Thread by @maedchentraeume

My Abuser was 30, I was 19. He manipulated, gaslit & isolated me in Ways that I can’t comprehend to this Day - for four Years.

He was the quiet, shy and selfconcious Artist-Type, just like Johnny. I was the only one in our Relationship to ever raise their Voice.

#IAmAmberHeard

https://twitter.com/a_h_reaume/status/1532195459409661952

He was so knowledgable, well spoken, romantic in a dark Way - a Musician, Writer, Theater-Director. I felt HONOURED to be with that Man - as a smol, awkward, young and inexperienced Girl.

It took me YEARS after our Breakup to even realize what he had done to me.

#IAmAmberHeard

In Arguments, I was the only one who ever raised their Voice. Him on the other Side? He went quiet and looked like a beaten Puppy, until I felt bad for him again - even though deep down I knew better.

My Mom told me to be patient with him. To love him through it.

#IAmAmberHeard

He was almost exactly like my Dad.

When I found out about his six Months long Affair, I screamed at him for Hours. I even slapped him, once.

I never heard the End of it. But it was as if his Affair had never happened, after that - because I was the bad one, now.

#IAmAmberHeard

We were still together for Half a Year, after that.

I was so beaten down, sad, lonely, selfconcious and yes - angry. I started cheating on him.

And it felt like inching back to myself, again. Gaining Freedom from him and his psychological Abuse.

#IAmAmberHeard

It worked. I broke up with him.

And he didn’t care. His Affair was still ongoing - with a Girl two Years younger than me.

After I was so traumatized, lonely… broken. I left him Emails, wanting to get back to that Comfort.

I am so thankful he never answered.

#IAmAmberHeard

I never spoke about it to anyone but my closest Friends. My best Friend was the only one who ever even suspected anything. Noone would have believed me.

And that’s where Amber and I differ. She DID speak up, she DID tell People. She did ask for Help. And it was still not enough.