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#jikookau so deeply wed for 5 years. J/m thought he fell out of love & he no longer loved his husband j/k. Defeated j/k signed the divorce documents. Years later, they met coincidently as j/k craddled his daughter & j/m craddled regret, longing & the ugly truth of their divorce. 
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My Forever Asteroid
My Forever Asteroid
#jikookau
J/k stared intensely and devastatingly longly at his long-term soon-to-be all-past husband.
J/m had grown to be an enchantingly handsome man.
J/k wasn't blind. He never believed in a lifetime of happiness ever after.
J/k stared intensely and devastatingly longly at his long-term soon-to-be all-past husband.
J/m had grown to be an enchantingly handsome man.
J/k wasn't blind. He never believed in a lifetime of happiness ever after.
#jikookau
Realistically speaking, he knew that eventually, those freckles of feelings would dull over time.
They will age backward. Had he been ready to touch the subject without breaking into a hysterical fit of sobs?
Hell no. He wasn't that strong.
Realistically speaking, he knew that eventually, those freckles of feelings would dull over time.
They will age backward. Had he been ready to touch the subject without breaking into a hysterical fit of sobs?
Hell no. He wasn't that strong.
#jikookau
Frankly, he'll never be ready to let go of j/m's hands and stalk it out of his long thin tattooed fingers.
Raking his mind, j/k counted the rare occasions they never held hands.
Even before they dated. Even when they dated. Even when they were mad at each other.
Frankly, he'll never be ready to let go of j/m's hands and stalk it out of his long thin tattooed fingers.
Raking his mind, j/k counted the rare occasions they never held hands.
Even before they dated. Even when they dated. Even when they were mad at each other.
#jikookau
Even before they got married. Even when they were married.
Even when they were out with their tiny circles, as he watched his husband animatedly invested in a conversation, j/m's firm warm hand found its place on his thigh.
Even before they got married. Even when they were married.
Even when they were out with their tiny circles, as he watched his husband animatedly invested in a conversation, j/m's firm warm hand found its place on his thigh.
#jikookau
J/m's fingers would play with their wedding ring on J/k's finger.
Sometimes, j/m shamelessly would peck it mouthing "I love you" against the shell of his ears.
J/k's entire being shivered.
He had to bite down the whine that threatened to jump out.
J/m's fingers would play with their wedding ring on J/k's finger.
Sometimes, j/m shamelessly would peck it mouthing "I love you" against the shell of his ears.
J/k's entire being shivered.
He had to bite down the whine that threatened to jump out.
#jikookau
Reading his mind, j/m just dragged him over his lap, tacking j/k against his sturdy chest.
J/k wasn't a fan of public affection, and j/m always was respectful toward his boundaries.
Yet, he knew when j/k needed to feel him, to smell him, to touch him.
Reading his mind, j/m just dragged him over his lap, tacking j/k against his sturdy chest.
J/k wasn't a fan of public affection, and j/m always was respectful toward his boundaries.
Yet, he knew when j/k needed to feel him, to smell him, to touch him.
#jikookau
Despite the years they had been married, j/m still had that striking effect on him.
As if his body was devoted to reacting to j/m's touches, to his airy voice, to his bubbly laugh.
His whole tingling in a sensation he'd gotten familiar with.
Despite the years they had been married, j/m still had that striking effect on him.
As if his body was devoted to reacting to j/m's touches, to his airy voice, to his bubbly laugh.
His whole tingling in a sensation he'd gotten familiar with.
#jikookau
J/m was his home.
Where j/k would wander without j/m's umbrella under the sky that soon would be the downpour of a spiral abyss.
J/m was his home.
Where j/k would wander without j/m's umbrella under the sky that soon would be the downpour of a spiral abyss.
#jikookau
Yeah! J/k had no idea how he'll live scrubbing their ghosts over his sensitive skin.
The skin that j/m was obsessed to mark.
J/k visibly shuddered recalling how it felt to be loved by j/m. To be taken by him.
Yeah! J/k had no idea how he'll live scrubbing their ghosts over his sensitive skin.
The skin that j/m was obsessed to mark.
J/k visibly shuddered recalling how it felt to be loved by j/m. To be taken by him.
#jikookau
To fall apart under him and then he pulled him back together to those arms that held him ever tenderly as if the world would dare to scratch him with its overheated sunlight.
To fall apart under him and then he pulled him back together to those arms that held him ever tenderly as if the world would dare to scratch him with its overheated sunlight.
#jikookau
However, he was only a human. J/m hadn’t been himself.
No! He had been himself.
Yet, somehow he stopped looking at j/k like he didn't propose to him one day.
J/k smiled bitterly when the memory nested itself up upfront.
However, he was only a human. J/m hadn’t been himself.
No! He had been himself.
Yet, somehow he stopped looking at j/k like he didn't propose to him one day.
J/k smiled bitterly when the memory nested itself up upfront.
#jikookau
J/m kneeling.
J/m's shiny tears.
A glinting silver band.
Followed by an ear-breaking shout of "million yes".
Hadn't it been a feverish dream?
J/m kneeling.
J/m's shiny tears.
A glinting silver band.
Followed by an ear-breaking shout of "million yes".
Hadn't it been a feverish dream?
#jikookau
No. It couldn't be! J/k's body was painted with hickeys.
His entire body ached, but the good mind-blowing aching.
J/k grimaced when his band felt tight around his finger.
Logically, it was impossible.
Yet, it still felt suffocating.
Uncomfortable. A lie?
No. It couldn't be! J/k's body was painted with hickeys.
His entire body ached, but the good mind-blowing aching.
J/k grimaced when his band felt tight around his finger.
Logically, it was impossible.
Yet, it still felt suffocating.
Uncomfortable. A lie?
#jikookau
He didn't even dare to adjust the band, scared his fingers would skim the engraved words.
"My Forever Asteroid"
He didn't even dare to adjust the band, scared his fingers would skim the engraved words.
"My Forever Asteroid"
#jikookau
J/m's kisses began to feel like chores.
Call him crazy, but believe him.
J/m's once-upon-a-time domineering, very consuming kisses now strangely tasted bland. Empty. Clean.
J/m's kisses began to feel like chores.
