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Ableist Things Autistic People May Internalise About Ourselves…
#Autistic #Autism #Neurodivergent #Neurodiversity #Disabled #Disability All slides have a green background with black text. All slides have my username @neurodivergent_lou in the bottom left hand corner. Slide 1: Text reads - Ableist things autistic people may internalise about ourselves.
Slide 2: Text reads- 'I can't communicate my thoughts properly. My way of communicating is not good enough.' I had so many thoughts in my brain and they just weren't coming out how I wanted them too, when I tried to communicate. I would sometimes be accused of being rude or short with people, when in fact, I was just trying to be clear and direct. I think that it is okay to recognise that I sometimes struggle to communicate but I also need to remember that communication is a two way process and the other person has equal responsibility.
Slide 3: Text reads- learn to give myself grace. 'I should just be able to control myself.' Before I knew that I was autistic, I felt like I should just be able to control my meltdowns and shutdowns, even though I really couldn't. I felt like I should be able to supress my stims. This was part of what society told me about how to act, to supress things and to just sit still. I realise now that these things were not personality flaws or things that I should 'just be able to control'. It is so much more complicated than I initially thought and I have had to learn to give myself grace.
Slide 4: Text reads - 'I am too lazy.' As an autistic person, I used to think that the reason why I couldn't get things done was because I was lazy. In reality, this was a narrative that I had internalised from society, but it was not the truth. I was actually really struggling with executive functioning and anxiety. I found it difficult to know the steps to tasks and I struggled to initiate tasks, even when I desperately wanted to do the task. It was not laziness, I was just struggling.
Slide 5: Text reads- 'I am too needy for other people.' I have often been told that my needs were too much, whether that was me asking too many questions or whether I was asking for reasonable adjustments. I realise now, even though it is still a massive battle, I am not 'too much', whatever too much even means. Part of this, for me, was recognising that I am existing in a world that fundamentally wasn't built for me. I am doing my best and am valid in who I am.
Slide 6: Text reads- 'I am a broken neurotypical person.' When I first was identified as autistic, I genuinely felt like a broken version of a non autistic person. It really hurt. Being autistic made me feel like other people were marking my life as 'less than' and 'not as worthy.' And although, I don't feel that way now, we are often drip fed the idea that autistic people were automatically less than. I have slowly been learning to recognise my autistic identity as an identity and to value myself just for who I am.
Slide 7: Text reads- 'I can't do things right.' It felt like everything that I did was not good enough and not right, no matter how much I tried. I could see other people achieving things much more easily, when things would be so difficult for me. It really made me feel confused. It made me feel like every single thing that I did, was not right and this meant that I internalised this feeling.
Slide 7: Text reads- Ableist Things Autistic People Internalise About Ourselves. I can't communicate my thoughts properly. I should just be able to control myself. I am too needy for other people. I am too lazy. I am a broken neurotypical person. I can't do things right.
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