I want to say a few things about my experience with Body Dysmorphic Disorder, a mental illness on the obsessive compulsive spectrum, for #MentalHealthAwarenessMonth. I briefly discuss suicide ideation, just so you are aware. In 5th grade, when we got our class photos, I saw mine and hated it. HATED it. I became hyper aware of my appearance, particularly my face and weight, and spent many hours obsessing in the mirror and asking my parents for diet pills. I told no one how hideous I believed I looked.