Call him crazy, but believe him.
J/m's once-upon-a-time domineering, very consuming kisses now strangely tasted bland. Empty. Clean.
#jikookau
Before he even closed his eyes, j/m's lips were gone, leaving a very stunned j/k behind.
When j/k brought his trembling fingers to his "none bitten raw cherry" lips, the usual tingling wasn't there.
His lips weren't sore. They were dry.
Before he even closed his eyes, j/m's lips were gone, leaving a very stunned j/k behind.
When j/k brought his trembling fingers to his "none bitten raw cherry" lips, the usual tingling wasn't there.
His lips weren't sore. They were dry.
#jikookau
The epiphany summoned gut-wrenching tears, and j/k didn’t know how to wipe them dry.
Usually, j/m would draw kisses around them, and j/k would forget why he even cried.
The epiphany summoned gut-wrenching tears, and j/k didn’t know how to wipe them dry.
Usually, j/m would draw kisses around them, and j/k would forget why he even cried.
#jikookau
Now, he utterly froze in a haze. Useless hands hanging at each side. Somehow, his brain couldn't function and order his body to swipe the droplets that seemed endless. They sliced through his pinched red cheeks, down his neck, running under his hoodie (j/m's hoodie).
Now, he utterly froze in a haze. Useless hands hanging at each side. Somehow, his brain couldn't function and order his body to swipe the droplets that seemed endless. They sliced through his pinched red cheeks, down his neck, running under his hoodie (j/m's hoodie).
#jikookau
It was ridiculous, that even his neurons bent to j/m's habitual affection. An acidic chuckle escaped j/k's tight throat.
He was doomed, wasn't he?
It was ridiculous, that even his neurons bent to j/m's habitual affection. An acidic chuckle escaped j/k's tight throat.
He was doomed, wasn't he?
#jikookau
J/m didn’t love him anymore, and that was fine, wasn't it? People are creatures of change even in their hearts. Expectedly, falling apart was an ordinary occurrence. Breaking up was inevitable. Getting a divorce was very human. Having your heart broken was unavoidable.
J/m didn’t love him anymore, and that was fine, wasn't it? People are creatures of change even in their hearts. Expectedly, falling apart was an ordinary occurrence. Breaking up was inevitable. Getting a divorce was very human. Having your heart broken was unavoidable.
#jikookau
But, why did j/k's heart clench painfully inside his chest over the thought he'll never hear j/m speak words of love? Why did his chest congest over having not his heart taken to j/m's calming palpitations? Why did feel out of his body? Was it because of the loud void?
But, why did j/k's heart clench painfully inside his chest over the thought he'll never hear j/m speak words of love? Why did his chest congest over having not his heart taken to j/m's calming palpitations? Why did feel out of his body? Was it because of the loud void?
#jikookau
They stopped touching. They stopped clinging like the sizzling rain dancing next to the snowflake. They stopped waking up as one. Their limbs were two oceans apart. The glaring space between them was laughable. J/k had allowed himself to fancy the happy ever after.
They stopped touching. They stopped clinging like the sizzling rain dancing next to the snowflake. They stopped waking up as one. Their limbs were two oceans apart. The glaring space between them was laughable. J/k had allowed himself to fancy the happy ever after.
#jikookau
He stupidly entertained it. Watching j/m's back as he steered toward their bathroom without stealing a glance at j/k's side, did something to j/k's heart.
He stupidly entertained it. Watching j/m's back as he steered toward their bathroom without stealing a glance at j/k's side, did something to j/k's heart.
#jikookau
The shadow grew further.
J/k couldn't put a finger on what it was. Right, he couldn’t breathe. His lungs stubbornly refused to digest there was something called air. His chest uncharacteristically heaved, squeezing the flesh against his ribs. His lips trembled in blue
The shadow grew further.
J/k couldn't put a finger on what it was. Right, he couldn’t breathe. His lungs stubbornly refused to digest there was something called air. His chest uncharacteristically heaved, squeezing the flesh against his ribs. His lips trembled in blue
#jikookau
He couldn’t even blink the moisture gathering around his glands.
Something ugly settled itself inside his heart.
It started consuming him inside out.
His fingers were cramped and cold. Icy.
J/k's world was torn into shreds. It collapsed into aches of memories.
He couldn’t even blink the moisture gathering around his glands.
Something ugly settled itself inside his heart.
It started consuming him inside out.
His fingers were cramped and cold. Icy.
J/k's world was torn into shreds. It collapsed into aches of memories.
#jikookau
When j/m emerged from the bathroom graced with freshness, j/k's world tilted around his therapeutic smell.
His body lotion wafted like tides touching j/k's nostrils.
Menacingly, he relaxed immediately.
His shoulders sagged in relief.
When j/m emerged from the bathroom graced with freshness, j/k's world tilted around his therapeutic smell.
His body lotion wafted like tides touching j/k's nostrils.
Menacingly, he relaxed immediately.
His shoulders sagged in relief.
#jikookau
His lungs seized up inhaling, inhaling.
J/k angrily fisted the sheets beneath his palms.
He'll waddle out of this marriage with shatters of dolor.
This marriage will destroy him inside and out.
His lungs seized up inhaling, inhaling.
J/k angrily fisted the sheets beneath his palms.
He'll waddle out of this marriage with shatters of dolor.
This marriage will destroy him inside and out.
#jikookau
His lungs seized up inhaling, inhaling.
J/k angrily fisted the sheets beneath his palms.
He'll waddle out of this marriage with shatters of dolor.
This marriage will destroy him inside and out.
It was over was it? They were over?
His lungs seized up inhaling, inhaling.
J/k angrily fisted the sheets beneath his palms.
He'll waddle out of this marriage with shatters of dolor.
This marriage will destroy him inside and out.
It was over was it? They were over?
#jikookau
"We need to talk." j/k weakly said toying with his wedding band.
His eyes burned at the thought of taking it out.
Fu/ck his heart was torn apart. God, he could never take it off.
"We need to talk." j/k weakly said toying with his wedding band.
His eyes burned at the thought of taking it out.
Fu/ck his heart was torn apart. God, he could never take it off.
