things don’t have to be going well to feel good. you can train to feel good unconditionally by stopping the clinging that underlies suffering and then try to improve your life and others’ once that’s sorted. feeling good can be a constant not a barometer of your life story it’s a myth that the highs only feel good because of the lows. valence is absolute and having an amazing day every day is both possible and better than having an amazing day only sometimes

idk if i believe the log claim fully, but time def speeds up for most humans and meditation can undo it. hard to measure subjectively, but maybe by 2/3rds? almost everyone who meditates a lot for a decade says this, subjectively it feels like childhood again in a way

https://twitter.com/moultano/status/2006002890465513562

if you think your lifespan will be decided by a communal external event (pandemic, ai god, etc) rather than an individual health thing, slowing down subjective time might be the only longevity intervention one can do

everyone loves the do what feels good advice until they realize it leads to letting go and dissolving into nirvana the both convenient and inconvenient truth about the physics of consciousness is that the right type of nothing feels better than almost every and possibly literally every something

my experience on "the path" or whatever so far is there's an incredible, shocking amount of karma stored in the body from unfelt emotions over what has been a kind of pretty overall great life. its wild how much the body stored. going through the storehouse is exponential with time, and can be done with almost no suffering, but lots and lots of feeling

at least thousands of hours total just letting contractions untense, on the hour long zoomed in view it feels like maybe this is all procedurally generated and fake but over the year to year view it's super obvious in a daily felt experience way that the total storehouse is decreasing, which is also what all the books since forever say is how it works mostly i dont control when the things want to come up, i try to just drop whatever i'm doing and lay down for an hour and let them flow/uncontract unless i'm quite in the middle of something. more flexibility in your schedule def makes this easier. sometimes 30s, up to 1-2hrs

meditation might have the worst pedagogy of any field. they solved the cause* and cure** to suffering but hid it behind weird poems and deities

* clenching and resistance
** train to not resist, see how you gradually feel way better, see the non-specialness of self-sensations

https://twitter.com/bayeslord/status/1958044661735395413

I guess I don’t even know what to cause the field, bc meditation is more (part of) the cure than the field itself. maybe the field is early phenomenology researchers?

any view of intelligence that's fixed across time (like iq) is dumb, my ability to solve hard intellectual problems over a given span of time varies like 100x depending on how i'm feeling. i'm bottlenecked on "time in ideal state" not peak capability and i suspect most are too i do think intelligence disparities are very real but i rarely think it's the bottleneck even within like theoretical research sciences (most of what i do), but certainly in most applied areas

the most wealthy people mostly got there by purposefully doing the things that create the most wealth over a long time horizon

the most happy people mostly got there by purposefully doing the things that create the most happy over a long time horizon the way you make the most wealth isn't by making higher and higher hourly wage it's by creating an equity and then causing that equity to go up, usually via a tech company. that's sort of just how the "physics of wealth" works out

if you’re high functioning autistic I think it’s worth trying to change it and mitigate its downsides, the “I have autism must accept every symptom 100%” thing I think is a bit too far. mdma, oxytocin nasal spray, meditation, exposure therapy, regular therapy I think can do a lot

https://twitter.com/nickcammarata/status/1836573676147478584

I think autism is completely real in the same way that depression is real but identifying with “I’m a depressed person” can be extremely life limiting. I think it’s important not to fall into learned helplessness. Though kindness with yourself along the way is critical too

I tend to think I understand my own unresolved “inner work” (“I contract here because I’m afraid of X from event Y”), but almost every time I’m wrong. When the contraction finally releases, the real reason surprises me. If I’d truly understood, it would already be gone Or I’ll think, “I intellectually understand why I’m doing X but haven’t emotionally processed it,” and that’s wrong too—I’m always missing deeper layers. When the real insight arrives, it makes way more sense both felt-emotionally and intellectually

