to interact with each other and at night
Katsuki just always collapses from exhaustion. Izuku felt insignificant. And all of it started to slowly pile up and no one even Izuku knew that the things he was bottling up were already at its brim waiting to flow out.
The only good thing that Izuku was holding on to was Kaori, they both still love each other so much as if nothing changed at all,still singing their favorite children's song, making cute little progress with her ABC,and taking naps when they're both too tired from running around.
She was the only one Izuku had by his side, the only glimmer of hope that was keeping her sanity but she just had to be taken away from him too.
It was on Kaori's third birthday and Izuku decided to surprise her.
It was on Kaori's third birthday and Izuku decided to surprise her.
He knew that she likes dogs and small puppies and he knew just the place where she can see and interact with them. So, early in the morning that day, Izuku dressed her up in her favorite princess dress and took her to the dog park.
Kaori almost hopped out of the car when they arrived. Izuku will probably not forget her happy giggles when she got herself surrounded by a group of Maltese puppies that looked just like her. She ran around showing everyone her dress while screaming that it was her birthday.
When she finally got tired of playing and when it was almost lunch, Izuku picked her up to say goodbye to everyone they played with. Izuku was all ready to drive home after he strapped her into her baby seat when he felt the toddler tugging on his sleeves.
Izuku thought that she might be hungry already because she stared at him for a while before she spoke. But the words that came out was probably what makes everything even more painful for Izuku.
"๐๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ, ๐ก๐ถ๐ป๐ถ", the toddler professed with all seriousness, not with her usual playful giggly tone. He didn't mean to cry then and there especially not in front of a child but it all just came out.
๐๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ต๐ช๐ญ๐ญ ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ด ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฎ ๐ข๐ง๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ. It was warmth he haven't felt in so long. And Kaori, she might not be his own blood and flesh but ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฆ'๐ด ๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ค๐ฉ๐ช๐ญ๐ฅ.
"๐ ๐ข๐ญ๐ด๐ฐ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ, ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐๐ข๐ฐ๐ณ๐ช", they shared one last hug that may have been
"๐ ๐ข๐ญ๐ด๐ฐ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ, ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐๐ข๐ฐ๐ณ๐ช", they shared one last hug that may have been
one full of snot and tears but it didn't matter because they were both happy and contented.
It was supposed to be a happy and merry day and they were both still giggling and happily eating the bread Izuku brought for the two of them when they heard inhumane cries coming from
It was supposed to be a happy and merry day and they were both still giggling and happily eating the bread Izuku brought for the two of them when they heard inhumane cries coming from
their house. Izuku immediately rushed inside only for him to see Denki crying and wailing in Katsuki's arms. When the omega saw him, he immediately rushed to the greenette with his eyes all red and wild. He was screaming wildly and it did not just scare Izuku but also Kaori.
Katsuki stopped him from coming after Izuku but the omega did not want to be subdued.
"๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฌ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ! ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ข๐ญ๐ธ๐ข๐บ๐ด ๐ต๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ข๐ธ๐ข๐บ ๐ง๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฎ ๐ฎ๐ฆ!"
"๐๐ต๐ฐ๐ฑ ๐ช๐ต, ๐๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ช! ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ'๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ค๐ข๐ณ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐๐ข๐ฐ๐ณ๐ช!"
"๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฌ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ! ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ข๐ญ๐ธ๐ข๐บ๐ด ๐ต๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ข๐ธ๐ข๐บ ๐ง๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฎ ๐ฎ๐ฆ!"
"๐๐ต๐ฐ๐ฑ ๐ช๐ต, ๐๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ช! ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ'๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ค๐ข๐ณ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐๐ข๐ฐ๐ณ๐ช!"
their words stopped registering in Izuku's mind after he heard Kaori cry behind him, he immediately tried to reach out for her only to be harshly pushed aside by the omega who rushed towards his pup.
Denki calmed down a little after scenting his child but they were both still trembling.
And Izuku was way too stunned and hurt to process everything, he was still on the floor when he met Katsuki's eyes filled with exhaustion while just staring at him.
And Izuku was way too stunned and hurt to process everything, he was still on the floor when he met Katsuki's eyes filled with exhaustion while just staring at him.
"๐๐ข๐ค๐ค๐ฉ๐ข๐ฏ", his voice came out like a whisper as he's trying to stop his body from shaking. He only wanted to ask him what just happened but the blonde's words only came out sharp and hurtful.
"๐๐ฐ๐ด๐ฉ, ๐๐ฆ๐ฌ๐ถ. ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ฉ๐ฆ'๐ด ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฆ๐จ๐ฏ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ด๐ช๐ต๐ช๐ท๐ฆ. ๐๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ช๐ด ๐ด๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ข ๐ค๐ณ๐ถ๐ค๐ช๐ข๐ญ ๐ด๐ต๐ข๐จ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฎ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ต๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ฑ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฎ๐ช๐ด๐ด๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ,
๐ฐ๐ง ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ๐ด๐ฆ, ๐ฉ๐ฆ'๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด. ๐๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฆ๐น๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ค๐ต ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฎ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ค๐ต?"
Izuku meant well when he went out that day, he did not mean to hurt Denki or anyone. And he knew Katsuki was only tired from taking care of Denki and everything.
Izuku meant well when he went out that day, he did not mean to hurt Denki or anyone. And he knew Katsuki was only tired from taking care of Denki and everything.
But he was tired too. Tired of feeling like the terrible person they're making him out to be. Tired of being like an outsider in his own home, tired of not being treated like a family by the person he loved the most.
But what was probably the death sentence that day was when he watched Katsuki walk past him, to the dam and his pup. As he was still sitting there on the floor he had to watch Katsuki hold someone else that is not him, in his arms.
Gently helping the omega to stand up and walk to his room, leaving him behind right there at the front door.
It was as if Katsuki didn't see him or maybe it was more like Katsuki didn't care anymore. And now, Izuku's really left all alone.
TBC
It was as if Katsuki didn't see him or maybe it was more like Katsuki didn't care anymore. And now, Izuku's really left all alone.
TBC
Took a while to update coz everything's so chaotic rn, and I needed an escape.
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Well, I just want to say if you love angst then go for it but if it worsens your already bad day then please don't hurt yourself even more ๐คก
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#bkdk || #bkkm || #bkkmdk
angst, betrayal, aob, neglect, a!bk, b!dk, o!km, implied death
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#bkdk || #bkkm || #bkkmdk
angst, betrayal, aob, neglect, a!bk, b!dk, o!km, implied death
"๐๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ด๐ต๐ฐ๐ฑ ๐ค๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฎ๐ฆ, ๐๐ป๐ถ๐ฌ๐ถ," his mom heaved a sigh while shaking her head.
"Can't I just stay here for a while?" he remembered asking his Mom who only looked at him with pity then.
"Can't I just stay here for a while?" he remembered asking his Mom who only looked at him with pity then.
Her eyes looked like they want to say /๐ ๐ข๐ญ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฅ๐บ ๐ธ๐ข๐ณ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ//but his mom was kind enough to know that he need no anymore reprimanding. He was just way too tired and emotional. He can't stop thinking of what happened earlier
but he also can't stop thinking about Kaori.
It was supposed to be a happy day for her and yet they all had to ruin it for her. They were such a failure as adults. But as selfish as it sounds he knew it would break his heart even more if they celebrated all together without him.
It was supposed to be a happy day for her and yet they all had to ruin it for her. They were such a failure as adults. But as selfish as it sounds he knew it would break his heart even more if they celebrated all together without him.
Why is that it started to be so hard to fit into a family he thought he was a part of?
And now he can't even look his mother in the eye out of humiliation. She has always been against this whole set-up but he remained stubborn because he loved Katsuki so much.
