In December 2010, I delivered my third child, & first daughter.

She lived for one hour & forty-seven minutes.

Her name was (is) Beatrix Elizabeth.

She was the most beauty baby I had seen, & I miss her desperately.

Because of her I have become tender to the love of God, and devoted to the idea that all life is valuable, even the short life of a tiny baby who will never make a dent in the world at large.

A lot of new people are following me because of my comments re: women’s clothing. For the sake of honesty- I don’t know that you will like what I

Today we brought a family member to church who hadn’t been to church in (probably) over ten years.

The only reason he came was because my 10yo asked him to, as a special treat.

He definitely didn’t fit in, style wise, and he was a stranger.

I saw more than one person wrinkle up their nose as he walked past, a couple whisper something quickly to the person standing next to them.

Thankfully he didn’t see it because it was behind his back — sadly, I did.

I won’t say I’ll think twice about bringing someone to church because I want everyone

Today, I am 50.

I have lived half a century, & I believe it is the best half-century ever.

My life straddles two very different worlds.

My generation will be the last generation to live without widespread use of the internet.

My generation is also the first to use computers to connect with the world. We flipped the switch that brought a global economy to life, for better or for worse (I think it’s a little of both.)

We were also the first generation to be

I can’t even look at this without it sending a seismic wave of grief through me.

My husband will be 60 tomorrow, and I will be 50 at the end of the month, and we have given up on the idea of grandchildren. It’s just too painful to think about.

A lot of millennials and younger

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view the desire for grandchildren as selfish: as if all of the history of humanity isn’t predicated on the continuation of generations.

In other words, I don’t think the desire is just about me thinking only of me. I think not having children is a kind of su*cide.

I think a

Today my 10yo daughter, and I, participated in an 18th century American village reenactment.

We had both British and colonial soldiers quartered, on opposite sides of the main house.

My sweet, gentle child- the daughter of my old age- harvested vegetables from the garden for stew.

Some of those vegetables were beans. She picked a lot of beans.

She then proceeded to hand out beans to everyone who was working.

Including the British soldiers.

Friends.

Friends.

And again-

friends.

This child. This sweet child.

The child of my old age.

When I was 19 years old, I made two trips to a Planned Parenthood clinic located at 14372 Beach Blvd, Westminster, California.

The first trip was to have a laminaria insertion- this would force my cervix to open.

The second trip was to end a pregnancy I was convinced I
would not survive.

To be clear- I was in no physical danger, but I was convinced I could not deliver the child I was carrying.

If you know anything about the kind of abortions which need laminaria, you know what a vile thing I did.

I do not deserve the life I have now.

The more I think about the whole woman pastor thing, the more angry it makes me.

Yet again, the only way the church (society) can see women as being equal is if they behave like men are instructed to.

I don’t want to be a man.

I don’t want to need to do the things men do in order to be viewed as valuably as men are, especially in terms of being “created in the image of God”.

Can’t we find some medium between Andrea Dworkin and Quiverfull?

Why are the only choices for women “man-face” or drudge?

I don’t get why we live in the (potentially)

As many of you know, I spent 10 years on the board of @SaveThe1Child, which focuses on removing exceptions for rape and fetal anomalies from pro-life legislation. In that time I had the opportunity to meet many of the Prolife advocates you see on your nightly news.

One of those people was Save the 1 founder, @RebeccaKiesslin.

It’s been about a year since we’ve had any close contact: I have been so focused on the move that most prolife work has gone by the wayside- but yesterday when I saw the article about her on the @NewYorker site I sent her a text

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Marilyn Monroe was a real person.

Created in the image of God, just like you and I.

She was beautiful, talented, and wanted nothing more in life than to be a mother.

I do not believe she ever had an abortion, despite what Netflix tells you.

However. Judy Garland did.

She was forced to abort two babies at the demand of her studio.

It’s suggested this is what led to her drug and alcohol abuse.