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Dorky, and weird. Leftist. Resistor. Special needs mom. Married. Farted on a baby accidentally once. #illuminaughty
13 Jul
My ADHD (dopamine processing disorder) affects my ability to be happy. Pain sticks with me; loss, anguish, loneliness, longing, those I feel today as strongly as I did when I was hurt. Happiness I canโ€™t seem to remember, or retain. I know it has happened, but itโ€™s not โ€œwithโ€ me.
My relationships with animals are so important, because I donโ€™t feel my RSD with Bosco. RSD is part of my ADHD that makes me feel like everyone hates me, and they should, because Iโ€™m unbearable. Bosco is my best friend because people scare me.
Losing him now, is honestly an all time low, because I donโ€™t have much that makes me feel ok. I am in such a happiness deficit that I want to die. Not suicidal, I just donโ€™t care to exist.

Iโ€™ve stopped taking my meds, dieting, exercising, or even wanting to engage on here.
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7 Jul
My disability thread is important to me as a mom of a a person with disabilities, a sister of a person who had disabilities, and as a daughter of a person with disabilitiesโ€ฆ as well as a woman with learning disabilities.

Life is incredibly hard for people who arenโ€™t typical.
I donโ€™t want to exploit Alexander for some crusade as he will inevitably become a target of people who lack empathy, and critical thinking skills. I have seen it happen online before.

Living in this world and having to see how easy it is for everyone else is painful for him.
Iโ€™ve seen him cry because of his disabilities, I have held him and had to tell him he will never get better. There is no cure for cerebral palsy. It is a static condition. I told him at least he wouldnโ€™t get any worse, but then he developed epilepsy. A curse that runs with CP.
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6 Jul
Well itโ€™s disability pride month and I would like to discuss how we mistreat disabled people in Americaโ€ฆ strap in. This is going to be hard to read.

Letโ€™s start with sexual assault. Disabled people are 3 times more likely to be sexually assaulted than abled people.
Disabled people also donโ€™t have the ability to marry people that they love and keep their disability benefits and free healthcare. They have to choose the person they love, or their ability to have their medical needs met. Because in this country, they can die if they lose ins
A bankrupt millionaire can keep their mansions and cars, but a disabled American isnโ€™t allowed to have more than 2000 dollars in assets. They are forced to live well below the poverty line, or they lose their insurance and disability payments.
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6 Jul
Thereโ€™s this audio of Tom Hiddleston reading that I found relaxing and so I listened to some more clips of him reading but they were of the naughty varietyโ€ฆ and I did not know that going inโ€ฆ so, that was cool. Water, pleaseโ€ฆ ALL THE WATER.
It started like this. Nice and relaxingโ€ฆ and I was GOING TO SLEEP
Then I went to the next oneโ€ฆ and now Iโ€™m never sleeping again.
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1 Jul
I love men, I honestly do. My empathy overflows for almost everyone I meet. Iโ€™m defeated by rape culture in America. I hope you can understand that. Iโ€™m mad, and I have reason to be, and Iโ€™m going to get into why. Iโ€™m this thread. So strap in. โค๏ธ
We tell rape victims that they have to come forward, because if they donโ€™t they are responsible for any more rapes that the rapist does, because they could have been preventedโ€ฆ but that isnโ€™t true. Over 80% of rape cases that lead to an arrest end with the rapist serving no time
The rape tests are invasive, hours spent with your recently violated body, exposed and examined, while youโ€™re forced to relive the trauma over and over again. After all of that degrading and painful work they donโ€™t get tested. Itโ€™s just theatrical for no purpose.
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1 Jul
Humans can be insecure creatures that hop around looking for a shoe to lace up, and when the shoe doesnโ€™t fit they scream about how itโ€™s not for them.

