5/ Me: "It's a crazy, mixed-up world, it's a dog-eat-dog world. . . "
Him: "Life is full of strife. . . people just aren't nice. . ."
Me: "Ummm. . . .that's all I got."
*laughter*
Him: "I'm still pretty impressed you knew that."
Me: "Yep. Raised on that kind of music."
6/ Him: "Yeah. So much good music back then."
Me: "Yep. Although it makes me feel like I have chores to do."
Him: "Right? If the Commodores or the O'Jays was blasting? I knew I had something to scrub."
*laughter*
I paused for a moment and prepared to leave.
Me: "Okay . . ."
7/ Me: ". . . I'm glad PT went well. I'll see you a little later."
Him: "Sounds like a plan."
*silence*
Me: "Hey . . . .thanks for making me smile."
Him: "No problem, doc. It's always some bad news but it's always some good news somewhere, too."
Me: "Aaaah. I love that."
8/ Him: "Don't let this world get you too down, hear?"
Me: "Whew. I'm trying."
Him: "Me, too."
Just then I remembered that he was learning how to walk and do activities of daily living again. I drew in a breath and nodded again.
Me: *waves*
Him: *waves back*
And that was it.
9/ Here's the thing:
I have no deep moral to this story or any such thing. This moment just underscores all the things we have to gain through even the tiniest slivers of human connection.
Especially in this work.
Yep.
10/ And no. I can't ignore the bad news. But I won't forget the good news either.
Her: “Yeah, it’s been tough since my mama died.”
Me: “Oh no. I don’t think I knew that. I’m so sorry for your loss.”
Her: “I appreciate that.”
*silence*
Me: “Had your mom been sick?”
Her: “Yes. She was.”
*silence*
2/ She turned her head to me and held my gaze.
Her: “Know what else she was?”
Me: *listening*
Her: “She was my mama.”
Ooph.
I parted my lips to speak but nothing came out. She touched my arm and smiled.
Her: “She was sick. She was up in age. She was all of those things.”
3/ Her: “But still. Before ALL that she was and is my mama.”
Me: *listening*
Her: “And if they was good to you? I’m not too sure it’s ever a good time to say goodbye to your mama for good.”
Them: “Okay, I’ll dial up a Spanish interpreter while we walk over.”
Me: “Oooooh. Can we call for the in-person one instead?”
*silence*
Me: *starts dialing* “They come quick, I promise.”
Them: “No. . . umm. . . it’s fine.”
It did not seem fine.
2/ Though it’s been over 20 years, I remember what it was like to be a resident. I also remember the dreaded feeling of an attending speed breaker when I was trying to get a lot done.
Me: “I know it takes a little longer to call an interpreter.”
Them: “It’s cool.”
*silence*
3/ Me: “You know why I like in-person interpreters?”
Them: “No. . . they’re great. It’s fine, I promise.”
Me: “For the shenanigans.”
Them: *stops walking* “Wait. What?”
Me: “You can’t really get into too much random mischief over the phone or the tablet.”
You looked at me and smirked. I paused with my hand on the switch.
You: “That’s in the script?”
Me: “Say what now?”
You: “What my druthers is when it come to anything.”
You chuckled.
You: “We don’t call no shots.”
Ooph.
2/ Me: *nervous laugh*
You: “Y’all be asking stuff like we got a say. But then y’all do what y’all want. Wake you up and stick you with a needle. Put some cold hands on you. Talk your damn head off.”
Me: “Ouch.”
*laughter*
You: “Oh wait. You do get to pick what you gon’ eat.”
3/ Neighbor in next bed: *yelling* “Buuuuuuull-shit!”
*laughter*
Neighbor: “They got me on soup with no noodles and jello!”
Me: *chuckling* “Maybe your doctor wants you on clear foods and liquids.”
You: “Or maybe your doctor just doing whatever they feel like.”
Them: "Did you watch it?"
Me: "I saw a part of it this morning. But that was too much so I stopped."
*silence*
Me: "Did you?"
Them: "I ain't gon' even lie. I did. I kept saying I wasn't but I did."
*silence*
Me: "You okay?"
Them: "Define 'okay.'"
2/ Me: "I hear you. Retract that."
*silence*
Them: "Know what? I actually don't even recommend you watch it. 'Specially not the real bad parts."
Me: *listening*
Them: "Plus you got manchildren. It'll fuck you up too much." *covers mouth* "I mean, mess you up."
Me: *nods*
3/ Them: "Dude was a hunned-forty pounds. Prob'ly soaking wet!" *shaking head*
Me: "Even if he was 3-fifty he didn't deserve that."
Them: "But got damn! A hunned-forty? Maaaaane. That's fucked up." *raises brow* "I mean messed up."
Me: "Nah, fam. It's just what you said."