We always talk about how Zanka loves Enjin more, that his feelings are greater than Enjin, but honestly? Enjin loves him just as much, just as great. Zanka is so blinded by his own feelings, he's oblivious of Enjin's feelings for him.
Because Zanka never allows himself the luxury of getting his feelings returned. Because he doesn't think that he deserves it, that he has the right to it. Maybe that's why, even when they're together, Zanka still can't stop himself from questioning whether Enjin's feelings are genuine or it's just simply pity.

#enzn エンザン

Zanka usually wakes up earlier than Enjin, but this time Enjin precedes him.
Enjin who wakes up first, then spending a good time to admire Zanka's sleeping figure. Enjin who doesn't have a heart to wake the younger, knowing Zanka has to be so exhausted that he oversleeps, his natural biology clock be damned. Enjin who will pull the blanket up Zanka's shoulder, kissing his temple, as he whispers, "Sleep well." before he quietly gets off the bed, carefully too.
Probably to smoke, or fetch the coffee, or simply go to the bathroom.

#enzn omegaverse

"Ugh—" Enjin doesn't even say anything aside from groaning and grumbling intangibly when he latches himself on his mate's embrace.
Zanka chuckles at the antic, feeling his Alpha nuzzle his chest, resting himself comfortably above his baby bump.
"What is it, hm?" "Nothing," Enjin huffs, tightening his arms around his waist.
Zanka rolls his eyes affectionately, even if Enjin can't see him.
"If it's nothing, then why are you hugging me like your life depends on it?"
Enjin noses Zanka's cloth, inhaling his scent.
"It does depend on it."

#enzn エンザン

Zanka still remembers it as clearly as the day. Of course, he does. How could he not? The day that starts it all, the day that essentially leads him to this moment.
Not precisely, but still factors into it.
The day he got so drunk that he ended up asking Enjin, the stupidest question ever.
"Enjin," Zanka remembers he leaned to Enjin's side, before the older wrapped his arm around his shoulder, pulling him closer.
Enjin hummed, sipping his own beverage.
Zanka hiccuped. "Would you still love me if I was a worm?"
If it wasn't for the loud

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Zanka playfully confesses his feelings to Enjin for April's Fools Day but Enjin grins so wide when he hears that and ends up kissing him. Zanka doesn't dare to tell him that it was meant to be prank, because WHAT THE HECK?
THE ENJIN?
KISSING HIM? The thought that Enjin genuinely thinks they're dating now—it eats him alive.
Kissing Zanka whenever he has chance, treating him differently, and all that jazz.
Does it make Zanka happy? Extremely, even.
But he can't bear the guilt. He can't bear the thought that this all happens

#enzn エンザン

Rudo had told Zanka another weird Spherite's celebration. It's called April's Fools Day. Apparently, on this day, people are free to prank each other and make jokes and everyone isn't allowed to be mad, because essentially, this is the day when you become a fool. Rudo says, this is one of his favorite days up there, he gets to joke around and prank people (mostly, Regto is his victim back then), and he enjoys laughing his ass off when his pranks succeed. Zanka has squinted at him, and asking him, if Rudo has already done such a

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"Oh, I'm sorry, did I dab too hard?"
Enjin doesn't say anything when Zanka clearly slows his hand while cleaning the wound, gentleness is obvious in his action. His delicate hand, fetching a bandaid now, a little too much in Enjin's opinion. It's just a cut on the corner of the mouth, why would he even get a bandaid? Suck it up, and the pain will heal in no time.
"Zanka, I don't think that's necessary—"
Zanka shakes his head. "Look, better be safe than sorry. I don't want you to get infected

#Enzn エンザン
#ENZANFLUFF2026

There's nothing special about the day off. Zanka treats it just like any other day. He wakes up at 5, spends an hour to prepare himself for the day and meditates, before he goes out for his morning training. Day off means: he gets to train longer, arriving late for breakfast, fetching books to read from the library, helping Tomme do her notes, getting lunch before he trains some more.
Call him boring, but it's fulfilling in its own way.
There's nothing special about the day off.
Until Enjin changes it for him.
By knocking

#Enzn エンザン
#ENZANFLUFF2026

Enjin tried his best to not laugh. He had been trying for the last fifteen minutes, though. Living up to the whole gesture of zipping up his mouth, a promise to keep.
But this time, he had to cave in.
He could no longer hold it.
And of course, the bursting laughter is not appreciated.
"You said, you're not gonna laugh at me!"
The indignant protest is accompanied with sharp glare should be intimidating, but when Enjin looked that way, all he could see was a sight so endearingly cute and funny, he could only respond in

#Enzn エンザン
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"Listen, here, Zanka. I'm your friend, okay? Not your mentor, not your senior, and definitely not your teacher."
Zanka still remembers those words as clear as the day.
When he was young enough to believe that nobody would befriend him for the sake of the friendship.
"I'm your friend, Zanka. Always. So don't be scared to tell me anything. And when I say anything, let it be anything. You see a cat scratching your Assistaff, you tell me. You think the soup you're having doesn't have enough broth, you tell me. You think the