I wish there were better neuroimaging tools to measure happiness. you can look at the financially wealthiest people on earth and see how they got there (mostly start tech startups and hold the equity a long time). you can’t do the same with happiness bc too many people faking I think you’d see roughly the same narrowness of paths if you had the imaging and then sorted. there’s a physics of happiness in the same sense there’s a physics of money. if you want 100 billion there’s only a few ways to do it. if you want to 100x happiness only a few ways

there should be like one month all in retreats where you do all the healthy things at once. you have doctors and physical trainers and you maintain perfect diet and it’s also a meditation retreat. It’d be 10x easier to teach people meditation if all their habits were good imo all the things compound on each other so there’s a benefit to doing them all at once. And then after the month I highly doubt anyone will revert that much once they realize what doing all the good things can feel like

meditation can be like learning a bunch of cool tricks as a giant black hole gets slowly closer and closer to you every time you do a trick, and you fear the black hole, but you love doing the tricks. Then the black hole eats you and it’s so much better than any of the tricks Also it wasn’t a black hole it was kind of nothing but an amazing nothing

I’m surprised more people don’t experiment to find food they find like >8.5/10 both healthy and tasty. the upside over the long term of eating healthy almost all the time is so huge (much of life/health variance) that if you can find a way to do it w/o willpower that’s a big win I haven’t worked out any numbers but my guess is that any willpower/coercion spent on food is better spent on designing and running experiments (ai can help) to find food that doesn’t require coercion to eat, than spent on directly eating healthy food you don’t like eating

i think the “everyone is traumatized” (lowercase t trauma) therapy thing isn’t a fake fad, basically everyone is quite traumatized (stored emotional contractions in the body), which is fine bc you can still have a very wonderful life. but we should make humans less traumatizable most animals don’t seem so traumatizable, I think humans are prob uniquely sensitive. storing patterns makes us smarter, and humans are really smart, but it’s a giant cost and we can prob find a way to get the benefits without the costs

increasingly convinced the body is like this insane fractal database for storing emotions and particularly emotional pain. I’ve had a great life, am generally quite happy, and releasing the pain doesn’t cause suffering, but the raw amount I’ve found in there is absurd so either my body is particularly good at storing it, or I’m more traumatizable than ordinarily (though by all external measures I’m less), or everyone is carrying around an absurd amount of gunk

good news is the more I clear it out the better I feel, but there’s a looot

I’ve gotten a lot of benefit out of assuming animals are ten times intellectually dumber than I think and ten times emotionally smarter basically every animal bigger than a worm is more emotionally attuned than the average man in sf

i make like three @slatestarcodex style "X: Much More Than You Wanted To Know" reports a day now with Deep Research and it's wonderful i don't consume a huge variety of things, i'm a pretty habitual creature, so I basically went through and read phd-level 5 page on each of the ingredients to make sure I pretty thoroughly understand everything going into my body

deep research has increased my learning speed to an almost absurd degree. i'll go from wondering how people have handled CLIP adversarial overfitting in the guided diffusion literature (not really my field) to a pretty thorough understanding in like 30 seconds of active work it might actually be faster than having the world expert next to me, because I can read faster than they could talk

there are almost no areas of my life that ai isn't currently dramatically improving it designs my exercise routines (iterated on with personal trainer), finances (iterated on with financial organizer), mealplans (iterated on with schizo health friends), it reads and writes my emails, house design (sent to gardener/designer), lots of human+ai symbiosis

willingness to think for myself before asking claude is reaching new lows, some glare on my screen i instinctively take photo of desk and ask claude how to reduce rather than thinking about it. barely even read output i just skim. brain use baseline lower than ever. i am happy i had a (luckily minor) head accident recently and claude was like try to avoid using brain too much for a few days to avoid concussion risk and i'm like way ahead of you doc you solved that for me a while ago

i think more accurate than long term meditation turning you into a wise sage is it turning you into a happy dog. little object permanence, happy mostly for no reason, whatever is in front of you right now is your whole world. little state / short term memory, hard to traumatize prob unlike a dog it usually ups intelligence in practice, bc being able to sit with a problem for an hour effortlessly without distraction just helps a lot, and for some reason it seems to way up long term memory for almost everyone. i can remember almost every month of my life