you don’t want connection, you want attention. You don’t want to feel valued, you just want to feel wanted. You crave intimacy but refuse to do the emotional work required to actually show up. Show up as you. There’s a difference. You’re not lost. You’re disconnected. - The problem isn’t that you’re invisible. The problem is you refuse to show up. You want change, but you don’t want to change. You want healing, but you won’t leave the comfort of your own chaos. You keep throwing yourself out of the damn boat, then crying about drowning.

Stop lying to yourself. You don’t actually want to get better. If you did, it would show. Your habits prove you’re a liar. You want people to comfort you, to nod their head, to tell you “it’s okay” while you recycle the same excuses over and over again. You don’t - Accountability, you want sympathy. You don’t want growth you want comfort. And the truth is, you’ve confused being “on a journey” with actually changing. To the point some of you would hop around from apartment to apartment, state to state , partner to partner

You keep chasing the next high • the next distraction, the next outing, the next favor for someone else because deep down, if you stopped…
you’d have to face how unfulfilled you really feel.

You say “I’m just grinding,”
but your goals haven’t moved in months.
You say - “ I’m just being social,”
but none of those people really know you. Rarely & those that “do” don’t really like you for many . As I saw but you’ll find out
You say “I’m just living life,”
but everything still feels…empty.

That’s not your friend

That friend who always thinks someone’s mad at them, always assuming they’re being left out or disliked? That’s not just insecurity that’s a walking trigger and a deep shame wound

and if you’re not careful, you’ll spend years being their emotional caretaker while they drain the life out of every connection around you. Funny some people think it’s just romantic where this happens - which I did see however there’s friendships as well or one sided ones

You’re not asking for connection —
you’re asking someone to rescue you from yourself. Honey, that’s becoming toxic & from what it looks like

You may not even see it that way because “ you want what you want!” However - You’re drained, they’re drained — because without knowing it,
you’ve made your partner the emotional parent you never had.
You don’t just want support.
You want them to prove, over and over again, that you’re worthy. Those father wounds honey - whewwww

here’s the part no one likes to admit:
If you’re only seeking people who agree with your pain, & you reject anyone who challenges your behavior! you’re not being vulnerable, you’re being manipulative

Because at some point, you stopped wanting support… and started needing Permission & validation that who you are & what you’re doing & allowing is “okay” -

“ no one else has a problem with it!”

“ it’s in my blood can’t help it!”

Save it

It’s your mom.
That’s why you’re mentally drained. That’s why you feel guilty for setting boundaries. That’s why you can’t tell the difference Every conversation feels like a mental game. You walk away feeling guilty, confused, or like you owe her something - You’re constantly overthinking how to say things so she doesn’t get upset. You replay her reactions in your head for hours. & when you try to take space, she makes you feel selfish. Even just her body language allow tells you all you need to know

You stay in relationships that drain you because you think helping people heal is love. You downplay your needs. You convince yourself you’re fine when you’re not.

If you had a mom who wasn’t emotionally present—who ignored your pain, dismissed your feelings, or made you feel like love had to be earned. you didn’t just “get over it.” You adapted. Even many of the female roles in your life- them being in your life wasn’t good. It didn’t help. It’s not. They can be there BUT NOT THERE & your role playing it

There’s a different kind of pain when you’ve lost so much not just people, but parts of yourself too. When you don’t have support, when you’ve been betrayed by the ones you trusted, you start to feel numb. You don’t really want to shut people out, but sometimes it’s safer that way.

You want to be open again. You want to trust again. But when the wounds are still fresh, it feels impossible.
It’s a risk & maybe right now you’re not ready for that risk. When the wound is fresh & you haven’t tended to that wound

Not having a mom who nurtured your uniqueness can seriously mess with your identity.

You stop asking, “What do I like?” and start asking, “What do they want me to be?”
That’s not just insecurity. That’s a wound
Shape shift into what ever fits & get attention — You become hyper-aware of people’s moods, constantly adjusting yourself to avoid rejection.

That’s what this wound does.
It’s not loud. It’s subtle.
It shows up in patterns you don’t question because they feel normal
This is how most my members usually find out

If you suffer from rumination, it’s your mind trying to resolve something it never felt safe enough to feel in the first place.

your nervous system got trained to overthink instead of process.
You replay the past or imagine worst-case scenarios not because you’re dramatic, but because some part of you is still trying to make sense of what hurt you—without actually touching the pain.

It’s a survival loop.