#enzn

It's completely accidental. Like something he hasn't meant to find, like a secret he hasn't meant to know. Zanka doesn't even realize what has happened, until he takes his sweet time to reflect on the incident.
The incident being Enjin moaned even louder when Zanka got

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his hand on behind his head. Not just on his blond hair, but the very specific area—Enjin's undercut.
The first time he touched him there, Zanka didn't mean to. He was so wrapped up in kissing Enjin, anchoring himself by carding his spiky blond, when suddenly Enjin grabbed his

#enzn

Zanka loves Enjin. This is something that he has never denied. Okay, he did deny it at some point, but it is no longer the case now that they are together, officially and openly. Zanka always thinks so highly of Enjin, he always admires him, putting him above everything

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else.
Now he may reconsider everything.
"Enjin," he calls softly, like he's speaking to a spooked animal, but the man—who claims to be scared of nothing, who claims to have no fear—merely rolled on the bed, the blanket covering his head.
He doesn't look like the fearless leader

#enzn

Riyo wonders if she has been trapped in another reality where Enjin and Zanka has somehow switched with each other because there's no way in hell, he just sees Enjin's cheeks turns slightly pink when Zanka praises his cooking.
She doesn't hallucinate. She's pretty much

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awake and conscious and present at this moment. Zanka is the one who acts nonchalant and keeps throwing compliments over the meals like they are the best foods he has ever tried.
"Wow, this also tastes so good," Zanka moans again. Right, that's not an exaggeration, Riyo doesn't

#enzn

Listen, Zanka is a very patient person. He says this, not without reasons. This is just a fact. He won't say something that he isn't confident of it to be the truth. Because it's the truth. He has endless patience. Having to deal with hurricane manifest in a human, named

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Riyo; a literal obnoxiously loud monkey circus that can't be controlled named Rudo; and then of course, someone who seems to test his patience as a way to 'help' him improve, named Enjin.
People will think he has bias, especially because the team leader slash mentor-becomes

#enzn

Zanka is nervous as fuck. He has heard millions opinions that tells him, this isn't a bad idea, that he will do just great, that nothing bad could happen—still, he can't help from feeling anxious when he steps out of the changing room.
He has checked himself in the mirror

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for the umpteenth, making sure he looks decent, but every time he catches the glimpse of his own reflection, all he gets is how ridiculous this is.
The first thing he notices once the curtain reveals him is the conversation.
"... it doesn't matter if you appear bad, the most

#enzn

The first telltale is his own feet. Cold as ice, where the blanket fails to cover them. And then he hears it. The steady pattering against the window, the way the morning greets him much colder than the usual.
It's raining, this morning.
Zanka knows, he has to get up.

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He has to do his morning routine: the training, the meditation—his ritual to start the day. There's no mission for today, so he can have more time to improve himself, to get those things he learns from books and the real experiences of getting involved in real combat, into use.

#enzn

"Careful, Zanka."
The words contradict the meaning when Zanka can feel his back hit the wall rather hard. His Assistaff slings behind only add to the impact.
"People may start to think, you're here to whore yourself."
The words contradict the meaning, when Enjin runs his

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hand over Zanka's jaw with such gentleness, almost like he's caressing him. Like he's someone to cherish.
"Enjoy yourself back there?" Enjin tips his chin, and Zanka refuses to look away even if his sight is slightly unfocused.
"Can't barely look at me in the eyes and you're

#enzn

"Just a lick."
Enjin has said.
First of all, that's gross. And very inappropriate. Especially considering Enjin says that right in front of the ice cream stall they have visited.
"Just a lick, c'mon, Zanzan," Enjin said.
And Zanka is usually good at controlling himself,

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but he knows, his real weakness is when Enjin inches closer to him, with his captivating amber, and very persuasive voice of his.
"No," Zanka says, feeling like a winner for being able to refuse the temptation. "Go buy another for yourself."
Enjin pouts. "That doesn't taste

#enzn omegaverse

Enjin notices it right away. Of course, he does. One bad experience of being oblivious of literally the most important thing in his life has turned him very attuned to everything related to his mate.
This time, Enjin notices how Zanka has stolen more and more

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of his clothes lately.
Like, a lot.
Enjin has made a mental note, to take Zanka out for clothes shopping the more his baby bump is showing, but for some reason, Zanka always refuses. Or making excuses. Enjin is at that phase of obeying everything his Omega has told him, that he

#enzn

Enjin never once categorized himself as a sloppy person. People might view him as such, but he personally never thinks of himself that way. If anything, he takes care of his things with so much care. He never loses stuff because Enjin doesn't lose stuff, okay? How can he,

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when he keeps his things so neatly?
One might view him as a very messy person, but his mess has its order, the kind that only Enjin can understand. His room may appear like a disaster, but Enjin has never lost stuff, because Enjin just doesn't.
For the first time, he may have