#jikookau
His eyes burned at the thought of taking it out. Fu/ck his heart was torn apart. It was being skinned.
His eyes burned at the thought of taking it out. Fu/ck his heart was torn apart. It was being skinned.
#jikookau
J/k could feel j/m's heavy gaze on him, causing the back hair of his neck to stand up.
The silence stretched for so long. The inkling tension could be cut with a knife.
J/k started squirming before he heard j/m whisper with a clipped wince in his voice "We do."
J/k could feel j/m's heavy gaze on him, causing the back hair of his neck to stand up.
The silence stretched for so long. The inkling tension could be cut with a knife.
J/k started squirming before he heard j/m whisper with a clipped wince in his voice "We do."
#jikookau
J/k took a deep breath and asked, dreading j/m's obvious answer "Do you still love me?"
No one prepared him for how he felt tattooing those words in the air.
He wasn't even sure if his heart would survive the upcoming hooray.
J/k took a deep breath and asked, dreading j/m's obvious answer "Do you still love me?"
No one prepared him for how he felt tattooing those words in the air.
He wasn't even sure if his heart would survive the upcoming hooray.
#jikookau
From his peripheral vision j/k noticed j/m dropping the towel he'd been using to dry his hair.
J/k risked a glance, and damn he shouldn't have done that. J/m's face said it all.
His eyes widened like a deer caught in head sights.
From his peripheral vision j/k noticed j/m dropping the towel he'd been using to dry his hair.
J/k risked a glance, and damn he shouldn't have done that. J/m's face said it all.
His eyes widened like a deer caught in head sights.
#jikookau
His perfectly trimmed eyebrows knitted forming wrinkles on his forehead. Even his lips twisted in terror.
His eyes were another story. They were downcast. They didn't meet j/k's.
Shame. J/m was ashamed.
His perfectly trimmed eyebrows knitted forming wrinkles on his forehead. Even his lips twisted in terror.
His eyes were another story. They were downcast. They didn't meet j/k's.
Shame. J/m was ashamed.
#jikookau
J/k gasped when j/m's crescent moons began pouring. The reaction punched the air out of his lungs.
The storm raging inside j/m's was mute. He only sobbed and sobbed, and sobbed, until he no longer could muffle the drawing hiccups of spasm.
J/k gasped when j/m's crescent moons began pouring. The reaction punched the air out of his lungs.
The storm raging inside j/m's was mute. He only sobbed and sobbed, and sobbed, until he no longer could muffle the drawing hiccups of spasm.
#jikookau
J/k only froze as he watched his husband grieve over the loss that will cause j/k despondency.
Suddenly, j/k felt he and his husband were two oceans apart.
A rogue wave tore them apart.
J/k only froze as he watched his husband grieve over the loss that will cause j/k despondency.
Suddenly, j/k felt he and his husband were two oceans apart.
A rogue wave tore them apart.
#jikookau
J/m was shaking like a leaf. A grim aura danced all over his tortured features.
The shallow excuse of short breaths leaving his trembling lips.
J/k raked his bloodshot eyes all over his husband's imperfectly perfect details.
J/m was shaking like a leaf. A grim aura danced all over his tortured features.
The shallow excuse of short breaths leaving his trembling lips.
J/k raked his bloodshot eyes all over his husband's imperfectly perfect details.
#jikookau
He loved this man. He couldn’t leave this man.
He couldn’t imagine waking up to an empty bed with the ghost of his past kissing the pearls of hanker. He couldn’t imagine a day where he didn't taste j/m's addictive solace love.
He loved this man. He couldn’t leave this man.
He couldn’t imagine waking up to an empty bed with the ghost of his past kissing the pearls of hanker. He couldn’t imagine a day where he didn't taste j/m's addictive solace love.
#jikookau
He couldn’t imagine letting go of the one thing that brought him whole.
"I'll consult my lawyer." j/k said dryly, blinking the stubborn wave of tears. They came crushing.
He couldn’t imagine letting go of the one thing that brought him whole.
"I'll consult my lawyer." j/k said dryly, blinking the stubborn wave of tears. They came crushing.
#jikookau
He couldn't break down in front of j/m. He no longer had that privilege. Thus, he shot his eyes close, pinching the bridge of his nose to stop the rugal tears. Crawling from his position, he unsteadily tried to reach the bathroom, without collapsing.
He couldn't break down in front of j/m. He no longer had that privilege. Thus, he shot his eyes close, pinching the bridge of his nose to stop the rugal tears. Crawling from his position, he unsteadily tried to reach the bathroom, without collapsing.
#jikookau
J/m was hugging him. J/m was hugging him.
No, he was suffocating him, and j/m didn’t seem to realize how his arms were squeezing j/k's bones.
It actually did hurt, but j/k would be damned if he complained.
J/m was hugging him. J/m was hugging him.
No, he was suffocating him, and j/m didn’t seem to realize how his arms were squeezing j/k's bones.
It actually did hurt, but j/k would be damned if he complained.
#jikookau
His crashed husband was trying to pull him impossibly closer, maybe if he did, j/k will be stashed inside his heart again, and he won't have to let go.
His crashed husband was trying to pull him impossibly closer, maybe if he did, j/k will be stashed inside his heart again, and he won't have to let go.
#jikookau
J/m tacked j/k firmly against him. An arm sturdily around his dainty waist, the other tenderly cradling the back of j/k's head. His fingers were cramped inside his silky strands
J/m tacked j/k firmly against him. An arm sturdily around his dainty waist, the other tenderly cradling the back of j/k's head. His fingers were cramped inside his silky strands
#jikookau
J/m gulped loudly when he felt wetness trailing down his shoulders. He only embraced him tighter, feeling useless, helpless, ass/hole.
He pecked his temple and maybe he shouldn't have, because his husband's body started hysterically shaking.
J/m gulped loudly when he felt wetness trailing down his shoulders. He only embraced him tighter, feeling useless, helpless, ass/hole.
He pecked his temple and maybe he shouldn't have, because his husband's body started hysterically shaking.
#jikookau
"I'm sorry." j/m's eyes stung. The tips of his fingers went numb.
He had no idea what else to say.
There wasn't any word to levitate the wretchedness he caused to his husband.
