A year ago today I made a decision. I left my house around 9pm, after researching to work out the 'least inconvenient' time.

I stood at the end of a platform and watched the lights approach, and I felt calm.

I was one step away. I felt the movement. The horn sounded. The driver stopped his train at the station. He got out. Despite my fears of delaying people, he stayed and he talked to me. He got a passenger to call the police. He told me he used to be a fireman, the impact incidents have.

I wish I knew his details, to thank him so much.