Two years ago, I had a horrible psych appt. I advocated for myself and was dismissed at every turn. I recorded the appt & posted it last year.

I was interviewed in a GLAMOUR UK article about autistic women being dismissed by doctors.

I’ve long since been confirmed autistic by an autistic healthcare provider.

Anything else, complete stranger from thousands of miles away? Original thread:

https://twitter.com/pot8um/status/1530572704176283648

The bloodlust in your words drips with white supremacy.

White American Zionists, you are white FIRST. And you clearly don’t see humanity in people who don’t look like you.

Your judgement is compromised. You need to take a second to realize how fucking evil you sound.
🧵 Perpetuating the cycle of abuse by condoning Palestinian genocide is not how people heal.

The propaganda has seeped into your brains and you’ve been bathing in it. As an American, I can spot a propagandized brain. I’m surrounded by it.

You’re siding with evil.

A 🧵 about time

I don’t have a clue how I made it thru K-12, undergrad, and a year of grad school with that perpetual walls-are-closing-in feeling.

Deadlines, papers, homework, tests, rehearsals, concerts, recitals, juries… christ.

But I think I might’ve just figured out why. Being time-blind can mean a lot of things.

Sometimes an hour feels like a day. Sometimes a day feels like a week.
Or a week feels like a couple days.
Or an hour goes by in 15 minutes.

These aren’t isolated incidents.
This is just my fucked-up relationship with time.

This book is full of answers to the questions I’ve harbored my whole life. It’s important to be able to identify these attributes in the people who raised us. This chapter was eye-opening.
1/13 You may find that your parent(s) embody more than one type of EI parent. The author describes this as common. While your parent may not fit into one type perfectly, they may employ behaviors from multiple types.
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Pre-vax 2020 was telling.

The locals bar-hopping like nothing was happening.

Performative activism online until it’s time to put up or shut up.

2.5 years later, they’re on their 4th infection, wondering why they can’t roll over in bed anymore without getting winded.

A rant 🧵 Emotionally immature people, when put in positions of authority, don’t magically develop insight and maturity from being in that position.

If they address their personal problems by suppressing and avoiding them, their public policies will reflect that.

Can I just— real quick—

Female + Human = Woman

Using “female” as a noun for “woman” is one of *the* biggest red flags.

Everyone I’ve seen use this language in earnest has turned out to be some form of shitbag and I’ve yet to meet an exception. If you didn’t realize the misogynist implications of this, I get it.

Folks who view women as less than human are often the loudest ones in the room.

If you grew up around that, it’s inevitable to internalize some of it.

The onus is on us as adults to unlearn it and do better.

This past spring, a neighbor started taking her *leashed* dog on bathroom walks thru my backyard.

I watched her do it 3 times before I confronted her. She said she wouldn’t bother me again.

A few days later, she’d sent her boyfriend to walk the dog instead.
1/4 In the off chance that he was unaware, I politely said “this is private property.”

He said “…okay?” in a “like I give a shit?” tone. That was it. I said “Get off my property. NOW.” He left.

Ironically, they have a PRIVATE PROPERTY sign hanging in their living room window.
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Here are some slides that I made after finishing the third chapter. This reading material is heavy and it requires me to walk away a lot. Nevertheless, this material is helping me process some unresolved feelings, and I hope it’ll help you too. 🧵 If emotional immaturity is the baseline of your relationships growing up, you may seek that same relationship dynamic in adulthood— whether you realize it or not.

AuDHD is a constant tug-of-war— contradictions that exist simultaneously that I feel equally strongly about.

I saved these shortly after being dx + medicated with ADHD last year. It was the first time I began to seriously consider the possibility that I was also autistic. 1/8 🧵 Each of these are so familiar to me, but I could never articulate my experiences with the right language. Also, if you don’t know what you’re experiencing is AuDHD, you don’t know what questions to ask. You didn’t know you were even supposed to *have* questions! 2/8

I hadn’t heard of Brandy Melville until just now. That’s how I know I’m old. But listen.

It reminds me of Hollister and Abercrombie. Those stores + those who shopped there tortured me growing up. I weighed 140 in 6th grade, so their clothes didn’t fit (nor could I afford it) 🧵 According to classmates, it was *the* thing to wear. In 5th grade, I begged my mom to get me a pair of army green cargo pants from Hollister. She paid $80 for them. Within a month, all the buttons had fallen off.

This week, I brought up an autism assessment with my psychiatrist for the second time.
The first time, he told me I can’t be autistic because I don’t speak in a monotone voice.
During this visit, he told me I can’t be autistic because I’m a good communicator. I told him that there exists a generation of girls and women just like me who fell through the cracks— who always knew we were different, but couldn’t pinpoint how. We were dismissed as weird, anxious, rude, cold bitches. We’ve suffered in silence our whole lives.