"I'm sorry." j/m's eyes stung. The tips of his fingers went numb.
He had no idea what else to say.
There wasn't any word to levitate the wretchedness he caused to his husband.
#jikookau
His husband. Oh! How much he'll miss calling him that.
J/m knew, despite falling out of love, he'll never fall in love with someone the way he loved j/k.
What he felt for his husband was a once-in-a-lifetime asteroid.
His husband. Oh! How much he'll miss calling him that.
J/m knew, despite falling out of love, he'll never fall in love with someone the way he loved j/k.
What he felt for his husband was a once-in-a-lifetime asteroid.
#jikookau
He won't be falling for someone else. It was either j/k or none. There was no between.
His Forever Asteroid.
He won't be falling for someone else. It was either j/k or none. There was no between.
His Forever Asteroid.
#jikookau
The sterile walls of the lawyer's office seemed to echo with the heaviness of their broken home.
J/m and J/k sat across from each other, their eyes avoiding the painful reality that awaited them.
The sterile walls of the lawyer's office seemed to echo with the heaviness of their broken home.
J/m and J/k sat across from each other, their eyes avoiding the painful reality that awaited them.
#jikookau
The silence hung between them like an unbridgeable chasm, filled with the weight of their shared memories.
It dawned on them that once they signed those papers, they no longer would be tied by the vows they once promised 5 years ago.
The silence hung between them like an unbridgeable chasm, filled with the weight of their shared memories.
It dawned on them that once they signed those papers, they no longer would be tied by the vows they once promised 5 years ago.
#jikookau
J/k flinched when he glanced at the glaring documents in front of him.
He had to sign, then walk away without looking back at the person he had come to associate with home.
J/k flinched when he glanced at the glaring documents in front of him.
He had to sign, then walk away without looking back at the person he had come to associate with home.
#jikookau
J/k's voice trembled as he finally spoke, his words laced with a mixture of resignation and heartache.
"J/m..., signing these papers." He swallowed “I can’t. I don’t think j can do this.”
J/k's voice trembled as he finally spoke, his words laced with a mixture of resignation and heartache.
"J/m..., signing these papers." He swallowed “I can’t. I don’t think j can do this.”
#jikookau
J/m's eyes glistened with unshed tears, his voice laced with aching regret and shreds of confusion.
"J/k, I... We’ve talked about this. I.."
J/m's eyes glistened with unshed tears, his voice laced with aching regret and shreds of confusion.
"J/k, I... We’ve talked about this. I.."
#jikookau
J/k's breath hitched. A tear rolled down his strained cheek, his heart breaking as he finished what J/m was about to say.
"You don’t love me anymore."
J/k's breath hitched. A tear rolled down his strained cheek, his heart breaking as he finished what J/m was about to say.
"You don’t love me anymore."
#jikookau
J/m's voice cracked, tears streaming down his face as he struggled to maintain his composure.
"I…” He couldn’t utter those forbidden words.
Something within his core was dejected at the idea of pouring them.
He hadn’t said them the first time they talked.
J/m's voice cracked, tears streaming down his face as he struggled to maintain his composure.
"I…” He couldn’t utter those forbidden words.
Something within his core was dejected at the idea of pouring them.
He hadn’t said them the first time they talked.
#jikookau
He couldn’t now. He could never. It was unfair and he knew it.
But, acid cloyed his tasting puds thinking of saying them.
He resigned to nodding.
He couldn’t now. He could never. It was unfair and he knew it.
But, acid cloyed his tasting puds thinking of saying them.
He resigned to nodding.
#jikookau
J/k reached out, his hand trembling as he touched J/m's.
J/m stared down at their hands for a moment.
Waiting for the old tingling to spark.
Waiting for the old consuming urge to cloud j/k’s body with his, to bloom.
J/k reached out, his hand trembling as he touched J/m's.
J/m stared down at their hands for a moment.
Waiting for the old tingling to spark.
Waiting for the old consuming urge to cloud j/k’s body with his, to bloom.
#jikookau
He waited, and waited for something, for anything that could stop this madness and take his husband with him back home. Their home.
However, he only felt a dull headache curling at the back of his head.
He subconsciously clenched J/k’s hand.
He waited, and waited for something, for anything that could stop this madness and take his husband with him back home. Their home.
However, he only felt a dull headache curling at the back of his head.
He subconsciously clenched J/k’s hand.
#jikookau
He had been having those painful episodes for a while now. Sometimes the pain was unbearable. Not today.
Their hands remained entwined, the warmth of their touch a reminder of what they were losing.
He had been having those painful episodes for a while now. Sometimes the pain was unbearable. Not today.
Their hands remained entwined, the warmth of their touch a reminder of what they were losing.
#jikookau
The lawyer's voice seemed distant as they listened to the legalities, the cold reality of divorce forming a stark contrast to the warmth and tenderness that once defined their relationship.
Their lawyer slipped out of the office, to give them some privacy.
The lawyer's voice seemed distant as they listened to the legalities, the cold reality of divorce forming a stark contrast to the warmth and tenderness that once defined their relationship.
Their lawyer slipped out of the office, to give them some privacy.
#jikookau
J/k's voice quivered with raw emotion as he looked into J/m's eyes, his voice filled with longing.
"It’s weird to think I’m the only one holding onto our once-shared love."
“We’re holding hands. I feel everything. But, you feel nothing.”
J/k's voice quivered with raw emotion as he looked into J/m's eyes, his voice filled with longing.
"It’s weird to think I’m the only one holding onto our once-shared love."
“We’re holding hands. I feel everything. But, you feel nothing.”
#jikookau
Jimin's heart shattered further, the pain etched across his face as he struggled to find the right words.
“I’m sorry. I wish I had better words to say. I’m sorry. I hate myself for... For breaking my vows."
Jimin's heart shattered further, the pain etched across his face as he struggled to find the right words.
“I’m sorry. I wish I had better words to say. I’m sorry. I hate myself for... For breaking my vows."
#jikookau
He fought back the wave of tears, his heart torn between their shared past and the reality of their present.
He drowned them.
He fought back the wave of tears, his heart torn between their shared past and the reality of their present.
He drowned them.
