Hi! So, I'm queer. One of those old fashioned pansexuals you may have heard of. Probably not a shocker -- like half the characters I play are members of the rainbow fam. 🧵: Nevertheless, I've hemmed and hawed about whether or not an official Coming Out was something I needed or wanted to do. Particularly because I feel like a poser -- I've been dating a man for five years. Pretty un-gay of me.

We've passed the two month mark of the quarantine, and I have not been doing very well. (thread:) The first few weeks were troubling - frightening. Characterized by a tremendous amount of uncertainty. Terror about food shortages, an overwhelm of medical systems, a looming and invisible threat disproportionately striking the most vulnerable groups, as most threats seem to.

I have an anxiety disorder, which manifests in a lot of ways. But a central component is that I am very hard on myself. A lot. (thread ⬇️) Ie: if I was smarter, (x) would've happened instead of (y). If I was a better person, I wouldn't have done (z). I'm constantly measuring myself. And when I've decided I don't pass muster, I feel pain. Self hatred. Shame.

I know I'm just a guest in these parts, but I'd love to say a few things about this if I may. Spoilers for Critical Role incoming:

https://twitter.com/matthewmercer/status/1019590229206843397

Many of you know that five years ago, I lost my partner. His death was sudden, unexpected, and it completely shattered my world. The grief of his loss has changed me irrevocably - in ways that are both beautiful and challenging.