And now he can't even look his mother in the eye out of humiliation. She has always been against this whole set-up but he remained stubborn because he loved Katsuki so much.
His mom still trusts and believes Katsuki and even at that time she was still willing to forgive him but that is only because she didn't know each and every detail of everything that happened.
But if she did, no matter how kind she is, he knew that his mom will definitely take him away from Katsuki, it doesn't matter that he's an adult already capable of thinking for himself, in her eyes, he will always be her child that she needs to protect.
His mom will forever be the strongest omega if it's for him and it is more than enough to make tears fill his eyes again.
They were solemnly watching his mom's old shows on their sofa when they heard a loud honk outside their house.
They were solemnly watching his mom's old shows on their sofa when they heard a loud honk outside their house.
And Izuku already knew who will be shameless enough to do something like that at eleven at night.
He only looked at his mom and shake his head as a sign to not bother. All of their lights were off any way they can just pretend that they were asleep or something.
He only looked at his mom and shake his head as a sign to not bother. All of their lights were off any way they can just pretend that they were asleep or something.
But then not even a minute later there was a loud honk again this time more persistent as he did it several more times consecutively.
Izuku heaved out a sigh of resignment like an Alpha as always. "I'm sorry, Mom, the neighbors now have a reason to be mad again"
Izuku heaved out a sigh of resignment like an Alpha as always. "I'm sorry, Mom, the neighbors now have a reason to be mad again"
but his mom only smiled softly at him as she pats his cheeks.
When Izuku got out of the door, there it really is on the side of the street, Katsuki's black Audi. And right there outside of their gate is the alpha himself.
When Izuku got out of the door, there it really is on the side of the street, Katsuki's black Audi. And right there outside of their gate is the alpha himself.
"What do you want?", Izuku asked not moving any step away from their front door.
"๐๐ฆ๐ต'๐ด ๐จ๐ฐ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ, ๐๐ฆ๐ฌ๐ถ", the blonde said as if he didn't just ignore the greenette earlier, for an alpha like Katsuki, it will always be their first instinct to be domineering.
"๐๐ฆ๐ต'๐ด ๐จ๐ฐ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ, ๐๐ฆ๐ฌ๐ถ", the blonde said as if he didn't just ignore the greenette earlier, for an alpha like Katsuki, it will always be their first instinct to be domineering.
To impose even when they do not have the right to.
Sigh. Why is the man he loves so much slowly turning into someone he promised he won't ever be?
"Please, Deku. Let's at least talk this out. You can't just leave like that, I was worried for you, please"
Sigh. Why is the man he loves so much slowly turning into someone he promised he won't ever be?
"Please, Deku. Let's at least talk this out. You can't just leave like that, I was worried for you, please"
but Izuku just stood there feeling no more sincerity in his words. Feeling like he doesn't even know the person standing in front of him anymore.
๐๐ฆ๐ค๐ข๐ถ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ๐ด๐ฆ, ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ต๐ข๐ญ๐ฌ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ. Because he was fine with treating him like he didn't exist
๐๐ฆ๐ค๐ข๐ถ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ๐ด๐ฆ, ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ต๐ข๐ญ๐ฌ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ. Because he was fine with treating him like he didn't exist
whenever they all have dinner together, fine with not talking about their day anymore before they go to bed, fine with leaving the house without telling Izuku where he would go, and fine with not asking Izuku what he feels anymore.
He was fine with all of it but now he's saying he's worried and he wanted to talk. And it just made Izuku more angry than hurt. He wanted to say many things and just blame him for everything, but he knew it wasn't the best idea with his mom just a few feet away from him.
"Go home, Kacchan" was all he managed to say to the alpha before he went back inside the house again only for him to hear the sound of the gate opening seconds after.
"Wha-"
"Wha-"
He was not even given a chance to react as he found himself wrapped tightly inside the alpha's arms. It was sudden and way too unexpected given that he was just outside literally seconds ago but it was something Izuku almost forgot,
it was the way he just fits perfectly in his arms. He wanted to fight it, he wanted to not feel it because despite the butterflies in his stomach there was still anger and pain that is eating him up.
"Kacchan, stop" as Izuku tried to harshly wiggle his way out of the alpha's arm, the blonde's grip just only become tighter but what made Izuku freeze still was the low whimpers he heard and the little trembles he felt coming from the blonde's chest.
It was just like when they were kids, it was the same sound that Katsuki always make whenever he was not allowed near Izuku because he was sick. The same sound he used to make when he had to watch his parents leave for another long business trip.
It was a sound barely audible because he didn't want to be heard, didn't wanna be seen. But right now it was way too clear in Izuku's ears, way too loud that it was hard to ignore
It's either he's scared, he's in pain, or both and it made Izuku's stomach drop.
"Kacchan"
"๐๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐จ๐ฐ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ญ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ... ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ฆ. ๐๐ต'๐ด ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ... ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ญ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ.
"Kacchan"
"๐๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐จ๐ฐ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ญ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ... ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ฆ. ๐๐ต'๐ด ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ... ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ญ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ.
๐'๐ฎ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ'๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ช๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ช๐ต ๐ข๐จ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ข๐จ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ต... ๐ ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฏ ๐ช๐ต ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ"
How many times was it already and how many times will they have to go
How many times was it already and how many times will they have to go
through something like this again if Izuku forgives him again this time? He wished he wasn't so weak and he wished he didn't love him so much and he wished he wasn't holding on too tight to the memories they made together since they were children because
then it would not be this hard.
His tears just fell down all at once and he found himself sobbing so hard in the alpha's chest. Why is it so hard? Why can't he just stay mad? Why is that when Katsuki said home he just remembered how hard they both work to afford a land and build
His tears just fell down all at once and he found himself sobbing so hard in the alpha's chest. Why is it so hard? Why can't he just stay mad? Why is that when Katsuki said home he just remembered how hard they both work to afford a land and build
the house they both dreamed of? Why is that his most precious memories of how they struggled to have everything they have now started to be tainted with pain?
And why is that Katsuki's once comforting hug doesn't feel that way now anymore?
And why is that Katsuki's once comforting hug doesn't feel that way now anymore?
Izuku felt the blonde's warm big hands on his face, wiping all his tears away probably apologizing again, probably telling things like he won't do it again, he'll be better, or such but he just didn't want to hear any of it.
Another loose promise from him would only make Izuku resent him more and that is not something he didn't want anymore.
Without a word, Izuku moved away from Katsuki and into his car. His mother needed rest, it was way too late at night to be doing something like this in front of
Without a word, Izuku moved away from Katsuki and into his car. His mother needed rest, it was way too late at night to be doing something like this in front of
their house. Katsuki would not budge and he certainly doesn't look like he will be giving Izuku the space that he needs at that moment so he thought the least thing he could do is to just went back with him.
He can't show his mother this side of their relationship, not when she thinks that her son's finally doing good and well in life.
It was a silent trip back 'home' with Izuku trying hard to fall asleep by the passenger seat while his right hand was tightly held by Katsuki.
It was a silent trip back 'home' with Izuku trying hard to fall asleep by the passenger seat while his right hand was tightly held by Katsuki.
Izuku felt like he lost a piece of himself again that night. Katsuki may have really loved him, but how can he feel that love when he can't even seem to love himself anymore? He felt so pathetic for just going with the flow all the time, not wanting to hurt anyone
that he ended up hurting himself in return. How did he even expect other people to respect him when even he seems to have no respect for himself either?
It was such a cruel phase in his life. Loving Katsuki was not the only thing that exhausted him,
It was such a cruel phase in his life. Loving Katsuki was not the only thing that exhausted him,
loving himself also became harder as he started to see himself as someone not deserving of love at all.
Somehow he managed to fall asleep while on the ride home, when he opened his eyes he was already in their room, 4:32 am in the morning.
Somehow he managed to fall asleep while on the ride home, when he opened his eyes he was already in their room, 4:32 am in the morning.
