Over the last few years, I've noticed cognitive challenges -- with reading, comprehension, and faulty word choice -- that have me concerned that benzodiazepine use may be causing the problem. Impossible to prove, but the problems have increased with use in the last few years. 1/9
Over the last month, I've cut back on my use considerably and I'm realizing that one frequent problem, faulty word choice when writing, has not been happening since I cut back. I had been typing words that sounded similar to the word I actually wanted, but not recently. 2/9
Jan 17 • 9 tweets • 2 min read
My mom told me the story of my dad scolding me for something once when he was holding me as a baby and her looking over again seconds later to see me fast asleep. That sleep response to stress, along with a waking detachment from the world, is where my work lies in therapy.
There is work to do on attachment but it’s likely related to how I experience my emotional responses to being in the world versus the interior emotional space I am willing and able to make for others. The latter is rich and large, the former are dampened and detached.
Jan 5 • 15 tweets • 4 min read
One of the things that’s making therapy meaningful right now is that I am talking about my attachment to my therapist. Attachment is one of the bigger areas of progress we have made together and yet it’s fascinating to me that I am not particularly attached to him…
Someone I know started seeing him and how attached they have become to him (since they do talk about their experiences with him with me) has opened my eyes to this. I think I always knew it but the contrast between their attachment in two years and mine in twenty is really stark.
