As a woman, nothing will ever prepare you for the pain of being in love with someone who views you as a wife and mother but NOT a sexual being. They completely disregard that at a point, you were a sexual being before becoming a mother or wife .
They can't see you in lingerie. They prefer seeing you close your laptop, read the Bible and come straight to bed and call it a night.
Meanwhile in your head, you want him to say "pause work a bit, I miss you."
If you are lucky enough and he attempts to make love, he wants to do it the Christian way of let's go to bed and keep it in one position.
Meanwhile in your head, you want to be hung on the chandelier and choked.