Prepare for Maya soppy posting:

A year ago I was in a monogamous marriage with someone who I was slowly discovering just didn't really love me anymore, I was so unwell mentally and it caused me to really spiral and hurt the people around me. It wasn't good and wasn't healthy but I fought to stay in it. I just wanted it to work, it caused hurt and it caused me to really hate myself. I got close to ending it all to be honest. Life just wasn't fun for either of us