That’s causing you more agony than the freedom you claim

I know this hurts. The weight of being there for people who only see you as a lifeline—but never a priority—is heavy. You keep telling yourself that maybe one day, they’ll see you. Maybe one day, they’ll love you the way you love them. But how many ‘one days’ have passed? You’re not crazy for wanting to be loved without conditions. You’re not wrong for hoping your family would cherish you, not just need you. But love that only shows up when it’s convenient for them isn’t love

Air 🌴 Gemini, Libra, Aquarius
Rising ( FIRST ) Sun, moon, mars, merc, Venus + nodes

💌Soul Reading 💌

Peter 5:6-7 - Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that they may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on them because they care for you. You’ve heard this before but sometimes god has to reel it in harder into you! For you to see you were clearly struggling with putting yourself first for so long. That it’s almost just “normal” to not “feel” much & “see” in a way because I was never “important” anyways ( not true)

Did a session with a young woman & she asked “ who’s sending her the evil eye “

I looked her in the eye “ you are”

She was confused & I said you have deep wounds of inadequacy & because you don’t feel good at stuff you curse yourself - heal & you will change

But -> I had to tell her that many people have this problem. They curse themselves & because they don’t want to work on themselves inwards. Their actions compensate for the lack of inner awareness & change

They sabotage, hurt people, become bitter , & so on

Air signs; Gemini, Libra, Aquarius ♒️
Sun, moon ( tropical & sidereal )

🐛 SEANCE & THERAPY SESS ( READ DISCLAIMERS/ thread first! Not zee book to trigger your ego🌱

🌱 “ CAN I SHOW MY LOVE FOR YOU!”🌱

💕 Hola Mis amores - Welcome back tribe chickens to another session. These are PERFORMED! If you new just watch the YouTube video or ask the tribe how this works! That’s all Imma say! Idk what the other stuff is

Earth signs: Taurus. Virgo, Capricorn
Sun , moon, rising, ETC ( TROPICAL & sidereal )

Seance book + therapy session

“ THE SLOW DOWN, THE REVELATIONS, & NEED FOR ACCOUNTABILITY! Life is changing” Hello July 1st! 🌱 it’s early in the day - and y’all think your slick ! Nay!

Seance book is in here just like fire. But 🤷🏽‍♀️ let’s see if you catch it now - I don’t post it because way too many people are disconnected from self. Like triggers, wounds, inflated egos,

Fire signs: Aries, Leo, Sagittarius
Sun, moon, ETC ( tropical + Sidereal)

🌱 ALWAYS READ DISCLAIMERS 🌱

🔥FINDING STRENGTH IN VULNERABILITY & SAFETY IN LIFE! LEARN COMPASSION 🔥 So y’all think ya slick - and there’s way too many people who are disconnected from self - it’s like emotionaless which has been scarying me! Some just numb! So Imma do the readings like thisssss

Water signs : cancer, Scorpio, pisces
Sun, moon, ETC ( tropical + sidereal)

📰 Seance + therapy session ( eclipse year)

📰 PLEASE READ DISCLAIMER FIRST

🌊 CHANGE IS INEVITABLE BUT YOUR CHOICES WILL DETERMINE YOUR PATH

🌊 So i decided to add some confirmation for the overall! Y’all know I hate cards but wanted to “spice it up “

Seances are performed. Idk what that other stuff is! Alsooo yes! I say not to read the book only because one people with wounded egos trigger a lot or pick & choose

Fire signs : Aries , Leo , Sagittarius
Sun, moon, rising & Venus ( north node ) tropical & sidereal

Seance book - March 21st 2022

“ Things will be flowing again”

So, this was a little unexpected because right in the middle of filming today for you guys it was just an Abrupt pool & I’m sad because you guys were actually able to see the spirits in the video!

If you’re new! Welcome! I’m Akasha! This is my familia. My tribe chickens! & this is performed by meee c: welcome! The seance book is not something to pick & choose but it’s from

Just a thought c: How all of us tribe chickens have been with each other in all the chapters!

You guys were with me when I was homeless, doing readings in hotels , cars

I saw many of you get out of toxic relationships , jobs, build yourself!

We manifested my place together - I saw a lot of you, move to different states!

Some of you there when things went down never switched up! ( I pay attention )

1 year! Wow! We did that! I’m so proud of us! Proud of what we all do this year! Can’t wait to meet more of you!

Earth signs : Taurus, Virgo , Capricorn
Sun, moon, rising & Venus ( north node) tropical + sidereal

Seance book performed March 2022

“ Working through the Changes…. I think?”

Saved the best for last! Lmaooo now now! Let’s not - before the other tribe pollitos want to Catch a case. After performing this seance I got a bad headache for a minute! I even titled “ weird session”

If you’re new hola! All that can readddddd are welcomed 😭😭😂 my stuff is long but 🤷‍♂️