the fact that despite making the soviet ballerina bots, the atomic heart developers still managed to lose the demographic of “extremely online trans girls” indicates they REALLY fucked up if the it/its girlthing with a name like 0872 and a timeline of empty spaces retweets and a likes tab full of women in ussr military uniforms is dunking on your game featuring two female robots that could kill you by sitting on your face, you’ve failed *historically*

[gwitch spoilers?] SULETTA SAYING IM NOT THE WIFE IM THE GROOM GENDERS

angels don't get sick. they only fail to persevere.

"you still believe that shit?" the demoness asked derisively as she finished drawing the runes on the side of your head. damn, were you projecting your internal experience of the world onto nearby consciousnesses again? "'believe' is a strong word," you reply through gritted teeth. the sound is like steel-on-bone.

"you angelgirls *love* strong words," she retorts, voice dripping with mockery. you'd give her a gentle warning smite, if you weren't depending on her for relief.

there’s a sometimes sad & imo undeniable truth to what this says about “veblen goods”. my TTRPGs i charge more for (and for that matter, self-pub music & writing too) get way, way more engagement.

question becomes: how to split the difference? community copies are a good start.

https://twitter.com/prismaticwastes/status/1555179953557307393

when i value my works more monetarily, people engage with them more. my “pay if you want” content is always the least played/listened to, except maybe free altogether stuff.

the increasing trend of community copies feels like a good start towards both supporting creators in

celebrating the establishment of the US is celebrating killing Indigenous people, in the largest racial genocide in history. as a Jewish person, Holocaust i dont see it as ethically better than celebrating Nazi Germany, except in that we americans absorb propaganda excusing it. celebrating the establishment of the US does not make you the ethical equivalent of a nazi, but you do have an ethical responsibility to confront what you were taught that made it feel ok to celebrate genocide & to work through it until you understand why you saw it as different.

we can live in a better world than we do people made this world and people can change it. nothing about our society is the product of an inevitable force. it doesn’t have to be this way. the world can be a better place.

angelgirls smoking cigarettes on once-hallowed ground, speaking blasphemies unto old gods they no longer serve. nothing intentional, nothing angry. just objections never raised. profanities that emanated from the hand of the divine, never questioned until now—not openly. the doubts still hurt, somewhere deeper than the heart. contradictions like pins, needles, under the skin. malpracticed acupuncture of the soul.

still, it’s necessary. or is it? it’s so difficult to know what a need is, absent a god. a mission. a purpose. duty. define “success”?

the 'inconvenient fact is that religion and religious behaviors are not in and of themselves above criticism, and the concept that they are is eyerollingly liberal & requires an ignorance of how religion-as-sacred in the west has only ever protected white christianity to say that something is above criticism because it is religion is not to say that it is religious, but rather to say that it is white

there is one position for the US left, always: anti-intervention. no war, no country, no decision can be improved by US intervention. the goals of the US are to keep the world under the yoke of the imperialism, and everything else is for show. US out, always. there's no "side" the US can take that will every make its military or "diplomatic" actions a net-benefit. the goals of washington are to further american empire & the vast majority of political conflicts cant be solved by external military action even if it WAS well intentioned.

i let myself believe NFTs were a passing fad, in part b/c just thinking of them drains my soul, but their adoption & advertising boom is a reminder that:

NFTs are a natural instance of capital expanding private property given near-complete enclosure of existing forms of property marx writes about the tendency of the rate of profit to fall, which oversimplified, explains that investment opportunities inevitably become less profitable for investors over time, creating periodic crisis and forcing capital to constantly open new investment opportunities

#nobechdeltest but the fact that the female lead of altered carbon s1 literally does not appear in the 4min official recap of that season except as an offscreen voice in the final 15s to ask the male protag what he'll do about his long-lost love...says a lot about that show lol she almost definitely has the second most screentime of any character and the fact that they "recapped" the entire season without her uh. hmm? could this perhaps indicate? she was a shallowly written character?

proud of this simple solution

im implementing text search on HTML TTRPG logfiles & parsing the HTML to return meant lines meant searches took ~1.5s

it's a CLI tool, so i realized i could just use ag's faster search to make basically a shitty bloom filter & get it down to 1s 6 line probabilistic filter with the same guarantees as a bloom filter that shaves 1/3 off the search time by using an existing tool without even adding a gem to the project :)

i’ve now spent somewhere around 4 hours on hold & phone calls over the last week trying to fill 1 prescription i ran out of last week i am currently at the stage of “my insurance company says they have a plan with my name & member ID (a plan i’ve been using for 1.5 years) but there is no active date. ever. there are simply no dates indicating this plan is active or ever has been”

[goes into a store to buy a single pair of bootcut jeans] [has to physically pull myself away from the flannels multiple times] say it with me jess: you have enough flannels

feels good to realize i can still look at 3 lines of ruby, go "that can definitely be done in 1 line of ruby" and do it in one line of ruby initialize a local variable from an arg, concatenate to that variable by looping an instance variable array, and return it? nah, call reduce on the instance variable array with the arg as the initial value.

okay watching pitch black / riddick for the first time and ok i’m already obsessed with fry her referring to a part of the ship like it’s a part of her body (“I can’t get my nose down”) and i’m instantly in love

currently thinking: carseat headrest, the decembrists, sufjan, technically you might say of montreal but i hardly think that counts. trying to think of who else.

https://twitter.com/jessfromonline/status/1441785778376486916

LMAO THAT THE QUOTED TWEET CAME B4 THE ONE ABOVE

https://twitter.com/downloadagoat/status/1441786014020870144

you will have to pry wearing a backpack literally everywhere i go from my cold, dead, gender nonconforming hands gonna write an article abt how wearing a backpack is a form anti-patriarchal reclamation pioneered by lesbian feminists

oh wow i forgot how incredible car seat headrest’s 2020 was i think i listened to it so much during peak pandemic/social distancing that i had to put it down for a long time to air it out lol

this racist comic re: “CRT” is being QT’d around & i want to point out:

pay attention to the central role of the family in it. the kid is expected to identify with the family & not find another, more liberatory ID. white supremacy & capitalism are reproduced through the family. it was such a clarifying moment to learn that the second half of this quote by thatcher (may her name be blotted out) about there being no such thing as society is that there’s individuals *and families*

the family is a fundamental institution for undermining collectivity

don't say "Judeo-Christian" when you're trying to say "white" the concept of "Judeo-Christian" is less than two centuries old, and originally invented by antisemites. has it (later) been self-consciously adopted by some christians and some jews? yes, primarily in america, primarily as part of assimilating white jews into whiteness.