"We're all full up with executive functioning here. Our CPU… and GPU...? Both red lining.
"I can't add ONE monitoring task without crashing. Not. One.
"All I get to do is... watch. Time after intermittent time. That's it…
#ADHD
Apr 20 • 5 tweets • 1 min read
I’m the autistic RFKjr warned you about. A “dire threat” to America.
I have strengths. I am articulate… in my way.
I have challenges. I only function a few days a week. And not at all after a few hours of human contact.
Since I was a child.
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I had some accomplishments... despite these l facts. But not one of them justifies my existence.
But I… like many of us… have touched thousands of lives. Cuz we’re everywhere.
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Apr 4 • 5 tweets • 1 min read
there's that zen story about a monk falling off a cliff... grabbing a strawberry growing in a crevice as he flashes by. And savoring the sweet. Knowing he's hurtling toward a painful death.
there's this #ActuallyAutistic story of me falling off cliff after cliff...
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hurtling toward death after painful ego death. career after career.
enraptured by fruit after strange fruit… after really weird career switch.
Street art on a yellow wall beside a school yard fence. A woman wearing headphones raises her fist in defiant solidarity while a child reaches
Mar 21 • 4 tweets • 2 min read
"Fear is NOT the mind-killer. Denial is.
I must honor my fear.
Fear is my guardian. My junkyard dog. My screaming siren."
How Trump's attacks on #Neurodivergent’s affect 1 in 4 US homes.
Our most viral episode. Listen now.
#ActuallyAutistic #IEP
open.substack.com/pub/johnnyprof…
First, we're other.
Then, we're less than human.
A burden.
A danger.
Finally…
A target
For violence.
And hate crimes against Americans with disabilities have risen 29.5% over the last five years. As American political discourse has darkened.
See what I mean?
Mar 19 • 7 tweets • 2 min read
I just want to put this out there. My autistic experience. Maybe no one else's.
For awhile? I was misdiagnosed bipolar II. Which led to unfortunate meds… and side effects. Permanent.
#ActuallyAutistic #ADHD #Bipolar
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See… I tested with a gifted IQ. But because of my spiky cognitive profile? I definitely perform at a subnormal level.
Here’s the deal…
During periods of clarity, I can indeed do some things that amaze me. I founded and ran an award-winning magazine at 30.
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Mar 18 • 4 tweets • 1 min read
an autistic meltdown is fight flight freeze & appease all at once.
even when it comes out as "fuck You fuck You fuck you."
it's a tiger seagull deer cringing dog all smashed into the same moment. like if a qubit could scream.
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despite my spiritual ... pretensions... this has been my truth. sunce 1953.
My mileage may vary.
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Mar 12 • 7 tweets • 2 min read
I'm an autistic writer and podcaster. I chose the "stage name" of Johnny Profane Âû.
why? I wanted to say what I really needed to say... without masking.
#ActuallyAutistic #Neurodivergent #ADHD
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ironically I couldn't begin to do that without the fig leaf of internal cosplay.
i wasn't saying these things. Johnny Profane was.
cool thing? in time i wasn't listening to him any more
i was listening to me. then just speaking the truth.
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Mar 10 • 5 tweets • 1 min read
We sure blew past that goal! On Day $4!
Thanks to
Bernard Grant,
David Perlmutter,
Tony V in LV,
LivingWithHarmony,
Sam Farmer,
Ian Lawton,
Eric,
Krishna Sadhana,
Kara Mace!
I hope you can forgive me... I'm leaving the 7-day fund raiser up.
THEN, the tens of thousands who read/listen. Silently.
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Feb 23 • 4 tweets • 1 min read
@perplexity_ai? Most useful AI app I've used to date… & keeps improving at a fast rate.
Deep research,
brainstorming creative writing,
editing,
research,
project organizing via Spaces,
AI assistant to keep me on track,
+ instant search for tech support or any casual thing.
Perplexity offers a whole lotta executive functioning help for this #autistic + #ADHD.
Feb 22 • 5 tweets • 1 min read
I'm #autistic. I've re-read the Dune series... maybe a dozen times since 1965.
How about you?
Are you #Neurodivergent? Do you re-experience your faves?
#AskingAutistics
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I love re-reading. LOVE it.
I relive memories. I'm back in the moment. Like that, I re-experience the depth of emotion, insight, beauty each re-visit of a book or movie.
It becomes a deeply nuanced experience. Layers of feeling & sensations from various ages I re-read.
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Feb 19 • 7 tweets • 2 min read
Trump administration identifying #Autism, #ADHD as "direct threats to the American people."
Underlying many of Trump's policies?
Eugenics. Against all disability.
Libertarian survival of the fittest.
#ActuallyAutistic
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