He's not in the clothes he was wearing all day and he is now wearing clean pajamas and when he looked at his side, Katsuki is peacefully sleeping but all the while still holding on to him.
It's like he's afraid to let go.
It's like he's afraid to let go.
Scared that when he does so, the greenette would leave him behind again. But with all the things that happened, it's not the love that Izuku felt. Because in his eyes it just started to look like
Katsuki is just afraid to be left alone and he just happened to be someone who never left him behind since they were young.
Izuku tried to sit up from his position but the moment he moved a little from Katsuki's embrace, the blonde started muttering his name in his sleep.
Izuku tried to sit up from his position but the moment he moved a little from Katsuki's embrace, the blonde started muttering his name in his sleep.
It was kind of sad and pitiful how they were beside each other and yet it didn't make them any happier. So the greenette stroked the alpha's hair gently, the way he always does to calm him down. Why was he so scared anyway?
Why is he acting like this right now after their 3 almost 4-year relationship?
He tried to fall asleep again while still stroking the alpha's hair, no matter how hut or angry he was, he also can't bear seeing Katsuki look like he was in pain.
He tried to fall asleep again while still stroking the alpha's hair, no matter how hut or angry he was, he also can't bear seeing Katsuki look like he was in pain.
But it was really something how he's trying to make someone feel secure when he himself has a turbulent of emotions deep inside him.
*
"Do you want to go on a date with me this Sunday?", asked Katsuki while cleaning Kaori's baby bottle in the sink,
*
"Do you want to go on a date with me this Sunday?", asked Katsuki while cleaning Kaori's baby bottle in the sink,
and while Izuku was having his late breakfast
"Why, do you have somewhere you want to go?", Izuku asked trying not to be too conscious of seeing the Omega playing with Kaori in their garden.
"Why, do you have somewhere you want to go?", Izuku asked trying not to be too conscious of seeing the Omega playing with Kaori in their garden.
He can't even approach the pup because of Denki's sensitive pregnancy, Izuku doesn't know if it's just him or just about anyone else but he did hear that pregnant omegas can be very protective of their pup and him a beta being way too close with his 3-year old doesn't sound very
pleasing to Denki.
"Well...", after drying his hands, Katsuki sat beside the beta, pouring the greenette a new set of coffee, "I was thinking that maybe we could you know go shopping, buy some things for our baby, and maybe watch a movie after.
"Well...", after drying his hands, Katsuki sat beside the beta, pouring the greenette a new set of coffee, "I was thinking that maybe we could you know go shopping, buy some things for our baby, and maybe watch a movie after.
Your favorite actor has a new movie coming out right?"
"Do you even know what we will need to buy?"
"Well, today is also Denki's checkup, we'll find out today whether it's a boy or a girl"
"Can't... can't I go with you?"
"Do you even know what we will need to buy?"
"Well, today is also Denki's checkup, we'll find out today whether it's a boy or a girl"
"Can't... can't I go with you?"
"Well.. I'm not really sure it's a good idea, Izuku. Maybe... next time?" the alpha answered while caressing the greenette's hand with his thumb. That's just his subtle way to tell Izuku to drop it.
//๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ฃ๐ข๐ฃ๐บ//he said and yet not once has he been allowed or invited to any of the omega's checkups, he doesn't know whether the baby's healthy or not or whatever maternal care of some sort does the omega really needs.
And then in the end he just has to silently nod his head in agreement.
He finished his breakfast silently while being closely monitored by Katsuki's watchful eyes, the blonde has been like that ever since their last fight.
He finished his breakfast silently while being closely monitored by Katsuki's watchful eyes, the blonde has been like that ever since their last fight.
He even reduced his work hours just to spend more time in their house and to make sure he can pick Izuku up after the greenette's work. Izuku was not really happy about it because of a lot of reasons.
First, because his co-workers are complaining about his smell, and what's worse is that he can't even do anything about it because he can't even smell what they can and all he knows is that he reeks like an alpha, second, no one really wanted to go near him at all anymore,
it was as if they were too scared or they were too repulsed by his smell. It was unfair.
It just made him more miserable how while he was left all alone that day, he had to see posts online of Denki
It just made him more miserable how while he was left all alone that day, he had to see posts online of Denki
proudly showing his sonogram with a big smile on his face while Katsuki and Kaori are stroking his bump. Every one of their friends is congratulating him, sending prayers for a successful pregnancy and for a healthy baby,
and then there are also comments about how they look like a big happy family. And it really had to come from his Auntie Mitsuki.
Really... he doesn't want to cry anymore. He just wants to be happy for himself and for all of them,
Really... he doesn't want to cry anymore. He just wants to be happy for himself and for all of them,
he wanted to be happy for Denki because he looks so happy to have such a healthy baby, he wanted to be happy for Katsuki because he's having a pup that he can call his own and he wanted to be happy for Mitsuki because her only son also found himself an omega.
But how can one even tell one's heart how to feel. So even though he felt like he already had no more tears to cry it still just came pouring out. His auntie may have loved him ever since he was a child but she has also been very vocal about wanting her son to meet an omega,
to build a family of his own. He really was... never enough for anyone.
Katsuki's little family day with Denki didn't stop there and he didn't even bother hiding it from Izuku. They really just had to meet all of their friends that day without him.
Katsuki's little family day with Denki didn't stop there and he didn't even bother hiding it from Izuku. They really just had to meet all of their friends that day without him.
Katsuki really never allowed him to meet with them ever since Denki started living in their house, it was like he was purposely trying to not let Izuku meet any of them, no it was not just mere speculation anymore, he was certain.
Katsuki really doesn't want Izuku to associate with their friends anymore. And the desire to just let it all go is stronger than ever.
It hurts Izuku and he knows it will hurt Katsuki as well if he knew that for the first time in forever Izuku thought of breaking up.
It hurts Izuku and he knows it will hurt Katsuki as well if he knew that for the first time in forever Izuku thought of breaking up.
Thought of just leaving everything behind and just... ๐ค๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฎ๐ด๐ฆ๐ญ๐ง.
"Deku, I brought back food!"
"Deku?"
"Izuku!"
"Deku, I brought back food!"
"Deku?"
"Izuku!"
Despite the blonde's loud voice piercing through their walls, Izuku chose to not hear it that day, to pretend he was asleep to pretend that he was just tired and was not actually crying the whole time.
He felt the alpha's presence creeping up beside him, stroking his hair and then caressing his face.
"๐๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฅ ๐ฏ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต, ๐๐ป๐ถ๐ฌ๐ถ", the alpha said before planting a kiss on his forehead.
Their Sunday date never happened anymore because
"๐๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฅ ๐ฏ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต, ๐๐ป๐ถ๐ฌ๐ถ", the alpha said before planting a kiss on his forehead.
Their Sunday date never happened anymore because
Katsuki never really had free time anymore. Being a businessman and all on top of being a hands-on father. Yeah, who would ever have time to be a boyfriend given all of that?
Over time, Izuku also finally found a way to cope. 'Pretending' became his go-to whenever he wants to
Over time, Izuku also finally found a way to cope. 'Pretending' became his go-to whenever he wants to
not associate himself with the whole household. Every day pretending to be asleep, every day pretending to not be hungry, every day pretending that there's too much work that has to keep him out the whole day and night. Before he knew he also became a liar himself.
If there's a day when Izuku can be fully honest to himself and to anyone else, it would be Wednesdays when it's just him and Kaori.
"Why can't we play every day, Zuzu?", Kaori asked while nibbling on Izuku's little finger.
"Why can't we play every day, Zuzu?", Kaori asked while nibbling on Izuku's little finger.
"Well every day is not always Yoga day for your mother, little miss"
"I wish it's yoga day every day," said the pouty kid which made the greenette chuckle.
