Quick thread: One of the things that's really bothering me about the MD quotes about our covid vax/menstrual experiences survey is how most of them say there is "no link," "no mechanism," or that it's "just stress."
I think this is coming from a good place - that MDs do not want to concern people nor add to the vaccine hesitancy that some are feeling. However in the long run this will have the opposite effect. Gaslighting patients and saying their experiences aren't real is paternalistic.
Not to mention misogynistic. There is also a difference between the menstrual cycle knowledge a practicing MD has over a PhD researcher like me. I am getting lots of emails from people who I immediately tell should see an MD because they are for diagnosis.
I often want to leave academia. The work I do has led to my being targeted by obsessive misogynists, getting speaking engagements but not job talks, and being left high and dry by people in power all too often.
This is a thread about why I stay.
I have at this point amassed a huge number of collaborators/colleagues/friends who are my generation or more junior, who are ten times the scholar I am and inspire me every day. They are my ride or die colleagues, we build better worlds together every day.
I have a small handful of senior women who I trust and have had my back, privately and publicly. They support, mentor, and sponsor me and I can be whiny and tired with them when I have to be impenetrable and perfect everywhere else.
In addition to the past practices of excluding women from vaccine and drug research, menstruators are rarely asked to consider if and whether their periods have been affected by a particular condition, treatment, or drug.
Some issues don't get studied or taken seriously until enough menstruators make the connections themselves, as with depression and hormonal contraceptives.
NEW PAPER ALERT! So proud of this one: "The Embodiment of Insult: A Theory of Biobehavioral Response to Workplace Incivility" with @LiliaCortina and @SandyHershcovis. This paper was years in the making as we met and theorized and wrote and wrote again.
The main contributions of this paper are that we: 1) theorize how workplace incivilities leave traces on the body. We offer our thinking on the relevant mechanisms - inflammation and HPA activation - as well as the limitations of some of the ways this is typically done.
2) We discuss the effects not only of the "uncivil moment" but how a target's response to that moment creates additional biological reverberations. Being able to achieve resolution is good for workplace relationships but also good for your body.
A colleague told me she has heard from others that their periods were heavy post-vax. I'm curious whether other menstruators have noticed changes too? I'm a week and a half out from dose 1 of Moderna, got my period maybe a day or so early, and am gushing like I'm in my 20s again.
I'm on day 3 of my period and am still swapping out extra long overnight pads a few times a day. Typical for me at this time is maybe one or two regular pads (though extra absorbent, Always Infinity ones) for the whole day.
Does this have to do with the way the vax response is mounting a broader inflammatory response, possibly moreso because of the lipid nanoparticle or mRNA mechanism? Either way I am fascinated! Inflammation + tissue remodeling = extra bleedypants!
In December I was listed as a potential witness in a lawsuit filed against Balter. This week I sent a Declaration to plaintiff and Balter’s attorneys asking Balter to stop intimidating, threatening and harassing me. uofi.box.com/s/e80qqrxancrs…
tl;dr page 1: I was asked to testify about my personal experiences with Mr. Balter and to provide an expert opinion, which I have done before.
tl;dr page 2: I was not asked, nor would I have offered testimony in support of the plaintiff’s conduct.
I don't have it in me to provide a nuanced take. So I'll say that the expectations on me as a WFH faculty require that I risk my family by sending our youngest to daycare. I feel like trash about it every day. I'm a caregiver from 6a-10p between students, colleagues, & kids.
So I may be working from home and therefore not on any vaccine list, but that doesn't mean work isn't forcing me and my family to take a major health risk.
And yes I feel terrible that I'm not one of those parents who can wake at 4am and then put in another shift at 9pm. My youngest can smell when I'm up, there is no time of day I can escape her.
I'm thinking a lot about institutional betrayal, a concept developed by @jjfreydcourage and collaborators, in the wake of multiple sudden university closures and the several, like my own, gearing up to open anyway.
I'm going to share a few quotes from Smith & Freyd 2014. I'm going to let you use your own interpretive lenses as you think about how you might apply institutional betrayal trauma theory in this pandemic.
Institutional betrayal is "trusted and powerful institutions (schools, churches, military, government) acting in ways that visit harm upon those dependent on them for safety and well-being." p. 575
Things that can set women up for failure, a short thread. 1. Talking about them as though they are going to solve your problem, at a public forum, where you haven't told them in advance that you will be leaning on them in that way.
2. Leaving them out to dry when someone in the public forum starts questioning whether this thing needs to be done.
3. Not giving this person any clear mission, funding line, or title, nor making that clear to the audience upon whom you have sprung this information. So this woman is just a voice in the crowd and no one knows whether she has real expertise or authority.
Incivility, defined as rude behaviors of ambiguous intent, are terrible for workplaces. People are less productive, and you even get more instances of sexual harassment. Bad stuff, right? Incivility is a lack of respect for your coworkers, a breach of professional conduct.
However: incivility, and civility, are context-specific. And like I said, it's rude and AMBIGUOUS. It instills unhappiness and uncertainty in its victims. What did I do? Why am I being targeted? Maybe I don't belong here.
Over the last many years I’ve gotten asked “what to do” when harassed. I will write something longer on this when I get a minute, but let me 1st help you think through a decision tree. This is going to be ruthless, as opposed to matching my beliefs about how th world should work.
This advice is also going to be VICTIM CENTERED. This means that I am NOT putting the burden of bringing perpetrators to justice on victims. That is the fundamental flaw of our current system.
We can talk about bringing perps to justice in a WHOLE OTHER THREAD someday. But please, STOP making victims do all this work because you feel bad about the perp in your department.