#jikookau
A sob escaped J/k's lips, his body trembling with grief. “Y gave me the best 5years of my life. You’ve been the best husband I could ever ask for. I’m not walking away from this marriage empty-handed. I’m walking away with memories worth living the rest of my life for"
A sob escaped J/k's lips, his body trembling with grief. “Y gave me the best 5years of my life. You’ve been the best husband I could ever ask for. I’m not walking away from this marriage empty-handed. I’m walking away with memories worth living the rest of my life for"
#jikookau
J/m's tears spilled over, his voice a broken whisper.
“J/k-ah don’t say such words when I tore us apart. When I broke your fragile heart. Please don’t when I’m about to sign our fallout.”
J/m's tears spilled over, his voice a broken whisper.
“J/k-ah don’t say such words when I tore us apart. When I broke your fragile heart. Please don’t when I’m about to sign our fallout.”
#jikookau
He averted his eyes having not the courage to meet the gut-gripping longing and heart wrenching pain in j/k’s eyes.
He averted his eyes having not the courage to meet the gut-gripping longing and heart wrenching pain in j/k’s eyes.
#jikookau
“Look at me Hyung.” J/k pleaded. He desperately needed to look at those moon-shaped eyes one last time.
When J/m shook his head, tears flowed like tides.
“Please. J/m-ah.”
“Look at me Hyung.” J/k pleaded. He desperately needed to look at those moon-shaped eyes one last time.
When J/m shook his head, tears flowed like tides.
“Please. J/m-ah.”
#jikookau
J/m slowly lifted his soaked face. After all, he still was unimmune to J/k’s vulnerability.
“I love you. It doesn’t matter if you don’t love me anymore. It matters that you loved me once.”
J/m slowly lifted his soaked face. After all, he still was unimmune to J/k’s vulnerability.
“I love you. It doesn’t matter if you don’t love me anymore. It matters that you loved me once.”
#jikookau
J/m couldn’t take it anymore. He lurched pulling J/k onto a bone crushing hug.
The world was so cruel. So damn cruel J/m cursed.
J/m couldn’t take it anymore. He lurched pulling J/k onto a bone crushing hug.
The world was so cruel. So damn cruel J/m cursed.
#jikookau
With trembling hands they signed the divorce documents, the sound of the pen against the paper resonated like a finality neither of them was prepared for.
They held onto each other, their tears mingling, as the weight of their decision settled upon their hearts.
With trembling hands they signed the divorce documents, the sound of the pen against the paper resonated like a finality neither of them was prepared for.
They held onto each other, their tears mingling, as the weight of their decision settled upon their hearts.
#jikookau
In that sterile office, amidst the fragments of their shattered love, they stamped goodbye to what they once were.
It was a heartbreaking farewell, a painful acknowledgment that their paths had diverged, and they had to find solace in separate journeys.
In that sterile office, amidst the fragments of their shattered love, they stamped goodbye to what they once were.
It was a heartbreaking farewell, a painful acknowledgment that their paths had diverged, and they had to find solace in separate journeys.
#jikookau
And as they left the lawyer's office, their hands slipping away from each other's grasp, the emptiness engulfed them, leaving only the remnants of a love that had become a casualty of their own undoing.
And as they left the lawyer's office, their hands slipping away from each other's grasp, the emptiness engulfed them, leaving only the remnants of a love that had become a casualty of their own undoing.
#jikookau
J/k's heart felt hollow, shattered by the realization that he won’t go back home with the person he had loved so fiercely.
His ex-husband no longer loved him. What a joke of a fate?
J/k's heart felt hollow, shattered by the realization that he won’t go back home with the person he had loved so fiercely.
His ex-husband no longer loved him. What a joke of a fate?
#jikookau
J/m, burdened by guilt and sorrow, couldn't help but steal glances at J/k’s back retreating, his ex-husband, as they walked away from what was once their shared future. The pain in their eyes mirrored the shattered pieces of their love, forever etched into their souls.
J/m, burdened by guilt and sorrow, couldn't help but steal glances at J/k’s back retreating, his ex-husband, as they walked away from what was once their shared future. The pain in their eyes mirrored the shattered pieces of their love, forever etched into their souls.
#jikookau
At that moment, they understood that even though they had chosen separate paths, the remnants of their broken hearts would forever ache for what they had lost.
At that moment, they understood that even though they had chosen separate paths, the remnants of their broken hearts would forever ache for what they had lost.
#jikookau
A painful acceptance that sometimes love, no matter how deep, could fade away, leaving nothing but a bittersweet memory in its wake.
A painful acceptance that sometimes love, no matter how deep, could fade away, leaving nothing but a bittersweet memory in its wake.
#jikookau
Years later. Years later, j/m was right.
He didn't fall in love with someone else.
His heart had been locked and the keys were somewhere else with his planetoid.
Years later. Years later, j/m was right.
He didn't fall in love with someone else.
His heart had been locked and the keys were somewhere else with his planetoid.
#jikookau
He hadn't heard much news about his ex-husband's whereabouts, but words travel, and he was content to hear that he moved one.
He was happily raising a cute daughter as a single father.
He hadn't heard much news about his ex-husband's whereabouts, but words travel, and he was content to hear that he moved one.
He was happily raising a cute daughter as a single father.
#jikookau
If he coincidently saw them from afar, he teared up. No one had to know!
Happy ever after shouldn't be the norm. Learning how to be happy on your own was the norm.
They were ♡
If he coincidently saw them from afar, he teared up. No one had to know!
Happy ever after shouldn't be the norm. Learning how to be happy on your own was the norm.
They were ♡
↬For those who prefer sad ending, even though I don't consider this a sad one, you can quit reading here. For those who want the happy ending, keep reading ♡
#jikookau
In a bustling city, where memories and emotions collide, there stood two figures, J/m and J/k, whose lives had once been intertwined and collapsed because of one sided love.
In a bustling city, where memories and emotions collide, there stood two figures, J/m and J/k, whose lives had once been intertwined and collapsed because of one sided love.
#jikookau
But fate had dealt them a cruel hand, for J/m had unknowingly been struck by a rare neurological condition that began to erode his emotions, including his love for his ex-husband. He hadn’t known. J/k hadn’t known. After their divorce, J/m started showing symptoms.