"I wish it's yoga day every day," said the pouty kid which made the greenette chuckle.
"Me too. I wish we can just play every day", but he also wished for so much more, that it was just them together all the time, that she was his, and that he can just openly love her like his own daughter. The only thing he can ever do was just wish.
As Izuku was lying on their bed that night the blonde asked him a question.
"Are you free this Saturday?"
"No", he simply said while turning the other way around from the blonde.
"But... it's a special day you know. Izuku please, I want you to be there"
"Are you free this Saturday?"
"No", he simply said while turning the other way around from the blonde.
"But... it's a special day you know. Izuku please, I want you to be there"
Izuku knows but there's no way he will hurt himself by thinking that Katsuki will stick to his promises. But still... what if
"I'll try" was what he said and he was true to his words, he did try to give Katsuki a chance to redeem himself at least that one more time.
"I'll try" was what he said and he was true to his words, he did try to give Katsuki a chance to redeem himself at least that one more time.
And it was indeed a special day, it will be their 4th anniversary, something that they still miraculously reach despite all the challenges in their relationship. It is indeed something worth celebrating, and maybe... just maybe it will also open new chances for them to
fix everything and start anew. Because if this does not work out anymore... maybe that's really it for them.
Izuku went to the location sent by Katsuki, wearing the best clothes and perfume he has. Not a single person from the salon he went to didn't compliment his appearance.
Izuku went to the location sent by Katsuki, wearing the best clothes and perfume he has. Not a single person from the salon he went to didn't compliment his appearance.
Indeed, he was beautiful that night.
But when he got there he was surprised to find their friends and family. And it wasn't long till he find out why. The pink and blue balloons said it all. He was there for the wrong reason.
But when he got there he was surprised to find their friends and family. And it wasn't long till he find out why. The pink and blue balloons said it all. He was there for the wrong reason.
He was so embarrassed, humiliated, and almost empty as he made himself look smaller and smaller to not get noticed by anyone. But as lucky as he was that day, he just had to find himself behind Katsuki and their group of friends.
And it was the most heartbreaking scene he had experienced yet in his life. Out of anger, pain, betrayal, and whatever turbulence of emotion he had felt that day he didn't know who said what.
"๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ๐ฅ ๐๐ถ๐ฏ๐ต๐ช๐ฆ, ๐ข๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ช๐ฏ๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ฎ๐ข๐ณ๐ณ๐บ ๐ฆ๐ข๐ค๐ฉ ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ"
"๐๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต, ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ'๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐ข๐ด๐ช๐ค๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ณ๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ณ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฑ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ด"
"๐๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต, ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ'๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐ข๐ด๐ช๐ค๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ณ๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ณ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฑ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ด"
"๐ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ด๐ข๐บ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ช๐ง ๐ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ, ๐๐ป๐ถ๐ฌ๐ถ'๐ด ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฃ๐ข๐ฃ๐ญ๐บ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐ถ๐ต๐ฆ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ"
"๐๐บ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐บ, ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ข๐ญ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฅ๐บ?"
"..."
"๐๐บ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐บ, ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ข๐ญ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฅ๐บ?"
"..."
"๐๐ข๐ช๐ต, ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ต๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฎ๐ฆ, ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ต๐ช๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฆ๐ด๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ?"
Izuku wished he already left after that, wished he didn't know what kind of friends he actually had all his life. Then probably he wouldn't be left so jaded and scarred.
Izuku wished he already left after that, wished he didn't know what kind of friends he actually had all his life. Then probably he wouldn't be left so jaded and scarred.
"๐๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ช, ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ญ๐ถ๐ค๐ฌ๐บ ๐ฃ๐ข๐ด๐ต๐ข๐ณ๐ฅ. ๐๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ช๐ต ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ต๐ธ๐ฐ ๐๐ข๐ฌ๐ถ๐จ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ฑ๐ด?"
"๐๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ญ๐ข๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฉ๐ฆ'๐ญ๐ญ ๐ง๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ธ๐ข๐บ, ๐๐ข๐ฐ๐ณ๐ช'๐ด ๐ด๐ต๐ข๐ณ๐ต๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฌ ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ
"๐๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ญ๐ข๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฉ๐ฆ'๐ญ๐ญ ๐ง๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ธ๐ข๐บ, ๐๐ข๐ฐ๐ณ๐ช'๐ด ๐ด๐ต๐ข๐ณ๐ต๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฌ ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ
๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐๐ข๐ต๐ด๐ถ๐ฌ๐ช "
"๐๐ข๐ฎ๐ฏ, ๐ข๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ช๐ฏ๐ต ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ช๐ด ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ฏ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฏ๐บ"
"๐๐ถ๐ค๐ฌ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ"
"๐๐ข๐ฎ๐ฏ, ๐ข๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ช๐ฏ๐ต ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ช๐ด ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ฏ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฏ๐บ"
"๐๐ถ๐ค๐ฌ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ"
Izuku had to hear all the sick laughter and giggles that followed after Katsuki angrily walked out of there. It was all too hard to process he didn't know how to function or how to act right after all the things that he heard.
How he was treated like a joke and how everyone has been seeing him the whole. And the thing with Kaori... there's just no way. Kaori's three and it was their 4th anniversary that day. So just what kind of sick joke was that.
"๐๐ฐ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ๐ฅ?", was the question that came from a voice that Izuku first heard that day. When Izuku looked at the person walking toward him he was met with piercing blue eyes and blonde hair.
Izuku really did not want another blonde to ruin his day even more so he tried to swiftly move out of the place.
He did not bother answering that intrusive question and he needed time to process everything, when he passed by the main hall again where everyone was gathered he did
He did not bother answering that intrusive question and he needed time to process everything, when he passed by the main hall again where everyone was gathered he did
not bother greeting back or smiling at anyone who tried to strike up a conversation. He let all the loud calls coming from Katsuki and his Auntie fall on deaf ears. He needed to fucking get out of there.
"๐ก๐ถ๐ป๐ถ?"
"๐ก๐ถ๐ป๐ถ?"
Even the little voice that once sounds so angelic and serene in his ears only made him feel a stabbing pain in his heart. So he walked faster and faster not letting anyone block his way until he found his way in front of his car.
"Why are you not leaving me alone?" there was a man in front of Izuku's car, the same man who tried to talk to him before
"Because I need to talk to you, please follow me" Izuku did not want to follow him but when he reached out to open his car door, the blonde stranger proceed
"Because I need to talk to you, please follow me" Izuku did not want to follow him but when he reached out to open his car door, the blonde stranger proceed
to harshly grab his hand. Izuku tried to protest loudly screaming and cursing at the stranger that was trying to yank him into his own car but he was stronger than he looks alike. Seconds after Izuku found himself harshly shoved into the passenger seat of the stranger.
"๐ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ง๐ถ๐ค๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ข๐ค๐ค๐ช๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ค๐ข๐ถ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ต๐ณ๐ข๐ด๐ฉ ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ค๐ข๐ญ๐ฎ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ๐ด๐ฆ๐ญ๐ง ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ธ๐ฏ ๐ช๐ง ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ", said the stranger while looking straight into his eyes.
No matter how hard Izuku tries to remember who he is, he really had no idea, he can't be Katsuki's friend because he has never met him and he can't be Denki's friend because Denki and Katsuki almost have the same group of friends.
"Who are you?" the beta asked trying to soothe the slightly burning sensation on his wrist that the stranger was roughly holding earlier
"Neito", he simply said, now looking at the beta's wrist trying not to look like he doesn't care and failing miserably. "Sorry"
"Neito", he simply said, now looking at the beta's wrist trying not to look like he doesn't care and failing miserably. "Sorry"
"I don't really care, Neito. Just, please let me leave this place already", he plead not wanting to meet the stranger's eyes that were unsubtly full of pity despite looking so sharp and scrutinizing. No, Izuku doesn't need more of that pity.
