@pekosaba@OddGhost it's been a few years since this event so i'm somewhat fuzzy, but i can give you the high level: i told her that I have trouble prioritizing, remembering and scheduling, and that those were my primary issues that I needed outright help with
ok so let me tell you about one of the most cursed products i've found in my life. sit down.
so. music on hold. the concept of pressing hold on your phone and giving the caller something to listen to while you're not talking to them
i should preface this with: i'm not sure anyone wants it. i'm not sure anyone ever wanted it, and i won't go into my reasoning why but
what companies DO want though is the ability to play ads to people who are already customers because they want even more money, so it's important to remember that MOH is really "promotion on hold" and this is why a company would go out of their way to have it
over time i have only learned more and more that america means nothing good to me, and a history where it was never created would unquestionably be a better one for the entire earth
there is nothing here that would not be better if it hadn't been created under our designed-to-be-awful society. i would give up everything I know to go back in time and prevent this nation from forming.
the best moments in my life were scraped from the ashes of a dying civilization in a nation founded on murder. everything "good" that we've accomplished was matched by other countries, usually better. america provides zero value to the world.
i envy the person who has enough space to collect vacuum cleaners or washing machines, things made with belts and shafts and bearings that you can actually get excited about owning and repairing and using
i'd throw all my computers away forever if i could fill a barn with broken kirbys and just fix one after another and give them away to friends. this is what peak performance looks like,
HAHAHA COOL, FIREFOX DECIDED TO REMOVE THE NOTES FIELD FOR BOOKMARKS. I WAS STORING A BUNCH OF FUCKING IMPORTANT INFORMATION IN THERE FOR WORK. IT'S ALL FUCKING GONE.
nobody in tech gives a fuck about human beings. nobody in this garbage fucking industry cares what human beings do, how their lives work, what impact anything they do will have on anyone.
nobody in this fucking garbage industry gives a shit if they delete shitloads of your information. they just chuckle and slap your back as if they're on your side, just one of those days, case of the mondays, ain't that the way it goes as if they didn't fucking cause it
nothing I've done in the last year has been free of the taint of permanent anger that I have to be employed and every week it gets harder to exert any effort to stay that way. I have no idea how to survive this
I'm not speaking of self harm, I'm just saying I'm surviving on inertia. I don't know how to care about losing my job or getting a new one or doing the things necessary to stand out and survive when you don't have a college degree and can't program
I ruined myself for capitalism and every day I believe my own propaganda more. I don't have the resources to quit working or even exit the tech sector, in which I'm basically unemployable unless I lie about my qualifications and then strive hard to conceal the lie
i'm back in the android phone market bullshit again and i basically at this point am constructing one of those Beautiful Mind pins and string charts of the market to try to find the hidden Dark Phone
huawei and the other chinese vendors seem to produce interesting hardware but with absolutely wrecked software that's not worth trying to fix. fuck samsung. the moto x4 has proven to be too small for my tastes, and their other models lack the featureset i desire
the nexus phones are interesting but actually *getting* a 7 pro or an 8 (the 7.1 and 6.1 are underwhelming to me for multiple reasons) is very difficult in the US, and there are missing GSM bands with uncertain impact on coverage
one day after I bought this new Android phone it decided to start telling me that WiFi calling is enabled. I don't care, but I ignored it. it was a persistent notification. I literally couldn't remove it but I didn't feel like dealing with it
a day of this passed without incident, then it spontaneously declared that I can't make WiFi calls without an E911 address. apparently this was permitted for about 16 hours, but not anymore
since that was persistent as well, and irritating, I tapped it and was taken to a screen where I could select WiFi or cellular calls. I did, and now I have this persistent notification
the cellular telephone market is miserable. let us begin
1) i do not want an iphone for reasons i do not wish to discuss. read: don't @ me
so, within android, there are some Problems. the first is of course samsung. there are 12,000 samsung phones for every other phone, possibly orders of magnitude more. i can only imagine there is a sovereign island in the pacific made of samsung phones.
Look, I don't know what you're talking about, but I did not "get the lyrics wrong" when I said "carry off my wayward son." I was addressing a gigantic eagle who I hope will take my shitty boy away and raise him as a bird
I have never gotten four faves this fast
Carry off my wayward son
Raise him as you would your young
House him in your giant nest
Teach him to fly and soar
You know, one thing that bugs me about the cops: They have all the time in the world. There are plenty of cops, no specific cop has anywhere to be. Nowhere in this is there any explanation of why they needed to escalate this so rapidly. What is this, a few minutes total?
They said "do this", the guy refused, they shrugged and said "guess it's a fight." They could have, you know, waited a bit. There's no rush. Per this report he wasn't hurting anyone or making a fuss until they tried to force him to move.
I think fare enforcement is immoral, but looking past that: I always put myself in the perspective of "if I was trying to support the police in good faith, to make this situation still result in an arrest, how would I play it?" and the answer is not yelling and yanking.
Good news everyone: My insurance provider denied coverage for all my CPAP supplies. I now owe them $330. Here's their thorough explanation:
They did this in order to steal from me. They robbed me of $330 unless I pay in time, stress, and arguments that I'm not emotionally equipped to make. They did this on purpose. The above messages are there so I'll be forced to call and be read a line of horseshit.
They did this because they know I probably won't call, because most people don't call, because everyone knows what Kafkaesque means and everyone knows you can't win. It was denied because they want me to pay them money.
i've been working my way up the distros, making sure linux is still fully unusable. it is.
debian 9 this time. download a .deb, package manager doesn't know what it is. dpkg -i requires su. sudo is not installed.
i'm told it was always this way
you can't run a linux system without sudo. it's not realistic. i also swear to god it was in every version of debian i've ever used before.
after fixing sudo (requires a restart; incredible) by hand using instructions from stackexchange (of course), the process is to run dpkg on the deb, let it fail, then run apt-get install -f. ah yeah of course. that's obvious
gonna shit on linux some more. installing programs is an unmitigated tire fire. no operating system past or present has ever fucked this up so bad
i installed current centos because i was told it's better than fedora. k. let's install teamviewer.
my process for installing teamviewer on fedora: download file. click file. done. it then didn't work because wayland, but it installed and ran
centos: download rpm, click it. plain dialog with "this file is not supported." that's it.
lol ok. the OS has been running for less than five minutes and has already catastrophically failed the sniff test. but whatever, i'm gonna wipe it anyway, let's dance
i like how the standard process of 'lets install linux on a machine and see what it's like now' ends with 'well, the catastrophic problems i'm having are caused by this distro being the Bad One this year and the only solution is to switch to another'
fedora currently runs wayland so no gui app works on it. Everything I've attempted to install pisses out a stack trace or shows a black window. Google confirms these apps don't work on Wayland.
Every time I install linux with a gui, it doesn't work in a new way and I'm told "oh that distro's terrible" but every year it's a new one. Every time I look at this, all the distros have stood up, marched around, and sat down in new chairs, and six of them get the "Bad" chairs
I sometimes worry about the quality of my character. I sometimes wonder if I have a soul, and if the things I do and don't do are tarnishing it. But no hell that would have me could possibly be appropriate for these people.
Do you ever think about the "rounding error" of anger? How we only have so much rage, so much ability to hate the evil, that we end up using our maximum anger on what are, really, trivial things?