But fate had dealt them a cruel hand, for J/m had unknowingly been struck by a rare neurological condition that began to erode his emotions, including his love for his ex-husband. He hadn’t known. J/k hadn’t known. After their divorce, J/m started showing symptoms.
#jikookau
They went from mild to extreme. After the diagnosis, he was informed that the neurons of the frontal lobe of his brain were damaged. The world was laughable. Because, of course, the area that managed his emotions was damaged.
They went from mild to extreme. After the diagnosis, he was informed that the neurons of the frontal lobe of his brain were damaged. The world was laughable. Because, of course, the area that managed his emotions was damaged.
#jikookau
The frontal lobes were considered the behavior and emotional control center and home of personalities. Of course, it was damaged.
Of course, unknowingly his entire marriage fell upon that.
The frontal lobes were considered the behavior and emotional control center and home of personalities. Of course, it was damaged.
Of course, unknowingly his entire marriage fell upon that.
#jikookau
Life had taken its toll on both of them.
As they coincidentally crossed paths at a crowded street.
Life had taken its toll on both of them.
As they coincidentally crossed paths at a crowded street.
#jikookau
J/k searched the crowd, desperately trying to catch a glimpse of his daughter Dae.
When he caught the sight of her pink hair ribbon, he sagged in relief. She can be a handful when she was excited.
J/k searched the crowd, desperately trying to catch a glimpse of his daughter Dae.
When he caught the sight of her pink hair ribbon, he sagged in relief. She can be a handful when she was excited.
#jikookau
He jogged and dropped to her eye level fretting “Dae-ah what did Appa say about running around in a crowded place?”
He hated scolding his daughter but he only had her.
Even though he knew his baby was smart, and clever yet in his eyes, she was fragile.
He jogged and dropped to her eye level fretting “Dae-ah what did Appa say about running around in a crowded place?”
He hated scolding his daughter but he only had her.
Even though he knew his baby was smart, and clever yet in his eyes, she was fragile.
#jikookau
Lost in his thoughts, J/k didn't even notice a familiar figure kneeling beside Dae, dusting off her dress. When he finally lifted his eyes, his breath caught in his throat.
There, before him, was J/m.
Lost in his thoughts, J/k didn't even notice a familiar figure kneeling beside Dae, dusting off her dress. When he finally lifted his eyes, his breath caught in his throat.
There, before him, was J/m.
#jikookau
It had been years since they last saw each other, since their love had crumbled and shattered their lives. Since he signed the faraway papers.
He hadn't seen j/m since then, nor did ask about his whereabouts. His friends kept the news to themselves. He was grateful.
It had been years since they last saw each other, since their love had crumbled and shattered their lives. Since he signed the faraway papers.
He hadn't seen j/m since then, nor did ask about his whereabouts. His friends kept the news to themselves. He was grateful.
#jikookau
J/m's heart fluttered with a mix of anticipation and trepidation.
J/k's heart raced with a whirlwind of emotions. The hurt, the fear, and the longing all came rushing back in an instant.
He felt a lump forming in his throat as he struggled to regain his composure.
J/m's heart fluttered with a mix of anticipation and trepidation.
J/k's heart raced with a whirlwind of emotions. The hurt, the fear, and the longing all came rushing back in an instant.
He felt a lump forming in his throat as he struggled to regain his composure.
#jikookau
I... I'm sorry," J/k stammered, his voice trembling. "My daughter can be a clumsy mess sometimes."
J/m's filled with a mix of surprise and sadness, he gently shook his head. "No, it's fine. It reminds me of someone."
I... I'm sorry," J/k stammered, his voice trembling. "My daughter can be a clumsy mess sometimes."
J/m's filled with a mix of surprise and sadness, he gently shook his head. "No, it's fine. It reminds me of someone."
#jikookau
His voice carried a hint of longing, echoing the pain both of them had endured.
J/m didn’t even comment on J/k’s daughter's name. But, he noticed the flicker of recognition in his eyes.
His voice carried a hint of longing, echoing the pain both of them had endured.
J/m didn’t even comment on J/k’s daughter's name. But, he noticed the flicker of recognition in his eyes.
#jikookau
J/k's eyes welled up with tears, and he couldn't tear his gaze away from J/m, squeezing his daughter’s tiny hand to ground himself.
The years had changed them both, etching lines of experience on their faces, but the connection they once had remained unbroken.
J/k's eyes welled up with tears, and he couldn't tear his gaze away from J/m, squeezing his daughter’s tiny hand to ground himself.
The years had changed them both, etching lines of experience on their faces, but the connection they once had remained unbroken.
#jikookau
Before J/k could turn away and retreat from the painful memories, J/m impulsively reached out, catching his wrist gently yet firmly. "Can we talk? " he pleaded "please" his voice barely above a whisper.
Before J/k could turn away and retreat from the painful memories, J/m impulsively reached out, catching his wrist gently yet firmly. "Can we talk? " he pleaded "please" his voice barely above a whisper.
#jikookau
J/k hesitated, but something in J/'s eyes stirred an old tenderness within him.
He nodded, not trusting his voice. He stared down at Dae who was busy ogling at j/m with her adorable eyes. He couldn’t blame her, his ex-husband was beautiful.
J/k hesitated, but something in J/'s eyes stirred an old tenderness within him.
He nodded, not trusting his voice. He stared down at Dae who was busy ogling at j/m with her adorable eyes. He couldn’t blame her, his ex-husband was beautiful.
#jikookau
He kneeled pecking her forehead and picked her up in his arms.
“Stop baby. It’s rude to stare at people”. He should have known better. Dae was a stubborn child
“but Appa, he’s so pretty”. She pouted. J/k could hear J/m chuckle beside him.
He kneeled pecking her forehead and picked her up in his arms.
“Stop baby. It’s rude to stare at people”. He should have known better. Dae was a stubborn child
“but Appa, he’s so pretty”. She pouted. J/k could hear J/m chuckle beside him.
#jikookau
“Thank you, angel. You know who’s prettier?”
Dae shook her adorable face, making her fringe swirl. “You,” J/m told her.
His daughter blushed burying her red face in the crook of j/k’s neck.