There's nothing he hates more than being pitied by people especially by strangers he just met.
Neito silently drove away, taking Izuku somewhere he had no idea where. But he willingly let himself be taken away from that place full of people that only ever made his life miserable
Neito silently drove away, taking Izuku somewhere he had no idea where. But he willingly let himself be taken away from that place full of people that only ever made his life miserable
"We're here", they stopped at what suspiciously looked like a cemetery.
"If this is another sick joke, I don't really appreciate it", the greenette said while looking at the stranger coming out of the car
"Just fucking come out of there, I'm introducing you to someone",
"If this is another sick joke, I don't really appreciate it", the greenette said while looking at the stranger coming out of the car
"Just fucking come out of there, I'm introducing you to someone",
his words were gruff but his actions said otherwise as he gently lead Izuku out of his car. They still walked quite far from where Neito parked his car until they stopped in front of a well-maintained grave surrounded by fresh purple flowers.
"Hitoshi Shinso?" was the name on the grave but it was also a name that the greenette was not very familiar with. Neito nodded as he laid down another bouquet of fresh purple flowers that Izuku only noticed that he was actually carrying.
"A precious friend", the whole hour they were together, Neito looked like someone arrogant and conceited but right there in front of his 'precious friend' he wore a very melancholic smile that broke even Izuku's heart for reasons he doesn't know.
"๐๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ณ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐บ๐ข๐ค๐ช๐ฏ๐ต๐ฉ๐ด ๐ณ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต?"
"๐๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ, ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ค๐ฐ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฎ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ข๐ญ๐ด๐ฐ"
//Don' push yourself//, Izuku wanted to tell him because those mournful eyes and melancholic smile
"๐๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ, ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ค๐ฐ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฎ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ข๐ญ๐ด๐ฐ"
//Don' push yourself//, Izuku wanted to tell him because those mournful eyes and melancholic smile
were enough to tell that even after 3 years of his death, Neito is still plagued with sadness and guilt.
"๐๐ฉ๐บ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ?"
"๐๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ช'๐ด ๐ฎ๐ข๐ต๐ฆ", Izuku didn't know if he had the right to hear it from a stranger but there was a strong feeling
"๐๐ฉ๐บ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ?"
"๐๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ช'๐ด ๐ฎ๐ข๐ต๐ฆ", Izuku didn't know if he had the right to hear it from a stranger but there was a strong feeling
that tells him he has to know. He sat by Neito's side as he was arranging all the flowers that he must have been taking there every day.
"๐๐ช๐ต๐ฐ๐ด๐ฉ๐ช ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฎ ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ, ๐ช๐ต ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ต๐ต๐ณ๐ข๐ค๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ค๐ข๐ถ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐บ ๐ด๐ต๐ถ๐ฑ๐ช๐ฅ
"๐๐ช๐ต๐ฐ๐ด๐ฉ๐ช ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฎ ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ, ๐ช๐ต ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ต๐ต๐ณ๐ข๐ค๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ค๐ข๐ถ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐บ ๐ด๐ต๐ถ๐ฑ๐ช๐ฅ
๐ฑ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ด๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต... ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฎ. ๐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ๐ต ๐ช๐ต ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ด๐ต๐ถ๐ฑ๐ช๐ฅ ๐ข๐ต ๐ง๐ช๐ณ๐ด๐ต ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ค๐ข๐ถ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฉ๐ฆ'๐ด ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ข ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ต๐ข
๐ฃ๐ถ๐ต ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฎ ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐จ๐ข ๐ค๐ข๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ด ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐บ ๐ข๐ด ๐ฃ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ข๐ช๐ณ."
"He gave him everything that he can offer, love, time, and effort so you don't know how angry I was when I fucking smelled that omega pregnant with some alpha's child.
"He gave him everything that he can offer, love, time, and effort so you don't know how angry I was when I fucking smelled that omega pregnant with some alpha's child.
I didn't know how to fucking tell Hitoshi that the love of his life was some alpha's bitch"
Izuku had to try hard to keep himself from breaking down then and there. He had to tell himself that it was not about him anymore but he knew all too well
Izuku had to try hard to keep himself from breaking down then and there. He had to tell himself that it was not about him anymore but he knew all too well
who the alpha that Neito was talking about.
"๐๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ข๐บ ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ข๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ช๐ต ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ข๐ญ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ข๐บ... ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐ต๐ถ๐ฏ๐ข๐ต๐ฆ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฐ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ด๐ถ๐ณ๐ท๐ช๐ท๐ฆ...
"๐๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ข๐บ ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ข๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ช๐ต ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ข๐ญ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ข๐บ... ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐ต๐ถ๐ฏ๐ข๐ต๐ฆ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฐ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ด๐ถ๐ณ๐ท๐ช๐ท๐ฆ...
๐บ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฉ ๐ช๐ง ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ญ๐บ ๐ ๐ฌ๐ฆ๐ฑ๐ต ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต๐ฉ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ถ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ฎ๐ข๐บ๐ฃ๐ฆ..."
"You would have been a bad friend if you kept him in the dark though" Izuku was suddenly reminded of the scene he witnessed earlier of his so-called friends talking behind his back.
"You would have been a bad friend if you kept him in the dark though" Izuku was suddenly reminded of the scene he witnessed earlier of his so-called friends talking behind his back.
"I'd rather be a bad friend really than see him like this now." it was then that Izuku understood why he acted the way he did earlier.
"Fuck, what I'm saying is I know you're sad and angry and whatever but be rational at all times. Don't let those fucking bastards ruin your life even more" Neito said all flustered, scratching his head out of embarrassment.
He did look like a person who doesn't like showing off his kindness to anyone.
If he was being honest, hearing everything only made it even more painful for him. Because what he thought was a perfect relationship with Katsuki turned out to be just a lie all along.
If he was being honest, hearing everything only made it even more painful for him. Because what he thought was a perfect relationship with Katsuki turned out to be just a lie all along.
So all those times Katsuki was being his shoulder to cry on because of his father was probably just like a joke to him all along.
It all now made sense why he didn't want Izuku to hang out with their friends, why he didn't want his mom to visit their house,
It all now made sense why he didn't want Izuku to hang out with their friends, why he didn't want his mom to visit their house,
why he took Denki of all omegas in the first place, and why he loved Kaori so much. It was as if their whole relationship was just a lie.
*
*
"๐๐ฉ๐ฐ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ?"
"๐ ๐ง๐ถ๐ค๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ข๐ด๐ฌ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ, ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฐ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ" the alpha harshly grabbed his arm when he got home that day. And honestly, he was just too tired to deal with his shit that night so Izuku just stood there by their front door
"๐ ๐ง๐ถ๐ค๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ข๐ด๐ฌ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ, ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฐ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ" the alpha harshly grabbed his arm when he got home that day. And honestly, he was just too tired to deal with his shit that night so Izuku just stood there by their front door
looking up at the alpha looming over him.
"I asked you, Izu--"
"๐๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐บ ๐ง๐ถ๐ค๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐ด๐ข๐ณ๐บ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ, ๐ข๐ด๐ด๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ญ๐ฆ", Izuku shoved the gift he bought for the blonde on his chest as he harshly push him out of the way.
"I asked you, Izu--"
"๐๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐บ ๐ง๐ถ๐ค๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐ด๐ข๐ณ๐บ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ, ๐ข๐ด๐ด๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ญ๐ฆ", Izuku shoved the gift he bought for the blonde on his chest as he harshly push him out of the way.
The horror on Katsuki's face when he realized what he just missed can't be painted. And nothing he did after that was able to appease Izuku anymore as the greenette was all too hellbent on not taking any of his shit anymore.
