New thought about leaving the left: survivor’s guilt🧵

Those who leave the unconscious leftist media maze often experience:

1. Relief: stepping out of the matrix
2. Confusion: who was I? who am I now?
3. Guilt: knowing our fellow man, especially family, is still trapped inside Survivor’s guilt happens when you escape something harmful
but instead of pure relief, you feel grief.

You wonder:
-Why did I make it out and others didn’t?
-Could I have helped them?
-Do I deserve the freedom I now have?

It’s a mourning of the people still trapped.

🧵I am a detransitioner with
CPTSD from childhood abuse and medical mutilation.

For anyone reading, I hope this inspires solace and faith in a realistic recovery. 💪🙏❤️‍🩹

How healing went for me: 1. Deciding to live and not die

After years of grappling, I chose to live and stop fantasizing about suicide.

It sounds extreme, but healing began once I voluntarily took responsibility for being alive despite my resentment at suffering and Being. I was 22.

Every year I do an end of year review of my accomplishments.

It’s easy to focus on the negative or things you still have to improve in the new year—I suggest everyone make a detailed list (gratitude.) ☺️

Here’s my 2024 accomplishments and reflections🧵 January:
-Did stand up for the first time! Killed.
-Road tripped with friends especially @ChoooCole which was awesome and stayed in the coolest Airbnb that had an elevator

February:
-Wrote the majority of my memoir beginning here and by end of year am 3/4ths done with it!

I got this message asking how to heal from chronic self-hate.

I was suicidally depressed for half my life. I’m not anymore.

Here is my 🧵 on how I stopped hating myself: Self hate stems from shame.

We can’t go from self hate to self love. Trying to will be met with resistance from the inner critic; it sounds like lies.

So, we must go from self hate to self neutrality. Radical acceptance of Being and What Is without attaching moral judgements.

🧵This is me when I was trans and had my breasts cut off.

I’m posting this for the first time so people understand why I voted Trump.

This is happening to young women all over America. I know I’ll be ridiculed but I don’t care—retweet if you want this to stop: I was abused as a little girl by my father. Woke ideology told me if I hated myself I was trans.

That was a lie. I was always just an abused girl.

She didn’t deserve this.

🧵I’m a detransitioner endorsing Trump. My family who supported my transition (due to fear of suicide) is horrified.

I am posting this frustrating exchange with my mom to model setting and accepting boundaries for others in similar situations: My mom is embarrassed of my Trump vote and is being shamed by her sisters, two of whom sent nasty texts to me. She is also concerned about my memoir describing my childhood abuse from my father.

Excellent new report on detransition by detrans counselor at @BeyondTransHelp @VincentPsychSA who summarizes his work with male and female detransitioners.

The findings are fascinating case studies in trans psychology between the sexes. genspect.org/wp-content/upl… These are key findings from the detrans support group 2024, differences and similarities in male and female detransitioners.

PTSD occurs when the brain is overloaded with pain AND the brain cannot make sense of what happened.

A lot of PTSD triggers come from surprises--when things are unexpected or something happens suddenly.

We can't stop unexpected events, so healing triggers requires practicing calming the body both in predictable (calm) situations, and unpredictable (stressful) situations.

There will always be a natural flow of adrenaline to sudden changes, but we can train our bodies to be less tense and reactive to feeling adrenaline so our responses are present-focused, measured, and logical instead of memory-based, overwhelming, and emotional. Changing our reactivity to triggers happens in mere seconds. The moment we feel a rush of fear and tension in our bodies, we have a tiny moment to make a choice:

Do we cling to the sensation of fear, or release it?

It is natural to respond quickly to fear because it is a "threat." We evolved to do this. But with PTSD, many "threats" are just minor problems that aren't life or death.

The more time we give ourselves to pause before acting on fear the stronger our tolerance for uncomfortable situations and greater our capacity for self-soothing.

I Invite You to Read My Transition and Detransition Story... ⬇️

I was harmed by gender medicine and transition. At 15, I discovered transgender identity online. I was validated and affirmed by my high school’s Gay Straight Alliance Club, my college LGBT Center, my peers, and my doctors.

What is a trans child? Let’s examine a few ideas: 🧵⬇️ 1. Trans children are kids who feel uncomfortable in their bodies.

How is this different than any other human on the planet?