“Thank you, angel. You know who’s prettier?”
Dae shook her adorable face, making her fringe swirl. “You,” J/m told her.
His daughter blushed burying her red face in the crook of j/k’s neck.
#jikookau
They found a quiet corner in the café, away from prying eyes. Dae sat quietly munching on her cheesecake, sensing the tension but unaware of the history between her father and the man who had caught her attention.
J/m took a deep breath and asked “How have you been?”
They found a quiet corner in the café, away from prying eyes. Dae sat quietly munching on her cheesecake, sensing the tension but unaware of the history between her father and the man who had caught her attention.
J/m took a deep breath and asked “How have you been?”
#jikookau
J/k just shrugged looking out the window “Good. How about you?”
J/m for the love of God couldn’t steer his eyes away from j/k’s grim side profile “Good.” He weakly answered.
J/k just shrugged looking out the window “Good. How about you?”
J/m for the love of God couldn’t steer his eyes away from j/k’s grim side profile “Good.” He weakly answered.
#jikookau
J.k turned around scrunching his nose “You hated wearing beanies.” He pointed at the black beany J/m was wearing on such a warm spring day.
J/m stiffened. His hand went clammy. This is why he wanted to talk to J/k.
J.k turned around scrunching his nose “You hated wearing beanies.” He pointed at the black beany J/m was wearing on such a warm spring day.
J/m stiffened. His hand went clammy. This is why he wanted to talk to J/k.
#jikookau
Suddenly what sounded like a good idea, started to sound bad.
Gathering his thoughts. He decided to be truthful.
He owed J/k that much "J/k-ah, there's something I need to tell you.”
Suddenly what sounded like a good idea, started to sound bad.
Gathering his thoughts. He decided to be truthful.
He owed J/k that much "J/k-ah, there's something I need to tell you.”
#jikookau
J/k looked at Dae as she nursed on her apple juice. J/k's eyes narrowed with confusion, “I’m listening.”
J/m glanced at the little girl standing beside J/k, her eyes filled with innocent wonder. He mustered a weak smile before turning his gaze back to j/k.
J/k looked at Dae as she nursed on her apple juice. J/k's eyes narrowed with confusion, “I’m listening.”
J/m glanced at the little girl standing beside J/k, her eyes filled with innocent wonder. He mustered a weak smile before turning his gaze back to j/k.
#jikookau
He gulped, his voice filled with vulnerability “After our divorce, I... I was diagnosed with a neurological defect. It affected my emotional control system.”
J/k's eyebrows furrowed, concern etched across his face. His heart dropped. "What... What does that mean?"
He gulped, his voice filled with vulnerability “After our divorce, I... I was diagnosed with a neurological defect. It affected my emotional control system.”
J/k's eyebrows furrowed, concern etched across his face. His heart dropped. "What... What does that mean?"
#jikookau
J/m's eyes glistened with unshed tears as he explained. "I didn't fully comprehend the extent of it myself, J/k. It took me time to understand. How it affected my feelings, and why I thought I never felt the same way about you. About us.”
J/m's eyes glistened with unshed tears as he explained. "I didn't fully comprehend the extent of it myself, J/k. It took me time to understand. How it affected my feelings, and why I thought I never felt the same way about you. About us.”
#jikookau
J/k's breath hitched in his throat, his eyes locking with J/m's.
The longing that had been buried deep within his heart resurfaced, mixing with a blend of worry, pity, anger, frustration, and trepidation.
What the f/uck happened to you when I was gone.
J/k's breath hitched in his throat, his eyes locking with J/m's.
The longing that had been buried deep within his heart resurfaced, mixing with a blend of worry, pity, anger, frustration, and trepidation.
What the f/uck happened to you when I was gone.
#jikookau
"J/m... I… Why now. I.. Did you get help. Are you okay? Is this why you’re wearing the beanie. I don't understand. Please explain"
A mixture of empathy, sadness, and pain flooded his features. He itched to hold him to scan him head to toe searching for any injury.
"J/m... I… Why now. I.. Did you get help. Are you okay? Is this why you’re wearing the beanie. I don't understand. Please explain"
A mixture of empathy, sadness, and pain flooded his features. He itched to hold him to scan him head to toe searching for any injury.
#jikookau
After all of those years, j/k was still preening, pinning, worrying, caring, and loving.
He was worried sick. He felt sick at the thought of j/m being vulnerable. Weak. Alone. While regret ate him. He must have suffered loads & j/k felt a surge of over protectiveness
After all of those years, j/k was still preening, pinning, worrying, caring, and loving.
He was worried sick. He felt sick at the thought of j/m being vulnerable. Weak. Alone. While regret ate him. He must have suffered loads & j/k felt a surge of over protectiveness
#jikookau
J/m was about to reassure J/k but he was interrupted as Dae tugged at J/k's sleeve, her innocence cutting through the heaviness in the air. "Appa, who is he?"
J/m was about to reassure J/k but he was interrupted as Dae tugged at J/k's sleeve, her innocence cutting through the heaviness in the air. "Appa, who is he?"
#jikookau
J/k sniffled and shifted his gaze to his daughter, and a bittersweet smile curved his lips. "Dae, this is J/m. He... he used to be a very special person in my life."
J/k sniffled and shifted his gaze to his daughter, and a bittersweet smile curved his lips. "Dae, this is J/m. He... he used to be a very special person in my life."
#jikookau
J/m at the word "used." Yet, his eyes softened as he looked at the little girl, a wistful expression crossing his face. "Hello, Dae again. You’re lucky. Your Appa is a great man."
J/m at the word "used." Yet, his eyes softened as he looked at the little girl, a wistful expression crossing his face. "Hello, Dae again. You’re lucky. Your Appa is a great man."
#jikookau
The little one looked at him intensely “I know. He’s the best.”
As their eyes met, a silent understanding passed between J/k and J/m. The pain of the past, the regret, and the longing were still there, but so was the possibility of healing. Right?
The little one looked at him intensely “I know. He’s the best.”
As their eyes met, a silent understanding passed between J/k and J/m. The pain of the past, the regret, and the longing were still there, but so was the possibility of healing. Right?