None of Katsuki's home cooking, expensive gifts, spontaneous dates, and words of affirmation ever made Izuku feel the same way again. But Izuku still gave him a chance to tell him everything,
to confess every lie he ever made but it's a chance Katsuki was never really willing to take.
"๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ด๐ถ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ต๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฎ๐ฆ?", Izuku asked the night before they celebrate Denki's one year as part of their family.
"๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ด๐ถ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ต๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฎ๐ฆ?", Izuku asked the night before they celebrate Denki's one year as part of their family.
"๐ ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฉ, ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ณ, ๐ธ๐ฉ๐บ?"
"๐๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ"
That was his last chance out of the thousands Izuku gave him and unfortunately for him, that would also be the last time he would be sleeping with Izuku by his side.
*
"๐๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ"
That was his last chance out of the thousands Izuku gave him and unfortunately for him, that would also be the last time he would be sleeping with Izuku by his side.
*
Izuku really chose a day when all of their families and friends would be present. It would save them all the effort to share the news. Izuku knew it wasn't just a day to celebrate Denki's arrival, it was a day Katsuki thought so hard to plan with his not so very subtle friends.
So as to not be too much of an asshole he took the time and effort to at least help with the decorations and all because that was just the end for him and them, it was also a new beginning for everyone.
So that day before Katsuki can even kneel before his omega and beta to profess a love of a lifetime, Izuku dropped the bomb.
"๐๐ฆ๐ต'๐ด ๐ฃ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ถ๐ฑ"
๐๐๐
"๐๐ฆ๐ต'๐ด ๐ฃ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ถ๐ฑ"
๐๐๐
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I apologize it took this long
Cont.
#bkdk || #bkkm || #bkkmdk
angst, betrayal, aob, neglect, a!bk, b!dk, o!km
Katsuki was a lot of Izuku's firsts. First friend, first enemy, first crush, first lover, and now his first breakup.
Cont.
#bkdk || #bkkm || #bkkmdk
angst, betrayal, aob, neglect, a!bk, b!dk, o!km
Katsuki was a lot of Izuku's firsts. First friend, first enemy, first crush, first lover, and now his first breakup.
It's surprising but it turned out easier than what he expected. Katsuki after getting denied the first time by his mother did not come back again to try and bring him back and for that Izuku was thankful.
It also made it easier for him to stop himself from crawling back into that house, to stop himself from doing the same mistake of looking the other way to convince himself he was alright.
Being alone was easy but what was hard is what comes after the break up as the person less favored in his past relationship. It was hard answering all the questions as to why they broke up. Why does he have to live with his mother again, why did he just leave that day, and how,
how come he's acting perfectly fine after ending a four-year relationship with someone they claim still loves him so much.
In everyone's eyes, he was the one who ruined everything. He was someone who abandoned a loving alpha and a pregnant omega.
In everyone's eyes, he was the one who ruined everything. He was someone who abandoned a loving alpha and a pregnant omega.
It's stupid when he thinks about it. When they all know too damn well what leads them all to fall apart. Bit people would believe what they want to believe. His only concern is his mother... he doesn't know what to tell her that wouldn't make her pity him while
hating the Bakugous. No, he doesn't want her to live that way. Aunt Mitsuki is only one of the few friends she has and he doesn't want anything to change between them. Mitsuki was just being a parent and Izuku knows if he were in the same situation as Katsuki,
Inko would also choose him. She's someone Izuku wants to be by his mother's side forever.
And so he said that he just got tired, which is not necessarily a lie when all those things really took everything he had.
And so he said that he just got tired, which is not necessarily a lie when all those things really took everything he had.
But he knows that his mother doesn't believe him and yet still he still doesn't want to tell her, how Katsuki hurt him emotionally, how he lied all those years, how he impregnated an omega twice, how his friends knew all about it all along and how Mitsuki supported it all.
"He said you'll have to go there yourself, Izuku", said her mother right after she got home.
"As stubborn as always", Izuku can't help but feel frustrated he can only ruffle his hair
"As stubborn as always", Izuku can't help but feel frustrated he can only ruffle his hair
"But thanks, Ma. I'll just drop by tomorrow if I have time after work", he still had a lot of things left behind in their house, and unfortunately, even though he still doesn't want to see the alpha, guess he just had to suck it.
He'll have to do it soon for his own good. So that will leave him with no reason to see him anymore. Izuku, though it pains him, has already given up on the house. Yes, they both spent sleepless nights to make it theirs, to make it feel like home.
But it is easier to let go than to fight for it.
It is easier to just leave than to try and fight for a place that no longer makes him feel at home. Because the happy memories he made in that place were long ago replaced with painful ones. Tainted with lies and deception.
It is easier to just leave than to try and fight for a place that no longer makes him feel at home. Because the happy memories he made in that place were long ago replaced with painful ones. Tainted with lies and deception.
Plagued with false loyalty that Katsuki fed him through the years. Yeah, nothing wrong with taking the easier path now. He had always been hard on himself even more than other people did, maybe it's time he cut himself some slack.
About time he loves himself more than anyone, about time to just choose what's best for him and not for anyone else.
With those thoughts in mind, he fell asleep after deleting some photos of him and Katsuki that he has cherished through the years.
With those thoughts in mind, he fell asleep after deleting some photos of him and Katsuki that he has cherished through the years.
Photos taken on dates Izuku calculated based on Kaori's age. 3 years' worth of memories. It's a first step, a hard one because it did not just bring back memories it also made him remember the feelings that the photos came alongside with.
The last photo he deleted before he drift on to dreamland was that one photo of him, his mom, Katsuki, and his parents smiling all too happy in front of their newly built house.
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*
After gathering much courage and resolve, Izuku drove to his old house. And when he got there, he took what probably was the deepest breath he had. And if he's being honest, it was weird to knock on the same door he used to mindlessly come and go through for the past 2 years.
Instead of finding a blonde alpha looming over him, he saw no one until he looked down.
"Zuzu?" was the first thing that met him right after the small pup opened the door for him.
"Zuzu?" was the first thing that met him right after the small pup opened the door for him.
"H-hey Kaori" Izuku tried to smile, to not make it look awkward. He did not know what to say, he didn't know how to act but when the little girl jumped at him at lightning speed just like the first time they met in that house, it felt like feeling warmth for the first again.
"H-hey Kaori" Izuku tried to smile, to not make it look awkward. He did not know what to say, he didn't know how to act but when the little girl jumped at him at lightning speed just like the first time they met in that house, it felt like feeling warmth for the first again.
But how can he ignore a weeping pup in his arms? Thinking was not an option anymore at that point as he scoop the girl off her feet, cradling her protectively, gently rocking and swaying her to stop her from crying.
"You're never a bad girl, Kaori. Now why are you alone where's your mom?"
"I don't know, I only have Nana today", that's when he noticed a woman probably in her sixties silently watching his and Kaori's interaction. Looks like they hired a nanny after he left.
"I don't know, I only have Nana today", that's when he noticed a woman probably in her sixties silently watching his and Kaori's interaction. Looks like they hired a nanny after he left.
"They went out for a short walk, Master Denki said he wanted to relax a bit", said the woman even without Izuku asking.
/Why didn't they take her with them?/ he wanted to ask but opt not to, they wouldn't hire her for no reason.
/Why didn't they take her with them?/ he wanted to ask but opt not to, they wouldn't hire her for no reason.
Maybe they wanted a little break from all the work and child-rearing but still, it did not sit well with him.
Izuku went straight to his room after telling the nanny his purpose. While still cradling Kaori he started to pack all his remaining things as efficiently as
Izuku went straight to his room after telling the nanny his purpose. While still cradling Kaori he started to pack all his remaining things as efficiently as
he can while carrying a child.
"Hey, Kaori. Do you want to help me, like how mommies help their pups pack their things for a trip?"
The suggestion immediately sparks up eagerness in the child. She always loved it when she gets involved in something she thinks is important.
