A thread.
Let's talk about OCD.

I am diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, as well as Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder, because I couldn't just have ONE aspect of it! I went full on to neurosis.

Know this, I love this community with every ounce of my heart. /1 I'm going into professional therapy this week because the stress is crippling me. I'm pretty sure I'm going to cry as I type this, because it is not something I typically share.

For most people I know, if they have something troubling them, they do what they can and move on. /2

I need to talk about something, and I know you will all understand, because I just need to vent. My daughter is pregnant, and sick. She has HG, which is a rare form of very violent morning sickness. She went to the ER yesterday, and was given medication. 1/6 So that's all issues we deal with in life, right? My husband just got a new job, it's a great job, but we have a health plan that is over $600 a month. We discovered yesterday that we have a $5000 deductible on that policy. Now? We have ZERO coverage. 2/6

One of the strangest things I’ve had a difficult time beating with Covid is the crash of depression following it. I already suffered from depression, but this is like somebody amplified it and is playing at full blast in a room. It is with me always /1 I have felt through life that I am too emotional, I feel things too much. does that make sense? It’s grueling. So I asked to be tested to see if I could gain insight into why I am so sad much of the time. I was shocked to learn I am on the Autism spectrum. /2

Someone is threatening me . I am going to tell what they want to exploit.

In the year 2001 I was charged with a series of white collar crimes that another man confessed to doing alone. I spent 14 years in prison until I was released after winning my appeal. /1 The truth is I never kept this secret. In fact it’s laid out in the about section of my website that I post here every day. It directly relates to why I’m an artist today. I was alive and defined by other peoples opinions and stories.

I had a story to tell too. /2

At the pet hospital emergency room for Freya 😢😢 She is vomiting large amounts of grass, coughing, sneezing, vomiting fluids, itching, chewing paws, drooling copiously, whining, My poor baby. OK we’re getting her x-rayed, we’re having a work up done so that the intestines and stomach can be checked. It’s going to be a long wait. I am just praying it’s OK we are waiting for the estimate.

Negativity? No.

This morning I fell out of bed, our bed is really high, and we have a mattress from like 20 years ago so I knew that we would have to get a new mattress and base. I spent our savings on it, I feel like I just bought a small car. So here’s what I did ...1/5 I just made the plunge and I did it and I could feel my back hurting, and my head has a huge knot on it. But I painted as fast as I could with all the pieces I was almost done with. Before I started feeling the effects of the fall. 2/5

I stumble through the past few days the middle of been quite sick painting here and there, I made it to for pain brings this week! Next week I expect to go plug-in on through it and getting more done. I should be completely done with Portraits by the end of March! The first portrait of the day is for Donna - I feel like this is a piece that has a lot of chatter! Please DM me to order a portrait of your own! My portfolio is at bit.ly/MCWOW

I was really sick this week, so sick that I’ve been bedridden for four days. I posted some work I finished over the holidays just so I could feel productive! It’s really hard for me to stay home without painting. Yesterday I came to a realization. (Thread /1) When I get sick during the coronavirus, my mind tends to go immediately towards the worst. I don’t know if it’s just the flu, or if it’s something much more serious. I recently had blood work and was told my kidneys were shutting down, I was afraid. (/2)

Today was a really busy day, but productive. I have a few pieces that are drying in between layers 😁 I’ll do reveals by Friday! First is a portrait for Laura, who is remembering her husband. As always, DM me for a quote! Next is a piece for Donna, a sweet moment with her favorite buddy. My Watercolors start at only $150 for a 12” x 12” DM me for a deal!