I went out without my hijab today for the first time ever since I was 11 years old. I can feel my heart soar when I felt the wind in my hair. So this is what freedom feels like. I'm not out to my parents yet about my decision to remove my hijab. That convo will be too exhausting to my mental health plus i don't feel like justifying my life decision to anyone. So I'll still need to pretend I wear hijab in front of them for my own piece of mind. For now.