"Hey, Kaori. Do you want to help me, like how mommies help their pups pack their things for a trip?"
The suggestion immediately sparks up eagerness in the child. She always loved it when she gets involved in something she thinks is important.
She always loved being of help to other people, like washing the dishes, mopping the floor, and organizing toys.
When she knew that she was going to have a baby brother she was so enthusiastic to be the best sister ever, said she would take care of not just the baby but
When she knew that she was going to have a baby brother she was so enthusiastic to be the best sister ever, said she would take care of not just the baby but
also Denki, and yet just like other times she was left alone here with a nanny instead of feeling belonged with his parents.
It angered him. But it's not his business anymore, Izuku told himself.
It angered him. But it's not his business anymore, Izuku told himself.
Kaori put random things in his luggage but Izuku didn't mind at all, she's enjoying her time it's all that matters, and Izuku is also almost done.
"Zuzu, are you not gonna take this?" Kaori said while carrying a photo album almost the same size as her.
"Zuzu, are you not gonna take this?" Kaori said while carrying a photo album almost the same size as her.
"Uhm- I don't really think, I need that"
"But it has your face in it"
Yeah, Izuku knows. But it's not just his face that's in there, it's all sorts of things. It has had their memories throughout the years.
"But it has your face in it"
Yeah, Izuku knows. But it's not just his face that's in there, it's all sorts of things. It has had their memories throughout the years.
A compilation of photos both he and Katsuki took so it did not feel right to just take it.
But on second thought, what use would it be for Katsuki now? Maybe it would really be better to take it before Katsuki or Denki throws it out.
But on second thought, what use would it be for Katsuki now? Maybe it would really be better to take it before Katsuki or Denki throws it out.
Yeah, Izuku also had good photos in there maybe he can just pick it all out instead of throwing it all.
"Thanks, Kaori. Want to help me carry my things out to my car?"
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"Thanks, Kaori. Want to help me carry my things out to my car?"
*
"Don't you want to have dinner first, Sir?" asked the nanny while Izuku's stuffing his things in the car, parked right outside of the gate.
"No, it's okay, just please prepare something for Kaori, she might be hungry already. Thank you"
"No, it's okay, just please prepare something for Kaori, she might be hungry already. Thank you"
Surprisingly he has already been there for an hour and a half and Izuku knew he immediately need to leave when he saw Katsuki's car coming from afar. If only Kaori was not holding on to him real tight he could have left already but he doesn't want to see her cry before he leaves
so he waited for her parents to arrive.
Maybe the sight of her alpha and omega would calm her down enough to let him leave peacefully.
"Kaori, your parents are here. You should welcome them back." Izuku said with an assuring smile that miserably failed when the 3-year-old
Maybe the sight of her alpha and omega would calm her down enough to let him leave peacefully.
"Kaori, your parents are here. You should welcome them back." Izuku said with an assuring smile that miserably failed when the 3-year-old
looked up to him with tears threatening to fall down from her eyes.
"Zuzu, don't leave please", it took everything he had to not cry himself while staring at the pup, he's wondering why it is so hard to leave when she's not even his child?
"Zuzu, don't leave please", it took everything he had to not cry himself while staring at the pup, he's wondering why it is so hard to leave when she's not even his child?
"C'mon, baby. You have your parents right here and then sooner you'll also have your baby brother, it would be so much more fun don't you think?" Izuku stroked her hair gently while kneeling down in front of her until he felt a presence behind him.
"Stop it, Kaori. It's rude to bother people like that. Now go inside it's time for your dinner.", it was Denki his belly a lot more swollen than Izuku can remember. When Izuku looked up, the omega flinched at the sudden eye contact it was almost as if he was
uncomfortable or maybe embarassed.
"I'm so sorry, Kaori. But I really have to go okay? If we see each other again, I'll treat you to something nice, I promise"
"Promise?" the greenette nodded as they made their promise final with a pinky swear.
"I'm so sorry, Kaori. But I really have to go okay? If we see each other again, I'll treat you to something nice, I promise"
"Promise?" the greenette nodded as they made their promise final with a pinky swear.
Izuku watched Kaori as she went inside hand in hand with Denki. Not really wanting to meet those eyes that he knew were watching him for a while now.
"So nothing's really stopping you now?" the blonde's voice sounded so spent and now that Izuku's really looking at him,
"So nothing's really stopping you now?" the blonde's voice sounded so spent and now that Izuku's really looking at him,
indeed he looked different with those dark circles and unshaven facial hair.
"...yeah. I gotta go, Mom's probably waiting for me" not wanting to make the conversation longer, Izuku made a beeline to his car.
"...yeah. I gotta go, Mom's probably waiting for me" not wanting to make the conversation longer, Izuku made a beeline to his car.
As he was opening his car door, the greenette was dumbfounded when the blonde walked right behind him and shut his car door close, "Aren't you even gonna tell me why?"
Izuku had to take a deep breath as he turn around to face the alpha.
"I owe you nothing and you know that now move." said the greenette defiantly, not moving an inch away from his position, staring straight at the eye of the alpha, taunting him.
"I owe you nothing and you know that now move." said the greenette defiantly, not moving an inch away from his position, staring straight at the eye of the alpha, taunting him.
"Seriously, Izuku. You never tell me anything. I ask you what's wrong and you say nothing... and I thought everything's going on just fine and then you just..." Katsuki's voice broke with every word and if Izuku wasn't as broken as he already is,
it would have hurt him, the sight of his beloved man looking so vulnerable and hurt. But now he just feels frustrated.
"You never really tell me anything either, Kacchan." as soon as his words came out, there was a change in Katsuki's eyes.
"You never really tell me anything either, Kacchan." as soon as his words came out, there was a change in Katsuki's eyes.
And now instead of pain, his eyes looked more like that of a trapped animal.
His mouth opened as if he was going to say something only for him to close it again, not able to find any words.
His mouth opened as if he was going to say something only for him to close it again, not able to find any words.
Seeing him so dumbfounded and adamant to keep his mouth shut can only get a humorless laugh from Izuku. Why does an alpha looked up to by everyone including him looks so damn pathetic right now that he's being confronted?
"You had 3 years to tell me, Katsuki. 3 years to tell me about Denki and Kaori, about Hitoshi Shinsou, and yet you chose to make me look like a fool in front of your friends who apparently knew everything from the start.",
through a clenched fist Izuku saw how Katsuki was stopping himself from trembling. He looked so lost and trapped. He has always been like that, never been good with confrontations always so used to running away and acting like nothing's wrong.
"That.. that's not! All I needed was time! I was just waiting for the right time!" the blonde yelled in frustration, eyes shaking and unstable, his hands unable to find the right thing to do at that moment.
"We've been together for four years, Katsuki! And Kaori is what? 3 years old? So when? When's the damn right time? Were you going to wait for your second child to be born before you tell me? Fuck, sorry I can't.. I can't do this. I don't even want to hear it, I'm leaving"
he doesn't want Katsuki to see him like that, he doesn't want him to know how broken he made him, how much it jaded him and how it hurts because he still loves him so much.
Izuku didn't even to bother to wipe tears off his face as he tried to move Katsuki away from his car only for the blonde to tighten his grip on his arm desperately.
"How can I tell you, when I know that you'll do exactly this, Izuku?"
"How can I tell you, when I know that you'll do exactly this, Izuku?"
the greenette didn't have to see for him to know that the blonde was crying. His voice trembled and broke.