#jikookau
And at that moment, surrounded by the shattered remnants of their love, and misunderstanding, they knew that some connections were too strong to be severed completely.
And at that moment, surrounded by the shattered remnants of their love, and misunderstanding, they knew that some connections were too strong to be severed completely.
#jikookau
Dae tilted her head curiously, sensing the weight of the emotions in the air. She looked from her father to J/m and back again, her innocent gaze filled with curiosity.
J/k mustered a small smile, his heart swelling with a mix of emotions.
Dae tilted her head curiously, sensing the weight of the emotions in the air. She looked from her father to J/m and back again, her innocent gaze filled with curiosity.
J/k mustered a small smile, his heart swelling with a mix of emotions.
#jikookau
"Dae, J/m, and I used to be very close. Remember when I told you I had someone special." she nodded eagerly "it was j/m.. We.. We were married once."
He explained clutching the band necklace around his neck.
"Dae, J/m, and I used to be very close. Remember when I told you I had someone special." she nodded eagerly "it was j/m.. We.. We were married once."
He explained clutching the band necklace around his neck.
#jikookau
J/k noticed their wedding band circling J/m’s finger and his heart clenched painfully inside his chest, a rugged breath escaped him.
J/m's eyes never left Dae, his voice barely above a whisper. "Your Appa and I shared something special, but I broke my promises."
J/k noticed their wedding band circling J/m’s finger and his heart clenched painfully inside his chest, a rugged breath escaped him.
J/m's eyes never left Dae, his voice barely above a whisper. "Your Appa and I shared something special, but I broke my promises."
#jikookau
Dae's eyes widened, and she turned her attention to J/m, her voice filled with innocence and sincerity. "Did you love my Appa?"
Dae's eyes widened, and she turned her attention to J/m, her voice filled with innocence and sincerity. "Did you love my Appa?"
#jikookau
A single tear escaped J/m's eye as he nodded, his voice trembling with emotion. "Yes, Dae. I loved your Appa with all my heart. I still do."
J/k felt a lump forming in his throat as he watched the exchange between J/m and his daughter.
A single tear escaped J/m's eye as he nodded, his voice trembling with emotion. "Yes, Dae. I loved your Appa with all my heart. I still do."
J/k felt a lump forming in his throat as he watched the exchange between J/m and his daughter.
#jikookau
It was a painful reminder of what they had lost, but also a glimmer of hope for what could still be salvaged.
He could right?
It was a painful reminder of what they had lost, but also a glimmer of hope for what could still be salvaged.
He could right?
#jikookau
Dae's small warm hand reached out, touching JM's cheek with gentle curiosity. "Don't cry. Appa told me once he loves someone too much after me."
Those words hung in the air, heavy with the weight of truth and longing. She was a smart kid.
Dae's small warm hand reached out, touching JM's cheek with gentle curiosity. "Don't cry. Appa told me once he loves someone too much after me."
Those words hung in the air, heavy with the weight of truth and longing. She was a smart kid.
#jikookau
J/k's heart swelled with a mix of gratitude and regret as he looked at his daughter, realizing that even in her innocence, she had sensed the depth of their connection. He had told her so many stories about j/m. Because she simwtimes caught him zoning out, or crying.
J/k's heart swelled with a mix of gratitude and regret as he looked at his daughter, realizing that even in her innocence, she had sensed the depth of their connection. He had told her so many stories about j/m. Because she simwtimes caught him zoning out, or crying.
#jikookau
J/m's tears turned into a bittersweet smile as he took Dae's tiny hand in his own. "Thank you, Dae. Your words mean more to me than you'll ever know."
J/m's tears turned into a bittersweet smile as he took Dae's tiny hand in his own. "Thank you, Dae. Your words mean more to me than you'll ever know."
#jikookau
As their eyes met again, J/k and J/m could no longer ignore the pull of their shared past.
The pain and heartbreak felt overwhelming, but so did the possibility of rebuilding what they had once lost. No, it wasn't jumping. They had a long way. A long bumpy one.
As their eyes met again, J/k and J/m could no longer ignore the pull of their shared past.
The pain and heartbreak felt overwhelming, but so did the possibility of rebuilding what they had once lost. No, it wasn't jumping. They had a long way. A long bumpy one.
#jikookau
Jimin's grip tightened around Dae's hand as he glanced at her, then back at J/k. "I know I have no right to ask this. Can we..." The unsaid words hanging in the air.
He didn't want to a rebound. He genuinely felt like he was getting to know j/k all over again.
Jimin's grip tightened around Dae's hand as he glanced at her, then back at J/k. "I know I have no right to ask this. Can we..." The unsaid words hanging in the air.
He didn't want to a rebound. He genuinely felt like he was getting to know j/k all over again.
#jikookau
Tears streamed down J/k's face as he reached across the table, his hand trembling as it found its way to J/m's. “Give me some time to think about it.”
Tears streamed down J/k's face as he reached across the table, his hand trembling as it found its way to J/m's. “Give me some time to think about it.”
#jikookau
J/m nodded, a mixture of hope and uncertainty reflected in his eyes.
"I'm willing to wait for an eternity. I’ll respect whatever decision you make. No pressure j/k-ah. It's your call."
J/m nodded, a mixture of hope and uncertainty reflected in his eyes.
"I'm willing to wait for an eternity. I’ll respect whatever decision you make. No pressure j/k-ah. It's your call."
#jikookau
And with that, they both knew that this encounter was not a mere coincidence but a second chance, an opportunity to mend what had been broken. The road ahead would be challenging, filled with ups and downs, but the love that had once bound them together may reborn.
And with that, they both knew that this encounter was not a mere coincidence but a second chance, an opportunity to mend what had been broken. The road ahead would be challenging, filled with ups and downs, but the love that had once bound them together may reborn.
#jikookau
As they sat there, hands clasped, Dae looking on with innocent wonder, they knew that their journey toward healing and rediscovering their love had just begun. And perhaps, with time and perseverance, their hearts would find solace in each other once more.
The end ♡
As they sat there, hands clasped, Dae looking on with innocent wonder, they knew that their journey toward healing and rediscovering their love had just begun. And perhaps, with time and perseverance, their hearts would find solace in each other once more.
The end ♡
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