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[She/her] Adult content creator. Photographer. Rope bondage slut. intersectional feminist. NSFW content frequently posted from this account.
Nov 20, 2018 17 tweets 6 min read
CW: body image, reflections on weight, physical health, aging ...

When I look at this image I feel a lot of awe and disbelief that I am the person in this picture.

Tied by @secondfloor_fet
Image by @tracimatlock When I first started doing rope over 4 years ago, I was a decidedly un-athletic person. I had no core strength to speak of and had no particular desire or motivation to work out. Which is all perfectly fine because no one's worth is determined by how physically fit they are.
Oct 5, 2018 6 tweets 2 min read
Really helpful session with my therapist today. We did a cleansing/protection visualization where I purged the bad shit I was hanging onto and put up a protective shield to help me move though the world with all this difficult shit going on right now. I told her that I didn’t feel strong enough to maintain the protection shield and that it would dissipate if I lost focus. But I immediately realized that I don’t have to hold the shield up constantly, I can just raise it when I need it.