"It was a mistake, an accident, no one wanted it to happen, not me nor Denki. It was supposed to be just the pack's usual game night but for some reason, after two or
"It was a mistake, an accident, no one wanted it to happen, not me nor Denki. It was supposed to be just the pack's usual game night but for some reason, after two or
three drinks we woke up the next day lying beside each other. Heck, we don't even remember anything. We just knew something did happen but we didn't talk about it, we wanted to forget it even happened"
"Denki, he had Hitoshi. He loved him so much and just like him, I had you. We both have someone we don't want to lose, Izuku. We were both scared of the consequences of what we did and that time you...",
Katsuki made Izuku face him, eyes glistening with tears, they were both so hurt that it felt wrong how the cause of their pain is their love for each other.
"You were only just getting a little better after your father left, you were just starting to get a little happier and I
"You were only just getting a little better after your father left, you were just starting to get a little happier and I
didn't want to take that away from you. I didn't want you to hate me, please anything but that, Izuku", strength left Izuku's body when he saw the desperation in the blonde's eyes.
It was not the first time the alpha begged him but it felt like it was the first time that he was betting everything.
"I don't hate you... not at all. Oh how I wish that I just hated you",
"I don't hate you... not at all. Oh how I wish that I just hated you",
Izuku gently peeled off Katsuki's hands off him and then slowly looked up to the blonde who met his eyes eagerly as Izuku held his face. "But Kacchan, I don't think I can do this anymore. I'm tired... of everything, of pretending that I'm okay even when I'm not,
tired of trying to understand why I have to go all through this just because I love you. We're just hurting each other at this point, Kacchan"
Izuku caressed Katsuki's face for one last time, soothing the blonde's tired eyes, and he didn't miss the way the alpha chased after his
Izuku caressed Katsuki's face for one last time, soothing the blonde's tired eyes, and he didn't miss the way the alpha chased after his
hand as he let go. "If you want me to apologize, I can do it over and over again, Izuku. Yeah? I'll.. I'll be better I promise. Anything just I'll do anything just please, let's fix this. please. I'm so sorry, Izuku. I really am sorry. I was wrong, I hurt you. I'm sorry"
"Kacchan, do you think your mistakes, lies, and everything only hurt me? It was not just as simple as making me cry every time when I found out all of the things you've done. It's not the kind of pain that just magically disappears once you apologize.
It is something that I'll always remember when I see your face, the kind of pain I will always remember while thinking of the sad and even the happy memories we've shared together"
"It's bound to end, Kacchan. If we pretend this thing never happened again and if we insist on keeping this relationship, I don't think it would last so, Kacchan. I don't hate you, not at all. So please just let me go for now. I need rest."
Izuku knew that if he stayed any longer he would give in, he would buckle and forgive him and it would be like a cycle all over again. He would be hurt over and over until he's left with nothing. So it's better he leaves now, while he still has the resolve to do so.
He didn't know how he managed to get home despite the ringing in his ears and the continuous flow of tears going down his face. But when he got home, even the warmest hug from his mother wasn't able to quell the cold hollow in his chest.
He was such a coward, he wanted to hear everything from Katsuki and yet during that same moment he was not able to handle it, it was different when it came from him. So even though there were still a lot of things he wanted to know, he just ran away.
He loves him, he still loves him so damn much that it was painful to see him in that state, it was painful to finally hear all those things from him, and it was painful to admit that he was right, that indeed he would have left Katsuki then had he known what happened.
He would not be able to make himself stay because that would be like playing the same damn trauma he had with his father. He loves him so why... why did he have to be just like his father?
Why did the man whom he entrusted his life, become the exact same person he didn't want him to become?
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*
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"Are you sure that you want to do this?"
"Why, do you not want me to come with you?'
"That's not it, you know, I would be more than happy to have you with me all the time", his mom smiled at him after sealing the last box that she'd be giving away as a donation.
"Why, do you not want me to come with you?'
"That's not it, you know, I would be more than happy to have you with me all the time", his mom smiled at him after sealing the last box that she'd be giving away as a donation.
Everything's already inside the truck that would help them move to their new house. It has always been his mother's dream to move to the suburb and just spent the rest of her days there, customizing her own big flower garden, maybe adopting a dog or two,
and just enjoying the fresh air away from the city.
Now that Izuku's thinking about it, it was actually not that bad and maybe he wanted it as well, just watching his mom be happy and relaxed, not being stressed out by their crappy neighbors, not worrying about any deadlines,
Now that Izuku's thinking about it, it was actually not that bad and maybe he wanted it as well, just watching his mom be happy and relaxed, not being stressed out by their crappy neighbors, not worrying about any deadlines,
no traffic, and just... peace.
"Ahh, by the way, Izuku. Your auntie wanted to have lunch with us before we go, is that okay?"
"... yeah sure"
"Ahh, by the way, Izuku. Your auntie wanted to have lunch with us before we go, is that okay?"
"... yeah sure"
Izuku can't say that he have never imagined talking to Mitsuki again but he also never thought that it would actually happen. How should he act? What should he say? He doesn't know even now while listening to his mother and auntie having a
good talk about their good old days while growing up together.
He was so lost in his thoughts that he did not understand anything from their conversation until his mother's phone rang.
"Oh sorry, do you mind if I excuse myself for a bit?"
"Oh not at all go ahead"
He was so lost in his thoughts that he did not understand anything from their conversation until his mother's phone rang.
"Oh sorry, do you mind if I excuse myself for a bit?"
"Oh not at all go ahead"
After his mom left the mood immediately shifted. Both of them look anywhere that is not each other's eyes. Until finally Mitsuki broke the silence.
"How are you, Izuku?", nervousness was evident in her voice when she asked him and as Izuku gazes into her eyes,
"How are you, Izuku?", nervousness was evident in her voice when she asked him and as Izuku gazes into her eyes,
it felt genuine and as always despite having those sharp-pointed eyes it was still filled with kindness.
"I'm good, Auntie. Thanks for sending us off with a good lunch", the greenette replied as he reach out to the woman's hand to give it a light squeeze.
"I'm sor-"
"I'm good, Auntie. Thanks for sending us off with a good lunch", the greenette replied as he reach out to the woman's hand to give it a light squeeze.
"I'm sor-"
"You have nothing to apologize for, Auntie. It's okay. It's over" he said with the kindest smile hoping it would convey his sincerity. He might never forget but at least he has already forgiven everything.
He just wanted to be on his life's next page and he can only start over if he lets go of all the things that have held him back.
So they sat there talking about all the things they weren't able to talk about before. And hearing for the first time, things the both of them should
So they sat there talking about all the things they weren't able to talk about before. And hearing for the first time, things the both of them should
have known before. It was a much-needed talk but also something that only opened a much bigger wound.
"He didn't tell you that, did he? But it's never your fault, Izuku"
/No he did not./ In the end, Katsuki really was the one who can't tell anything between the two of them
"He didn't tell you that, did he? But it's never your fault, Izuku"
/No he did not./ In the end, Katsuki really was the one who can't tell anything between the two of them
What they had turned out to be more of a curse than that of a blessing, not just for the two of them but even for the people around them. That's why
"Auntie, please if not for me, at least do it for Katsuki. No matter how much he begs or how much he cries. Never tell him where we are"
TBC
TBC
It took a really long time to update because I keep on revising and revising until I'm only left with this much
โฏ๏ธฟโฐ I can't satisfy myself even until now but I think if I don't at least upload this one, I won't be able to get over my writer's block.
โฏ๏ธฟโฐ I can't satisfy myself even until now but I think if I don't at least upload this one, I won't be able to get over my writer's block.
So I would understand if this update was not satisfying enough because even I think it lacks a lot ๐ but I'll work on this I promise and I'll do my best๐ค
Again, this fic is in ao3 so you can easily read it in one go if you want to ๐ฅฐ
All Shades of Hue by tinyzucchan -archiveofourown.org/works/38842659 via @ao3org
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All Shades of Hue by tinyzucchan -archiveofourown.org/works/38842659 via @ao3org
Also, this is my ko-fi, you can also drop by
ko-fi.com/tinyzucchan
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