I had such a rough time being pregnant. My 7 year relationship was falling apart, my body was changing, I felt trapped, my bro in law suffered a life changing injury, I was scared, I didn't feel maternal & I just didn't know what to expect... I had watched One Born Every Minute countless of times, planning my birth, planning my child's leaving outfit etc. I felt like I knew it all. Boy was I wrong! I think the after math of birth isn't spoken about enough, as a first time Mum I felt completely lost.