this subtitle / part of the song combined with this image...... after the god erased the scar from Murph’s death that John had on his arm........ help me ;___; #TheWinchesters
God I’m fucked up over this
“My friend died and all I got was this lousy scar”
And then EVEN THE SCAR IS TAKEN FROM HIM, as a god tries to make him a clean slate and tells him to hold onto his anger instead of talking
Something I don’t think I’m seeing a lot of people elaborate on is Millie & John in ep4. More specifically… Millie clearly loves & has done her best by John, but part of that involved instilling lessons of toxic masculinity into him in his father’s absence.
I get having bitterness & baggage but for the love of God not everything is world-ending levels of serious
particularly because in this case we even know John marries Mary!!!! if he wants to check out Carlos let him, if people including cast want to ship them let them, it’s FUN
RIGHT? What a mess!
Conservative propaganda
the idea that every bit of queer content has to be some epic love story that satisfies everyone’s checklists of “perfect” is BORING
or that anything a cast member says is a contract in blood stating “these characters will fuck”
Compelled by how heavy last week's ep was on Destiel parallels, & how heavy THIS week's ep was on bisexuality / being manipulated into a cycle of violence by a god.
I think what happened to Jack at the end of the SPN (Dean unwittingly sacrificed his son as part of "Abraham & Isaac" & Chuck won via theater) is not always top of mind for people–in comparison to, for example, Destiel or Dean's relationship to HIS parents.
There's looking here at how John & Mary feel about their parents & thinking about how Dean feels about HIS parents, yea? But a subtle undercurrent is thinking of John & Mary as parents. That forward direction is also a forward direction for Dean, as HE'S a parent. #TheWinchesters
#TheWinchesters ep 2 has compelled me to repeat myself for the MILLIONTH time regarding how Supernatural is a franchise about parents & children + cycles of trauma/violence, both in the small scale & the large scale.
I don't know why I'm writing this! I am saying the same shit I have been saying on here for at least the past year & put in my meta! But I just heard Dean Winchester say to us that you have to break free & be WHO YOU ARE (12x22, anybody?) & I'm gonna eat my foot
if Loki ends with bringing the Lokius love story to the forefront in any capacity the way I suspect, I’m not going to be able to handle it when I go to rewatch all 6 ep in order because AS IT IS I think about the arc so far or glimpse previous clips & get flattened with emotions
my secret is I try to stay very analytical because otherwise I will think of how poetic this cinema is and just end up being like
[OPENS MOUTH]
[PTERODACTYL SHRIEK]
if anything happens I will live tweet a complete rewatch and let myself loose
this is a promise
Okay something is bothering me re: #Loki & Lokius & I need to write it out.
It actually is, like, actively insane that we have a CANONICALLY QUEER character & STILL have to include caveats/disclaimers in our minds & on media analysis because we can never just... trust a story.
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?!?!? Loki is BISEXUAL! & yet we can’t say with confidence, though all signs point to it, that Lokius will happen or be given breathing room.
Why? Because we have been conditioned to think that at the end of the day there is ALWAYS somehow a catch when it comes to queer content.
It doesn’t even fully make sense to think this way! WHY THE FUCK WOULD DISNEY ALLOW BI LOKI BUT NOT ALLOW M/M ROMANCE? What kind of piecemeal homophobic corporate logic would that be?
“Out of sight, out of mind” queerness?
The bitch of it all is it isn’t impossible to imagine.