Not all men rape, not all white people are racist, not all cops kill, we knowโ€ฆ why is it so hard to just stfu?
When I hear people speaking about white women being Karens I donโ€™t yell โ€œNOT ALL WHITE WOMEN!โ€ I just think about all the Karens I know, and nod in agreement. I know Iโ€™m not a Karen so I donโ€™t have to tell people that itโ€™s not all white women.
Itโ€™s all about insecurity. You feel as though because of your sex that people assume you are a rapist. Thatโ€™s just not the case, generalized statements do not mean all. Itโ€™s literally just because 95% of the people who are rapists are menโ€ฆ
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29 Jun
I have RSD attached to my ADHD. It is the reason why so many people with ADHD commit suicide, and I just wanted to explain how it manifests. I am not a doctor but if this sounds familiar, you may have undiagnosed ADHD, and you may want to see a professional.
That last interaction is what has lead me to believe that no one actually likes me and that if I had the ability to see their private chats they would all be talking about how awful I was. So I try to just leave people alone so Iโ€™m not a burden.
I donโ€™t want to push myself on to people. I assume if they really like me they will put forth all of the effort to be near me because if I do itโ€ฆ theyโ€™re just being polite if they respond, but they secretly hate me.

My brain berates me over every interaction.
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22 Jun
Please DO NOT come after this person but Iโ€™d like to delve into how religion is used to control the poor and uneducated. See if we all understood that justice and equality were only options in our mortal bodies, the poor would eat the rich.

Their comment is perfect for that.
Hope isnโ€™t a good thing, if it makes you list after death, where you will finally have justice, happiness, and riches.

Hope is a weapon that religion uses to control us, into being good little subservient slaves to their capitalist masters.
In return for the injustices you suffer in this life, you get a mansion in the sky and eternal life.

The meek shall inherit the earth.

Donโ€™t judge lest ye be judged.

Donโ€™t covet your rich neighbors.

Donโ€™t steal.
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22 Jun
Just a friendly reminder that at one point, EVERY SINGLE RELIGION was just a small cult, lead by a creepy asshat that told everyone they spoke to god. Every member of the cult had family members going โ€œcan you believe Jebediah is dumb enough to fall for this guy?!โ€
Iโ€™m anti-theist, because I believe religion holds us back as a society.

The subjugation of women, and gays occurs in almost every religious text.

It makes a group of people feel as though they are superior over another.

It fuels mental illness, by making people believe in
Demons, angels, ghosts, and the supernatural.

It gives leeway to ideals of slavery, rape, incest, torture, and child marriage.
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22 Jun
(Thread) I have a lot of sad stuff happening over the next little bit. Fatherโ€™s Day was the first hurdle, next is the anniversary of the last time I saw my sister, on Matthewโ€™s birthday. He turns 9 this Saturday. Then my sisterโ€™s birthday, 6/30, then the anniversary 1/
Of the day of her brain aneurysm 7/11, the day she was pronounced brain dead 7/13. Then my fatherโ€™s birthday on 8/7. The anniversary of his death is in 9/28. I think this is just a grief block Iโ€™m trying to get through right now.
Sorry, I was in the middle of writing and had to cook dinner, planning isnโ€™t really my thing.

So, Iโ€™ve decided Iโ€™m just going to allow myself to feel stuff, for once. See how that goes. Wish me luck, usually I have a massive breakdown around now and end up in the ER with
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11 Jun
Scientists knew how bad everything was and warned us. Then billionaires worked up a campaign to put ALL of the blame for global warming and pollution onto citizens. We were taught in school that it was all our fault. If only we turned off the water while brushing our teeth, 1/
And recycled our plastic, everything would be fine. The problem wasnโ€™t them, it was us.

They turned us against one another, so that we would feel self righteous when we told people to recycle.

Meanwhile, they knew most of the recycled plastic ended up in the landfill. 2/
They paid politicians to say that climate change wasnโ€™t real so we could keep cars on the streets, destroying us all.

There wasnโ€™t money in supporting mass transit, and alternate energy.

They taught us in school that it was all our fault, AS CHILDREN, and I believed it. 3/
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4 Jun
Today a troll accused me of some things, and I like to look at that sort of stuff and roll it around in my head.

I donโ€™t dwell on it with malice, just curiosity, and my best attempt at self assessment.