We’re all uncomfortable with our bodies, especially in development.

Boost 🚨

Etsy has f-cked with me for the last time. After banning my ‘Funky Human Female’ shirts last month, I’ve now received notice that my ‘De-Trans Awareness’ and ‘Believe De-Transitioners—First Do No Harm’ shirts are removed.

This is my Final Warning before my store will… https://t.co/wu8Z8rIm9rtwitter.com/i/web/status/1…


The full story: ⬇️

https://twitter.com/funkgodartist/status/1673822047217106946

🦎Revealing My Full De-Transition Story. 🧵

Read and share to help kids. My name is Laura Becker, and I’m a 26 year old de-transitioned woman.

From 16-21 I identified as #nonbinary

Yes, it IS about social outcasts getting special attention in a narcissistic manner (due to an internal void and lack of meaning.)

It is a pseudo way to feel unique, seen, respected, powerful, without earning it. It won’t create purpose. People who have felt alienated (often autistic, mentally ill, or who have attachment wounds) use gender labels and pronouns to gain social credit and feel empowered.

Being quirky (accompanied by shame from rejection) can now be transmuted into a positive attribute.

🧵Crucial Understanding of “The Trans Cult.” ⬇️ There are 2 different sects of trans people within the cult.

1. Those who believe in “gender identity” as a natural, innate metaphysical phenomena

2. Those who believe “gender dysphoria” is a unique, innate medical condition

🧵One thing that triggered me to take my 1st Twitter break was that my Etsy store has started being targeted by TRAs.

I received these harassing messages a day before most of my feminist listings were forcibly deactivated by Etsy for supposedly violating their policy.

All of these items, with only these 2 designs were deactivated by Etsy.
1. 100% Groovy, 100% Woman
2. Funky Human Female

Deep 🧵 on Healing from CPTSD and Making a Case For Forgiving Myself From Shame I just through a detailed analysis of the argument for forgiving myself for my poor choices and shameful behaviors during middle, high school, early college, and late college.

My conclusion is that I did the best I could at each stage for an immature kid with social emotional… twitter.com/i/web/status/1…

For me, the cptsd feels like I was repeatedly stabbed in the brain with a knife and parasites got in and nestled and I can’t get them out. And that I deserved it for being weak.

And that the last stabbing (rock bottom) opened up every other wound, and I just live with brain… twitter.com/i/web/status/1… Me coping: it adds to my lore. Another future dissertation of wisdom.

Mostly it’s a disability though.

Luckily I can still function in every other way and actually be successful. Because I’m not inherently flawed or broken, I thrive apart from the injuries I have which were… twitter.com/i/web/status/1…

My boyfriend is the space where expectation and reality meet humorously and tragically, the absurd longing for meaning and finding of entropy. My soulmate is the endless cycle of the mortal coil.

"Pride" has 2 different meanings. Acceptance of LGB people (good) and fetishistic queer theory promoting p*dophilia (bad.) This is a shirt for sale from multiple retailers featuring trans 'drag kid' Desmond is Amazing, it says "trans kids are sexy" #LGBWithoutTheT #Pride @Moms4Liberty @jordanbpeterson @MattWalshBlog @TuckerCarlson @RonDeSantis @ConceptualJames @benshapiro @billmaher @libsoftiktok @TPUSA @OliLondonTV

Watch the first ever Q&A panel discussion with 7 detransitioners filmed on Detrans Awareness Day 2023. 7 Detransitioners speak publicly and answer questions from the audience at a film screening of documentary Affirmation Generation; The Lies of Transgender Medicine. #DeTrans Discussed: Medical ethics of the gender affirmation model of care for gender dysphoria, and the untold harm personally endured by notable detransitioners @ChoooCole @onedonebun @BriWag91 @OfTheFutureArt @ShifterofShapes and myself. It was hosted by @OurDutyGrp, @2022affirmation

Yes, they knew what they had. Yes, they understood how you felt, yes, they didn’t care. They did not appreciate you, nor care about losing you. They treated you that way and left because that’s what vampires do. It’s not you not being good enough. Vampires use people who have loving and passionate energy to feed their power. They devalue you because they see people as pawns to use, and don’t feel genuine love or loyalty. They mimic what you do authentically and fake it until they get their fill, then callously leave.