The established self test for the spectrum of phantasia (ability to visualize with your "mind's eye") is to describe how well you can picture an apple.
- Hyperphantasia (1) is indistinguishable from reality.
- Aphantasia (5) is an inability to picture anything at all.
Some individuals who experience hyperphantasia or near it report being able to superimpose their visualizations over their perception of sight, akin to what is demonstrated in the Iron Man films.
Though it is rarely talked about this phantasia for sight is replaced for every human sense and how well any given person can do it is a spectrum.
Some can listen to music "in their heads"
Some can taste foods "in their heads"
Some can feel textures "in their heads"
etc ...
People who experience Aphantasia can go their whole lives thinking that "picture this" and similar statements are idioms and not meant to be taken literally.
Here is a video by an artist who has Aphantasia discussing their lived experience with it.
Autistic people are disproportionately likely to experience Hyperphantasia or Aphantasia.
Part of what makes all of this difficult to discuss is the double empathy problem, where we all assume that everyone else has the same internal experience as ourselves, but we all actually do vary, and only the extremes are readily categorizable.
A fallacy of logic that many make is to assume that those who create amazing visualizations must experience hyperphantasia, but the truth of the matter is that many who experience aphantasia spend their lives perfecting the skill creating visuals because they can't "picture" them
Many people only begin to understand how varied our internal experiences are when fiction reveals to us that there *are* different ways of perceiving the world
Some people don’t experience the flow of time the way others do, and many didn’t realize there perception was atypical until Janet from the Good Place explained that she can revisit her past experiences as if indistinguishable from the present.
We often try to explain the intuitive perception of patterns that many Neurodivergent people experience.
One way we do it is raising awareness through reoriented text.
Some people are so intuitively capable of reading RIR (upside down and backward text) that they don’t even perceive that it’s in an atypical orientation.
Mabel, while in Tim Kono's apartment visualizes a conversation with him, projecting that visualization into her space.
Oliver on the other hand has an entire stage pictured entirely in their head, completely with actors who are amalgams of cast members and residents of the Arconia, that he immersively interacts with.
These are example of how the minds eye is presented in media and yet those who don't experience a mind's eye assume that these are story telling devices instead of literal expressions of what the characters are experiencing.
Please note that 2, 3, & 4 in the image are meant to be taken as abstracts levels of realism and not literally.
The possible variation between the absolutes are infinite in their variety.
You can read the replies to this thread to see that experiences vary immensely.
One of the things I think is super cool about the responses to this thread is that some of the people who indicate that they have Aphantasia indicate that they have other senses they can manifest for the apple, like touch, taste, hear (the crunch of biting it), etc ...
Btw, we asked people about "smell phantasia" a few months ago:
The truely intens and overwhelming thing is that what finally pushed me through my transient language impairments, analaysis paralysis and other disabilities to turn anything in is others demanding intensely more from me than I can navigate.
So I have to rebuild immediatly
Tam sure that the systmes in play have stopped years off my life but the characters keep swapping out and no one in the process understands or accept disabilty.
It's a constant cycle of stress an my reward for completing any stage is the deluge of chaos and worry
If you are questioning if you are Autistic and you *need* objective professional third party validation so you can *know* we *highly* recommend you seek out a Neurodiversity Affirming MHP first rather than rushing into attempting to acquire a DX of ASD.
Neurodiversity Affirming Mental Health Professionals embrace that Autism and other intrinsic Neurotypes are healthy and valid and have significantly less stigma towards them and tend to have a much broader and deeper nonpathologized view of Autism (often due to lived experiences)
Neurodiversity Affirming Psychiatrist and Therapists are the ideal but they are costly, limited, and region specific (they can only practices in regions where they are licensed to do so).
ND Affirming Life Coaches address many of these issues.
The sudden and otherwise inexplicable loss of an established skill.
This is potentially a form of dissociation and a trauma response.
It can be one of the symptoms of Autistic Burnout
Autists often have difficult with moderation and knowing when to stop pushing themselves.
One possible interpretation is that in an act of self preservation, a part of your brain stages a coup, goes on strike, and literally denies access to specific skills.
And this theory explains the nature of the weirdness of Autistic Burnout, how you can do some things but *just* *can’t* do others.
Your brain’s defenses are going “*NOPE*, sit your ASS DOWN!” when you push too hard.