The first thing they said was that Iโ€™m a narcissist. 1/
That was easy to debunk because I suck. Like a lot.

Then they accused me of crying about my life all the time. Iโ€™m sorry if I do that. I actually have wonderful silly kids, and a husband I adore. I just donโ€™t feel the need to rub my happiness in peopleโ€™s faces. 2/
The third thing they accused me of is being a drama queen. Well if my crown fits, Iโ€™ll wear it. ๐Ÿ˜‚ drama is all around us, and I find it and I get into it. I just have a lust for justice, and a desire to protect people. I myself, am not dramatic. Iโ€™m boring. 3/
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3 Jun
If you ever wondered why Iโ€™m honest about my shortcomings on social media, itโ€™s because I want to normalize being human.

Being dysfunctional, seeing a therapist, having panic attacks, making mistakes, and being a mess are all natural. Social media can make you feel broken.1/
By promoting people with perfect bodies and perfect homes leading their perfect lives. Their kids are all on the honor roll, and their cars are all worth over 100,000 dollarsโ€ฆ

And you can feel like crap because you donโ€™t add up.

Youโ€™re normal. 2/
Thatโ€™s all smoke and mirrors, and them only putting on their best face for social media.

I assure you rich people arenโ€™t better than you, or happier.

If you feel like you have to hide your imperfections from the world, you donโ€™t. You being imperfect makes you relatable.
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28 May
I saw someone say that โ€œKarenโ€ is a misogynistic term and that we shouldnโ€™t use it. The truth is; white woman tears, and gatekeeping attitudes have caused a lot of trauma, death, and heartache. White women need to be held accountable for this victim complex we can weaponize. 1/
Keeping trans women down, getting black men arrested and killed, using our voices to harass employees, and people in the service industry, are gross uses of the power white woman tears hold, but there is more subtle things we also need to address. 2/
Body, breastfeeding, parenting, appearance shamingโ€ฆ

Black women feel as though they canโ€™t show up to school to drop their kids off, without looking styled and perfect, or white women will call cps on them.

Did you know CPS takes away more children from black families? 3/
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27 Apr
I was informed a few days ago that a large account we all follow was allegedly sending women unsolicited nudes, and being overtly sexual. As more information came in, it became clear that any reasonable person confronted with the evidence would come to the same conclusion. 1/
Rob Anderson, former congressional candidate for LA, was sexually harassing women online. The story was too big for me, as I knew that no one would believe just me, and none of the women wanted to come forward. Therefore it would be my word against his. I created a group,
full of large and influential accounts to which the victims could speak. We saw screenshots, heard women speak, and saw pictures, we wish we had not. Any woman who outed him was met with online harassment, many times at his direction. Some of you may not believe just me,
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8 Apr
Multiple women, multiple accounts that I trust have come forward to say that JackBear has been sexually harassing them. I hate having to type this, as he has been my friend. You have the right to make your choices based on this information, but here is the information I have:
Heโ€™s sent multiple women pictures of his penis, that they did not ask for. One woman went so far as to block him over it, and he followed her on Instagram to ask if she liked it.
Heโ€™s described his penis to women. Heโ€™s made comments about wanting to have sex with them after offering them help. Which we all know makes a conversation about help transactional. He may not have said โ€œyour rent will be paid with sex.โ€ But he alluded to that.
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7 Apr
Back in school I was going through a LOT. There was abuse and neglect and parents that didnโ€™t want to put me in therapy because they knew CPS would be called. I stopped taking care of myself, I withdrew and lashed out, I would hit myself... I was a bit of a train wreck.
I donโ€™t blame the kids that didnโ€™t like me, I blamed myself. I purposefully pushed people away. As my dad got more violent, I got more depressed. Eventually, things came to a head when I stopped talking and failed every class. They found out I had two learning disabilities.
They found a slew of suicide notes, and decided I needed therapy. It took 8 years and countless meds to get me to be ok. I got off of everything when I turned 20, and moved out. I was in a good place, havenโ€™t had to get back on meds since. Has a lot to do with reconciliation.
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