I realised due to lack of awareness on my neurodiversity, I seem to have my year divided into social quaters.
For 2 months I am all masking and trying to get comfortable. And reach a point where I get way too comfortable and mess up and hush back to month long flashback and guilt
And this phase makes me question who I really am. What my true nature is.
I feel extremely guilty of how much I have hurt myself. How vulnerable I am. How I don't have any Identity to depend on.